- 22 years old
- Date of birth: Dec 3, 1986
- Place of birth:
Bloomington, Indiana, United States
- Date of passing: Nov 21, 2009
- Place of passing:
Huntsville, Alabama, United States
Do not stand at my grave and weep. I am not there. I do not sleep. I am a thousand winds that blow. I am the diamond glints on snow. I am the sunlight on ripened grain. I am the gentle autumn rain. When you awaken in the mornings hush. I am the swift uplifting rush of quiet birds in circling flight. I am the soft star ...that shines at night. Do not stand at my grave and cry. I am not there. I did not die. Anonymous
I love you baby and I know the above is so true. You have been sending me snow for weeks now. When it falls so softly landing on my cheek I know its your loving touch giving me what i seek. Love you always Mom.
Matthew was the love of my life and my best friend. He was a loving and devoted father and a compassionate and loving friend to everyone who knew him. Throughout his life he was bouncing off the walls. He was the most energetic person I have ever known. He was fearless and just learning how to be a man. He was patient and funny. He had a great sense of humor and loved to make everyone laugh. He was involved in a one vehicle car accident on November 17th, 2009. He was on life support for four days. They asked me to take him off the ventilator and I could not make that decision. I prayed to God that if it was his will for Matthew to stay here with us to please spare him. I also asked that if God was going to take him from us, then to please take him now. God answered my prayer Saturday Novemeber 21st, 2009 at 1:50 pm. I am devastated. A parent should never have to lose a child. Its not natural. I am broken inside and will never understand. The only thing I have now is the hope that I will someday see my child again and be able to take him in my arms. He is with God in heaven now and I know all his troubles and worries are over.
Matthew was an organ donor, I was unaware of this until they asked me if i wanted to honor his wishes. He saved four people that weekend. He donated his heart, both kidneys, and his liver. The recipients are doing well. This page will be continuously updated as i work on the story of his life. This page may never end. He lives on and we as his family experience his presence everyday. The song thats playing was on his cell phone and I chose to place it here. There is a message in it from him to everyone that loved him. Thank you for visiting and please feel free to leave your stories and memories of him. I want to hear them all.
"Hey its been awhile since I wrote..
Guess what your sons 7 years old gahh were has the time gone
I miss you so much...
It still hurts today then it did 7 years ago!
I love you so much
Gage watch's your memorial CD
An he just Cry's says he just misses you so much an wants to see you!
What do I say I always get lost forwwords!r"
"Happy Birthday baby boy. It hurts my heart to know that you will always be Forever 22. You are my love, and i miss you with every beat of my heart. Please know that you are in my heart and on my mind, not just this special day but every day. I love you and pray that we will be together again someday. Until then I love you my sweet angel baby. Love Mom"
"Dear Matt, it has been six years today since you left us. I miss you, i miss you with every beat of my heart. They said it would get easier with time. It doesn't. It's is still as fresh today as it was then. I stay busy, I don't think as much when i am busy. I sometimes feel like a chicken with my head cut off. That is how i cope. This little one I am raising, your namesake, keeps me going, busy, and that makes it easier to deal. I find some comfort in the thought that you donated your heart to someone and it still beats with every breathe he takes. You were one of a kind and so good. Awww you weren't perfect at all in making decisions, but who on this planet is? You were perfect in loving people more than you loved yourself. I am proud of whom you were becoming. You still had your whole life ahead of you. No one will ever know what you would have accomplished. I used to regret the way i raised you because well I was young and stupid and should have made better decisions. I to wasn't perfect. But I loved you and I would have fought to the death to protect you. I do have one regret, and that is "I wish I had held on to you so tight that even God couldn't have pulled you away"."
"I love you. I miss you. A mother should not have to go through this."
"Ur sons birthday is comin soon he will be three n it still breaks my heart that ur not here to see ur grow up to be an intelagent y boy i will never truely understand y god took my true love from me n gage he knws who u r and hes growin up to look jus like you!ily matthew martin"
"well its 3 am an i wide awake thinking bout u!! i miss u so much that it hurts still people dont realixe what i go through but i hold everything in i wish u was here so u could hold me an i cry an you tell me everything is gonna be okay:'( its really hard doin this with out you!I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AN I STILL DO!! gage is growin so fast reminds me of u everyday! ily bby"
"Hey i havent been on in awhile an i jus wanted u to knw that i still think about u an love yu till this day!! u really mean the world to me ann i jus cant believe your gone:( gage is growin up so much an he looks like u everyday. it bring a blessing to my heart that i have apart of u in my life.gage means the world to me an i knw u watch over i us everdaY.I knw u loved me an gage.well ily:"
"The holidays are coming you are on our minds everyday in every way. Got your babies stuff out of layaway. Shipping the 2nd week of December. They are doing well. Hate the thought of them growing up without you.ill talk to you soon and will be back on November 17th. Love you, Mom"
"Its Sunday and someone posted on your site,thats what brought me here.Crying like crazy right now. Missing you like crazy. I guess your looking fown from Heaven and thinking mom has lost her mind and i would say thats true. Love you"
it's been awhile, a long while lol. i don't know if you want to hear from me or not but i just wanted to tell you that i missed you ... you were a great friend and i am sorry for everything that happened throughout the years....."
"Happy Birthday baby, I love you and miss you, I am thinking of you on this day and wish you were here with us all. Love mom"
"Having a hard time here, missing you like crazy. Seeing a counselor and I guess its helping, idk. Sitting at the library on your page of course. Love you so much."
"I dont come here often, I can not stand to think of you as gone. The anniversary is coming up and I get worse everyday. I miss you soooo much and life is not the same without you. Your sister misses you to, everyone does. I am working with the AHA this year. Your mom is shining in her work, just like you are shining down upon us. I have never loved anyone as much as you and Jenn, Love Mom"
"Sleep tight sweetheart, look down on your special family keep there hearts safe god bless xxxxx"
"hey matthew i jus want you to knw i miss you so much and i love you!! i knw you will always be with us love your wife maygan"
"RIP Mat I bet your tearing up heaven from what your mom has written.
"Hey Matthina~! J/K! I love you and miss you alot even though it still after two months doesn't seem like your gone. I guess you really aren't. You are still with us and I know you are. We love you!"
"Hey baby boy, I love you and miss you terribly. I know that your at peace in heaven. Your troubles and trials are over. I can not wait to see you again and hold you in my arms."
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