- 42 years old
- Date of birth: Aug 9, 1971
- Date of passing: Oct 14, 2013
|Let the memory of Maxine be with us forever|
"In loving memory of my dear Cousin Maxine, it seems like such a short time ago that you were here. I think of you every time I go to Liza's as she has a family photo with you and all the gagne and the silver jubilee photos bring a smile to my face when I think how cute and cheeky you alway was. Love and miss you the world"
I am not writing a lot today because the pome says everything but I hope that you know that I love you and miss you so much I waist you was hear to see that not above where you can see me but I can't see you xx
Should I be feeling guilty, was there something I didn't do?
Did I not do enough to show all the love I had inside for you?
If you could say three words to me, would they be the one I'd want to hear?
When I knock on heavens door for you will you push me away or hold me near?
There's a million questions that I have inside,
And a million more that keep coming to mind,
Like where are you now and are you free from all your pain?
If someone asked you about me would you even remember my name?
I hope I've never left you disappointed or ever let you down,
That all you've done is smile for me and upon me you've never frowned,
I want you to be proud of me, in the many years how far I've come,
From the smallest to the biggest things that I have ever done.
Even though you left me here without a mum so young,
I'd never say your name in vain, disrespect you or do you wrong.
So all the questions I have inside, I guess they'll grow to more,
Just promise me you'll be there the day I knock on heavens door.
Sweet dreams xxx"
I thought about today and how Tracy called me I heard you in her voice when she said I love you and I hope you know every day how much I love and miss you I wrote another pome for you
It's called take care of the ones you love
I glare at a dimly light room
I enter and see your face
First I wonder where is this place
All questions are quickly tossed aside
As your eyes once again meet mine
Has it really been 2 years?
Since we last said hello?
Since we lasted kissed goodbye?
I dont want to know why you have visited me
I'm satisfied hearing your voice ever so softly
Softly you whisper your motherly advise
With your words I'll never have to think twice
You made me promise to always take care of the people I love
Then the room slowly fades away like a flying dove
The dim light fades back to black
And I'll never forget how I awoke in a cold sweat
Tears endlessly crawled down my face
As I realise the truth of that place
Is a dream or so it seems
It was a dream so real thank you for visiting me
Thank you for letting me hear your voice and see you're smile
I've missed it for a long while
As you watch on us from above
I promise to take care of the ones I love
I really hope you enjoyed that and I love you forever and always I really do love you and miss you like crazy
Sweet dreams xxx"
"hi my darling, just sitting here thinking about you today and wish I could just pick up the phone an hear your beautiful voice, every time I think of you all I do is cry, I really can't let you go, I hear our little ambie speak about you with heartache in her voice, my promise to you I will always be here for them all as long as they need me, we all miss you so much n it don't seem to get any easier , I will continue talking about you n keep your memory alive , I will tell the kids story's about you when you were small and the things you used to get up to just to see a smile on their faces, bye for now my beautiful baby sister xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx"
I really miss you and I sit and read all of this beautiful things to you and I look back now when you was around and I wish that I showed you how much I loved you and I still do I have written many things for you on here now that I can cope seeing this message and being reminded of you I often feel that I can't go on any more I used to feel depressed and only ever felt sad so I wanted to leave this world but then I release that I need to move in and it's not my fault you had to fight the hardest battle ever and every day silently and slowly you moved on you was in pain you didn't have to tell me there was little sings like the colour would drain from you face or you would slowly get slimmer and your gold bracelet went up your arm but even though you are gone you missed,respected but most importantly loved and look at all the things that's happened like the charrty thing where some low life disgrace took it but West Ham fans people who didn't know you but respected you and your battle that they help out that is only one out of a million and I hope you know you are missed so much they say that times a healer but when does it start it may sound silly but I bye you Christmas cards,mothers day cards,birthday cards,Valentine's Day cards even I miss you cards
They say there is a reson
they say that time will heel
But neither time ir reson will change the way I feel
For know one knows the heartache
That lies behind my smile
For know one knows how many times I have broken down and cried
I want to tell you something
So there will be no doubt
You are so wonder full to think of
But so very hard to live without
Yet I thought about you today
But that was nothing new
I thought about you yesterday and the day before that two
I think of you in silence
I often speek your name
All I have are memories
And a picture in a frame
Your memory is a keep safe
From witch I'll never part
God has you in his arms
But I have you in my heart
I love you forever and always I miss you more and more
But no words can explain how much I love you and I'll speek to you tomorrow
Sweet dreams xxxxxxx"
"Hi Max just passing by to give you this candle of light in remembrance of you, R.I.P my friend and may the most high guide over you, blessed love."
"well babe you had so many beautiful family n friends wish you a heaveily happy birthday, just wish you could be here with us all, healthy n happy, I trying to carry on without you mat but its so hard, It was really hard for mum n dad even to write on yr balloons, the kids miss you so much darling they really do as we all do as a family, until we meet again my baby sis you will never leave my heart xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx"
"Happy 44th Earthday to you Max miss you loads."
"well baby sis another Christmas with out you, I know this sound silly but I sometimes forget yr not here and go to pick up the phone to give you a call, then it hits me yr not here, then the floods of tears start, I want to wish you a happy Christmas in heaven darling sending up loads of hugs n love, love you baby sis xxxxxxxx"
"My beautiful auntie im hoping you had a lovely birthday in heaven with the rest of the family and friends that are with you, we hope u liked our balloons we sent up to you yesterday with our messages. I still cry and wonder why it had to be you, we miss you everyday And will continue to do so till we meet again, you will always be my hero and i love you millions your strength and your fight is an inspiration to all of us, and everyday we will make sure we smile for for you, and the fact your free from any pain and discomfort.. The last cuddle we had will stay with me untill we can have one again love you always your Dan Dan x x x x x"
"Hi my darling well i hope you had a beautiful birthday in heaven with the rest of our lovely family, you are missed so much there are no words to explain just how much
i love you and you will always remain in my heart until we meet again xxxx"
"Well Maxine just to wish you a very lovly heavenly Earthday miss you my friend."
"Hi Maxine, today the sun made me think of all the people that alway bring a smile. You came to mind. I have great child memories of us together at Nanny Gins, and I see pictures of the kids on Facebook and think how proud you would be. I know that it is because of you that they are such lovely kids. We all miss you and when I have days thinking life's unfair, I think about you and know it's true and that I owe it to you to live every day to the 'MAX" god bless you babe. Love Sam x x"
i miss you so much and i will miss you forever more i know you are there even though i cant see you i will all ways love you because
those we love don't go away
they sit beside us every day
unseen unheard yet still hear
still loved still missed and so very dear
and i know mummy that every day i talk to you are up there talking back and smiling but now i know mummy you are safe and happy and out of pain but now i know
Heaven is your home
though i weep and grieve
i remember the love and joy
that we together weaved
Heaven is your home
though it bracks my heart
it will not be forever
we remain apart
Heaven is your home
but when my time
is done I will see
you there shinning
brighter then the
rip mummy xxxxxxxxxxxxx i will miss you forever so all that i can do now is lock you in my hart and frow away the key
love amber xxxxxx"
"I never got to meet you Maxine but that was my loss,because I have learnt through our family how much love and respect everybody has for you. I am sure the rest of the family are looking after you up there now, and you can watch over your children and feel very proud because you did a fantastic job.God Bless you Maxine xxxx"
"I lost a mother
I lost my best friend
I lost a love I thought would never end
I lost my heart
I lost my soul
I Lost a person I thought would never go
I lost my guidance
I lost my light
And you lost a battle you had to fight
I miss you now
I'll miss you tomorrow
Nothing seems to ease my sorrow
I lost everything the day you had to leave
Forever more my heart will grieve
I'm lost and I dont know what to do
I'm lost because I lost you
09/08/1971 - 14/10/2013
Love Chelsea x"
"Mummy .. I just can't find the words to tell how much I crave for your presence or how much pain I'm in
I can't seem to accept the fact your really gone
I still go on watsapp to send you pictures of your little Aaliyah growing up
I just miss you so much mummy :'(
I just want you to come home so much
I pray everyday that god is keeping you safe
I'm so sorry for all the bad things I ever did
I hope you forgive me
My guilt will remain for ever
It eats away at me everyday and my life is bit by bit falling apart
I've written lots of things for you
And day by day I will post them on here
I love you for ever my beautiful mummy </3
When You Lose Someone You Love Your World Stops Spinning
You Suddenly Feel The Only One Moving In A Paused Landscape
The Distant Noise Of A Clock Ticking
Yet The Hand Aren't Moving
Staring At The Face Of A Life That's Just Ended
Yet Only Just Begun
The Sob Of Your Aunty In The Backgroud
And The Tear Drops A Cousin
The Brother Who Never Crys Is On Bended Knees
The Pain Of Your Shattered Heart Still Somehow Beating
As You Watch Her Colour Drain Away
Curious To Put Your Ear To Her Chest But Too Afraid Of The Silence
The Anger At The Disease That Slowly Drained Her
The Confusion Of How The World Just Carries On
The Guilt Of The Breath Filling Your Lungs
The Lost Feeling Of It Being Your Mum
I've Learnt Time Stands Still For No Man
But My Heart Still Stands For Her
Mothers Can't Ever Be Replaced
But Mine Never Had To
Because Her Memory Lives On x
"I met you when you were pregnant with Frankie when you moved in downstairs and since then we were close friends, you battled for a very long time my dear and as much as I was very sad that you had to go I know you are in a better place now, I will always remember you and remember our little ps3 battles ie Gran Turismo, and the lonely hearts club lol, I'll keep in touch with the family, so until next time blessed love. PS that a lovely picture Tracy Guiver."
"Beautiful Maxine... I only met you a few times..amazing mother, the cool aunt and fantastic person.. I was touched by your story..you stayed so strong until the very last minute. many hearts where broken when you had to leave us..but God needed a strong,beautiful and loving angel.
God saw you getting tired,
The cure was not to be
He wrapped you in His loving Arms,
And whispered "Come to Me"
You suffered much in silence,
Your spirit did not bend
You faced your pain with courage,
Until the very end
You tried so hard to stay with us
Your fight was not in vain
God took you to His loving Home
And freed you from your pain
A golden heart stopped beating,
Two working hands at rest
God broke our hearts to prove to us,
HE ONLY TAKES THE BEST"
"for my beautiful aunt, how I love you more than words can describe you was my best friend and my inspiration, it still feels like yesterday that we lost you, 3months have passed yet the pain doesn't get any easier, I miss you with all my heart and wish I could hold your hand and kiss ur cheek once again, but one day we will meet again and until that day ill keep you in my heart and mind everyday, you was the strongest lady ive ever met, and I couldn't be more grateful to have had u as my aunt, I think about our last moments together and I will treasure them for the rest of my life, rest in peace my angel, love you millions Dan Dan x x x x"
"Although I never knew you for very long, I am so proud to say I joint the ride for life and rode along side you, we had a lovely afternoon and im sure your still laughing about the present rob picked out in the raffle a £5.00 box of chocolates i still do. Your free from pain now Rip Maxine xx"
"Words can't explain how I hurt for your passing. How I yern for your return. Nothing will ever be strong enough to describe this feeling because even I can't understand it. You made me laugh, you made me happy. Through rain, sunshine and snow. No matter what the problem was you was there. Instantly. You was active, always pushing yourself and doing things right up to your last breath, I think that's what is most weird about loosing you. You fought the strongest war anyone could have. So all I am going to do now, is lock you in my heart and throw away the key. I love you Maxine Guiver."
"You will always be locked away in my heart until we meet. Again my beautiful angel xxxxx"
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