Our last visit
If anyone truly knows me, they know how much I love Matt. The past year of my life has been extremely difficult. I got pregnant, the father of my then unborn child was put in prison, I lost my apartment, my car, and my job. I went to Macon because my best friend was throwing my babyshower. Matt asked me to come see his new place, and so I did. That night, we watched a whole season of Trailerpark Boys without moving from the couch. He held me tight and kept his hand on my belly, giggling every time he felt a kick. He leaned down and whispered to my belly, " I'm gonna teach you how to play the guitar so you can get all the chicks." He asked me to stay the night, so I did. He held me simply because I think he knew how badly I needed it. He told me he loved me over and over and kissed me on the forehead. "You're gonna be a great mom. Don't worry Paizley." He brought such a wave of peace over me, that I didn't even get sick that night like I always did. He made me breakfast for dinner and set his stove on fire. He gave me vitamins. We spent the next day together as well. I drove us to El Sombrero and he made me turn around so he could talk to a homeless guy under the bridge. He called him by name, gave him his pack of cigarettes and the last 8$ he had in his pocket, ad ten told him to come by Ginger later and he'd feed him. We went to eat and then back to his place. We hung out for a while, but I had to leave the next day for Florida. That was the last time I saw him. But we talked everyday. Matt and I had our ups and downs, but he wanted to come to fl to help me with the baby and live with me. That was the plan. I wish it had happened. I wish I had been able to save him. He was the most beautiful creature I have ever known, and no one will ever love me as much as he did.