My belief is that i will see you very soon. hold on heaven or the christ is a wonderful place..miss you love grandma

i miss you my grandson, so so much. it is heart breaking to me and i do not think a dy goes bye that i dont think of you. love grandma jamie3

u r in my dreams and i hold u tight all day. Matt. I am coming. GrandmaJamie

I love you with all my heart and soul. Grandma Jamie

they say it takes a year to grief. 4-me it will be always. Well until we meet in heaven. I can not visit your grave today, as my hert is so broken i can not take it. I love and miss u.
grandma

It's been a year Matt and I will tell you I hurt just as much today as I did one year ago. I have not written on here in a long time. It just got so hard to do. I miss you so very much and I keep trying to just go day by day. We had to put miss molly down yesterday so I am betting she is following you around now. The kitty is lost without her though keeps looking for her and calling for her.. so sad. Your brothers are doing good I am sure you know that though and Joey is working all the time so he is doing well also. Happy Angel day baby and give me a bit of strength today for I think I am going to be needing it. I love you lots bud.

it is ok, Matt, i know why you left us. your with friends and ancestry. we are coming, all is well, once i understood all that grief left/ thanks for your visits and watching over us all. your getting very much stronger than u first were as a soul gone home. love me, i love you , grandma j

i miss you so so so much. So many questions yet no answers. I feel this all consuming guilt, I failed you somehow. And for that I am so sorry. But that won't bring you back. I feel I am walking the line between reality and dream, or maybe the line of one step and I will loose it. I try to not show emotion to much and try to keep up beat for your brothers and family and friends but I am right there at that end of my rope. I want to scream but I know it won't change a thing. I wanna run but where do I go. At the end of the day I just want you back. I love you so much always have always will. I just gotta figure out how to live now with part of me missing, I guess we all do at that. Your brothers have been amazing. I am so proud of them you would be too. Danny the other day said "Matt would be impressed I match from head to toe today". It made me smile. I look at all the dandalines and it makes me think of you. My heart aches, my mind is confused and my soul is lost right now. I love you Matty ryder.

Thinking about with my mom Joyce and wanted to say your the best friend ever. Hope everyone else thinks the same thing. Well got to go and wanted to say love you and had a dream about u we were on the zipper at the fair well see you later Matt

its ok Matt. i do love you so much. grandma jamie

your a very noisy sneak, Matt. I still hear you. I know your with grandpa, great uncle Phil and Great Grandma. I will be their soon. i am waiting, Life is a lonesome place to be. love grandma jamie. ps. say hi to your sister for us.

I c your making a racket in my house. your welcome to come by anytime. love grandma jamie

I c your making a racket in my house. your welcome to come by anytime. love grandma jamie

Happy Birthday my love. We miss you so much it hurts.

Missing you a lot right now. Had dreams of you all night. What I would give to just have been able to talk to you at that moment, let you know you were not alone. Even though you felt so alone but my love you never were. I miss your smile and your laugh. I am having a tough time Matthew.

Its been over a month now since youve been gone ...iv let months go by in the past without ever saying a word...but this past month has been the hardest knowing i can never say another word to you again wishing we would have said more to one another the last time we were together,... you are thought about with each passing day

There are things in life we don't want to happen, but we have to accept; things we don't want to know, but have to learn and people we can't live without, but we have to let go.

I find myself to be a bit lost right now. I want to talk to you like we use to sit and talk about anything. I want to hear your voice one more time, tell you how much I love you. All I ever wished for, for you and your brothers was to live life to the fullest, love hard, adventure and be happy. I miss you terribly Matt.