My dad was kind caring goofy respectful dad, n very loveable nunderstanding man him n his adopted me when I was a baby n took care of me like I was their own I remember my dad help me blew out my third bbirthday candle out , or when I played in the snow with him when I used to take me to the candy store n brought me my first mm&&m'' plain chocolate candy n my first white Castle  cheeseburger  n Wendy's n McDonald's n burger King n he ttaught me how do math n count money at a young age n he took good care of when I was sick like the chicken pips or when I had food poisoning ,  n when my dad took me to first jr high school dance, when a boy asked me out  or when I was selected the student of the month at twin hill jr high school in new Jersey n he have always protected me from mom.... bUT the day I heard my dad was very sick n in the hospital in Queens nyc n my frosted sister told me the bad news of my father  when I was living in Maryland at the time I total completely fucking lost it is have cried my heart out he is my idol my role model my icon n my best friend n my dad . whence I went to funeral  I jumped into his coffin  n I told him im ssorry  I wasn't there to say good bye to him n that I love him soon much I'd die inside the coffin with my dad.....it was very hard for me to let me go n still is but I know he is heaven now with jesus n free from the stroke he had n the heart attack  n the  ammonia that he die from he was very sick ..   but he will always be my dad he died at the age of 84  . dad I love you so much n I miss you so dearly n I know I'll see you again n this is for you I love you your baby daughter hilda Maria gonzalez