heavenly birthday wishes darling
I miss you so much, at least you have daddy with you now
but I still wish you both were still here with us x

forever keeping you in my heart my darling baby sis xx

8 years have past already wow, well I hope your looking after yourself up there, still think of you every now and then, and when your sister post pics of you it's like remembering you from yesterday and not the 8years, you take care up there.

29.12.18
mami, te amo
you are forever in my mind

Hiya Maxine I have not forgotten you, you was a good friend, I have many memories from just before Frankie was born, the first time I spoke to you was when you were having a little drink up downstairs from where we were living and I wouldn't come down, but you came knocking my door and insisted I join in lol, your forever in our memories.

5 years ago today i was waking up and the air felt different, as i walls out of my room your door was closed i didn’t even think anything of it so i walked downstairs and saw auntie debbie in the frount room and anaya and i though they just came over and i was soo happy, little did i know they was doing to tell some something that would change my world forever
it was just normal and i started feeding our fish when debbie told me she forgotten to tell me something she told me that mummy passed away last night that the nurses and doctors came and you are now an angel
i was in shock i could do anything i just cried and cried
at nine years old i was left without a mother to guide me. i was left alone
no one or nothing will ever compare to the feeling of loosing you the heartbreak will never be matched
i know deep down within myself there nothing i could of done but apart of me will always blame myself
i’m sorry
i love you so much mummy and i always will
time dosnt heal
but you will forevermore live on inside of me
14.10.13
rest in peace x

its crazy too think that in 2 weeks 5 years ago i lost my light and my guidance mummy, i love you so much
i pray you got to heaven safely you really was such an inspiration
i will never ever forget you

Christmas countdown begins mummy I know this was your favourite time of year Anaya frankie Omar Aaliyah aamilyah Kai and me are gonna be together just like you wanted
I was speaking to k last night it really made me realise a lot I’m not gonna say I hope your happy or proud of me because I know you ain’t but I’ll get better as I have
No matter what I’ve done I’ve always had you in my heart and never intentionally meant to hurt you but that not what happend,these times are meant to be happy and this Christmas we can have a very happy Christmas I still feels like last year me you and Kai stood at the top of the stairs and you went down to see if Santa was gone and we creeped slowly downstairs waking everyone up the joy and the happiness of that morning will stay with me forever
I miss you so so much and I wish I had your advice to guide me you was my hero and even though I knew you couldn’t stay forever I never thought you would actually go
It’s pains me to wake up without a mum but I will never used it as an excuse not to be the best I can
I love you billions mummy<3 xx

Amber mummy will always be by your side darling,and you haven't mucked up you just made a mistake, but i know one thing mummy wouldn't want to see you unhappy like you are, you Kai Anaya and frankie was n still are her whole world and that will never change, so i need for you to start getting strong again, start living your life n be as happy as you can as if mummy was right here with us all, and i promise you everthing will start falling into place, love you baby girl xxxxxxxxxxx

Mummy I honesty feel so lost today's been so hard and I don't think I have ever needed you more then I need you right now I feel so broke I have got to the point where the tears that stain my cheeks hurt I relised that I ruined something so good I had someone so amazing who helped me through everything made the dark days seem less hard and my happy days my best never failed to put a smile on my face my face light up when ever they crossed my mind and I had to mess it up now everything time I think of them tears escape my eyes it's so hard and I don't understand why I'm letting it hurt me still when I know they don't care anymore but I need someone I need you I want you just to sit here and talk to me tell me it's going to be okay and time will heal all the damage they made me feel and think more better of myself now I realised all I have left is myself..im alone and it's never hurt this much I never ever cared but it's all so diffrent now it hurts that I know I'm alone it feel so diffrent and I would do anything to take it back now I'm full of regret and hurt and Yh maybe In time it will work out but maybe not I just want to know it's going to be okay, but It's not going to happen I know it's best to leave it for now and let time heal the situation but it's so hard staying away for someone who means so much to me and even though it isn't the same between us I still care for them and I wnat to make this better I wnat to wake up and see it's all just a bad dream mummy it hurts and I will try to keep my promise but ever seconds getting harder I just want this pain to go away but no matter what I do or say I think I messed to way to badly and now I'm so close to giving up but I really want to make it for you I juts wish it was easier or I had them with me either way o will have to relise it won't happen no matter how much it hurts

Mum to be real this year has been my worst, I hit lower then the bottom and gave up in so many ways expecially school wise and came close to loosing a lot of things including myself but I promise you I'm gonna make it no matter what. I love you so much and I honestly couldn't do this with knowing you are looking down on me. I will try my best to look after kai and I'll support him through it all I'll make sure your memory lives on you was so beautiful. You taught me how to do everything except how to live without you and it's hard man. Love you mummy ❤️️X

hello its tanna amber and kais cousin by heart , i just want to say im so proud of your two lovely children , they are the strongest people i have ever met they always keep their heads up high and they have always been there for me since when i first met them , they try their hardest everyday to make you proud and we always know that your looking down on us with a big smile on your face , you are truely missed but without a doubt everyone thinks of you everyday and no one has lost the sight of your beautiful smile and your silky hair , we hope your having a good time up there and we hope you have the softest cloud in heaven because you deserve it , you were such a beautiful kind hearted woman and no one will ever forget you , we all think of you everyday and were all soo soo proud of your beautiful children for staying as strong as they do and forever smiling we all love you dearly anf you are missed loads and loads , hope were all making you proud love you loads from tanna❤️xxxxxxxxxxx

Hi it's Ambers bestfriend Georgia, I just wanted to say how proud I am of my bestfriend Amber of how strong she is and how brave she is during this tough time of her life. I've got Amber through everything and I will always have her back. I understand and know she's your princess and your baby girl and I will look after her for you and make sure whenever she's feels sad or upset I will stand by her side like I have in previous events. She is the most beautiful girl in the world and you should be so proud to call her your daughter. She's the one who always puts a smile on my face and always will. I love her all the world and me and my mum will take care of her as she was one of her own. I'm sure you would be proud! Lots of love Georgia xxxxxxxx

hey its ambers bestfriend keira, and i just want to say that amber is one of the strongest girls i know and she has been through a lot recently and i have always been by here side. I have so much love for her and i wish her the best for the future. R.I.P XXXX

its Alicia ambers friend, she is staying strong as always and is growing up to be a fuuny beautiful little lady , as much as i know she misses you loads she love her mum but while you look down on her protecting her ,were all looking after her so don't worry she's fine R.I.P

my beautiful auntie Maxine
i stll stuggle everyday knowing you aint comin back, watching nanny and granddad miss you is the hardest, but it also reminds me that i need to be strong for them you took a piece of all our hearts with you the day we lost you, you was such an amazing woman! we had so many good times together even right up to the end coz that was who you was you were strong and brave and that i will never forget..
I deeply treasure every memory that i have of you and will hold on to them to the next time we meet again! keep playing with my mums lights in the house coz it does make us laugh and to feel that you are around us is the biggest comfort of them all. i love you with all my heart and always will. love your Dan Dan x x x x x

hi my darling
it's this time of year again, when you should be here celebrating with us all, word can't explain how much you are missed and loved, teddy got a tree from father christmas and the first thing he said this is for my auntie maxine, so dad has planted it for you, i just wish i could have one more day with you, as i writing this i can't stop crying, because i should be talking to you here, always n forever loved yr big sis xxxxx

Mum, there's so much I want to say and so much I want to hear. And I want you to know that you mean the world to me and I love you so much I wish I showed you more when you was still here I don't even know what to say I'm just so lost with out you

In loving memory of my dear Cousin Maxine, it seems like such a short time ago that you were here. I think of you every time I go to Liza's as she has a family photo with you and all the gagne and the silver jubilee photos bring a smile to my face when I think how cute and cheeky you alway was. Love and miss you the world

Hi mummy
I am not writing a lot today because the pome says everything but I hope that you know that I love you and miss you so much I waist you was hear to see that not above where you can see me but I can't see you xx

Should I be feeling guilty, was there something I didn't do?
Did I not do enough to show all the love I had inside for you?
If you could say three words to me, would they be the one I'd want to hear?
When I knock on heavens door for you will you push me away or hold me near?

There's a million questions that I have inside,
And a million more that keep coming to mind,
Like where are you now and are you free from all your pain?
If someone asked you about me would you even remember my name?

I hope I've never left you disappointed or ever let you down,
That all you've done is smile for me and upon me you've never frowned,
I want you to be proud of me, in the many years how far I've come,
From the smallest to the biggest things that I have ever done.

Even though you left me here without a mum so young,
I'd never say your name in vain, disrespect you or do you wrong.
So all the questions I have inside, I guess they'll grow to more,
Just promise me you'll be there the day I knock on heavens door.



Love you
Sweet dreams xxx

Hi mummy
I thought about today and how Tracy called me I heard you in her voice when she said I love you and I hope you know every day how much I love and miss you I wrote another pome for you
It's called take care of the ones you love
I glare at a dimly light room
I enter and see your face
First I wonder where is this place
All questions are quickly tossed aside
As your eyes once again meet mine
Has it really been 2 years?
Since we last said hello?
Since we lasted kissed goodbye?
I dont want to know why you have visited me
I'm satisfied hearing your voice ever so softly
Softly you whisper your motherly advise
With your words I'll never have to think twice
You made me promise to always take care of the people I love
Then the room slowly fades away like a flying dove
The dim light fades back to black
And I'll never forget how I awoke in a cold sweat
Tears endlessly crawled down my face
As I realise the truth of that place
Is a dream or so it seems
It was a dream so real thank you for visiting me
Thank you for letting me hear your voice and see you're smile
I've missed it for a long while
As you watch on us from above
I promise to take care of the ones I love
I really hope you enjoyed that and I love you forever and always I really do love you and miss you like crazy
Love you
Sweet dreams xxx

hi my darling, just sitting here thinking about you today and wish I could just pick up the phone an hear your beautiful voice, every time I think of you all I do is cry, I really can't let you go, I hear our little ambie speak about you with heartache in her voice, my promise to you I will always be here for them all as long as they need me, we all miss you so much n it don't seem to get any easier , I will continue talking about you n keep your memory alive , I will tell the kids story's about you when you were small and the things you used to get up to just to see a smile on their faces, bye for now my beautiful baby sister xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

To mummy
I really miss you and I sit and read all of this beautiful things to you and I look back now when you was around and I wish that I showed you how much I loved you and I still do I have written many things for you on here now that I can cope seeing this message and being reminded of you I often feel that I can't go on any more I used to feel depressed and only ever felt sad so I wanted to leave this world but then I release that I need to move in and it's not my fault you had to fight the hardest battle ever and every day silently and slowly you moved on you was in pain you didn't have to tell me there was little sings like the colour would drain from you face or you would slowly get slimmer and your gold bracelet went up your arm but even though you are gone you missed,respected but most importantly loved and look at all the things that's happened like the charrty thing where some low life disgrace took it but West Ham fans people who didn't know you but respected you and your battle that they help out that is only one out of a million and I hope you know you are missed so much they say that times a healer but when does it start it may sound silly but I bye you Christmas cards,mothers day cards,birthday cards,Valentine's Day cards even I miss you cards
They say there is a reson
they say that time will heel
But neither time ir reson will change the way I feel
For know one knows the heartache
That lies behind my smile
For know one knows how many times I have broken down and cried
I want to tell you something
So there will be no doubt
You are so wonder full to think of
But so very hard to live without
Yet I thought about you today
But that was nothing new
I thought about you yesterday and the day before that two
I think of you in silence
I often speek your name
All I have are memories
And a picture in a frame
Your memory is a keep safe
From witch I'll never part
God has you in his arms
But I have you in my heart
I love you forever and always I miss you more and more
But no words can explain how much I love you and I'll speek to you tomorrow
Sweet dreams xxxxxxx

Hi Max just passing by to give you this candle of light in remembrance of you, R.I.P my friend and may the most high guide over you, blessed love.

well babe you had so many beautiful family n friends wish you a heaveily happy birthday, just wish you could be here with us all, healthy n happy, I trying to carry on without you mat but its so hard, It was really hard for mum n dad even to write on yr balloons, the kids miss you so much darling they really do as we all do as a family, until we meet again my baby sis you will never leave my heart xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Happy 44th Earthday to you Max miss you loads.

well baby sis another Christmas with out you, I know this sound silly but I sometimes forget yr not here and go to pick up the phone to give you a call, then it hits me yr not here, then the floods of tears start, I want to wish you a happy Christmas in heaven darling sending up loads of hugs n love, love you baby sis xxxxxxxx

My beautiful auntie im hoping you had a lovely birthday in heaven with the rest of the family and friends that are with you, we hope u liked our balloons we sent up to you yesterday with our messages. I still cry and wonder why it had to be you, we miss you everyday And will continue to do so till we meet again, you will always be my hero and i love you millions your strength and your fight is an inspiration to all of us, and everyday we will make sure we smile for for you, and the fact your free from any pain and discomfort.. The last cuddle we had will stay with me untill we can have one again love you always your Dan Dan x x x x x

Hi my darling well i hope you had a beautiful birthday in heaven with the rest of our lovely family, you are missed so much there are no words to explain just how much
i love you and you will always remain in my heart until we meet again xxxx

Well Maxine just to wish you a very lovly heavenly Earthday miss you my friend.

Hi Maxine, today the sun made me think of all the people that alway bring a smile. You came to mind. I have great child memories of us together at Nanny Gins, and I see pictures of the kids on Facebook and think how proud you would be. I know that it is because of you that they are such lovely kids. We all miss you and when I have days thinking life's unfair, I think about you and know it's true and that I owe it to you to live every day to the 'MAX" god bless you babe. Love Sam x x

To mum
i miss you so much and i will miss you forever more i know you are there even though i cant see you i will all ways love you because
those we love don't go away
they sit beside us every day
unseen unheard yet still hear
still loved still missed and so very dear

and i know mummy that every day i talk to you are up there talking back and smiling but now i know mummy you are safe and happy and out of pain but now i know

Heaven is your home
though i weep and grieve
i remember the love and joy
that we together weaved

Heaven is your home
though it bracks my heart
it will not be forever
we remain apart

Heaven is your home
but when my time
is done I will see
you there shinning
brighter then the
.     sun
rip mummy xxxxxxxxxxxxx i will miss you forever so all that i can do now is lock you in my hart and frow away the key 


love amber xxxxxx

I never got to meet you Maxine but that was my loss,because I have learnt through our family how much love and respect everybody has for you. I am sure the rest of the family are looking after you up there now, and you can watch over your children and feel very proud because you did a fantastic job.God Bless you Maxine xxxx

I lost a mother
I lost my best friend
I lost a love I thought would never end
I lost my heart
I lost my soul
I Lost a person I thought would never go
I lost my guidance
I lost my light
And you lost a battle you had to fight
I miss you now
I'll miss you tomorrow
Nothing seems to ease my sorrow
I lost everything the day you had to leave
Forever more my heart will grieve
I'm lost and I dont know what to do
I'm lost because I lost you
09/08/1971 - 14/10/2013

Love Chelsea x

Mummy .. I just can't find the words to tell how much I crave for your presence or how much pain I'm in
I can't seem to accept the fact your really gone
I still go on watsapp to send you pictures of your little Aaliyah growing up
I just miss you so much mummy :'(
I just want you to come home so much
I pray everyday that god is keeping you safe
I'm so sorry for all the bad things I ever did
I hope you forgive me
My guilt will remain for ever
It eats away at me everyday and my life is bit by bit falling apart
I've written lots of things for you
And day by day I will post them on here
I love you for ever my beautiful mummy 3


When You Lose Someone You Love Your World Stops Spinning
You Suddenly Feel The Only One Moving In A Paused Landscape
The Distant Noise Of A Clock Ticking
Yet The Hand Aren't Moving
Staring At The Face Of A Life That's Just Ended
Yet Only Just Begun
The Sob Of Your Aunty In The Backgroud
And The Tear Drops A Cousin
The Brother Who Never Crys Is On Bended Knees
The Pain Of Your Shattered Heart Still Somehow Beating
As You Watch Her Colour Drain Away
Curious To Put Your Ear To Her Chest But Too Afraid Of The Silence
The Anger At The Disease That Slowly Drained Her
The Confusion Of How The World Just Carries On
The Guilt Of The Breath Filling Your Lungs
The Lost Feeling Of It Being Your Mum
I've Learnt Time Stands Still For No Man
But My Heart Still Stands For Her
Mothers Can't Ever Be Replaced
But Mine Never Had To
Because Her Memory Lives On x

Sweet dreams
Chelsea xx

I met you when you were pregnant with Frankie when you moved in downstairs and since then we were close friends, you battled for a very long time my dear and as much as I was very sad that you had to go I know you are in a better place now, I will always remember you and remember our little ps3 battles ie Gran Turismo, and the lonely hearts club lol, I'll keep in touch with the family, so until next time blessed love. PS that a lovely picture Tracy Guiver.

Beautiful Maxine... I only met you a few times..amazing mother, the cool aunt and fantastic person.. I was touched by your story..you stayed so strong until the very last minute. many hearts where broken when you had to leave us..but God needed a strong,beautiful and loving angel.

God saw you getting tired,
The cure was not to be
He wrapped you in His loving Arms,
And whispered "Come to Me"
You suffered much in silence,
Your spirit did not bend
You faced your pain with courage,
Until the very end
You tried so hard to stay with us
Your fight was not in vain
God took you to His loving Home
And freed you from your pain
A golden heart stopped beating,
Two working hands at rest
God broke our hearts to prove to us,
HE ONLY TAKES THE BEST

for my beautiful aunt, how I love you more than words can describe you was my best friend and my inspiration, it still feels like yesterday that we lost you, 3months have passed yet the pain doesn't get any easier, I miss you with all my heart and wish I could hold your hand and kiss ur cheek once again, but one day we will meet again and until that day ill keep you in my heart and mind everyday, you was the strongest lady ive ever met, and I couldn't be more grateful to have had u as my aunt, I think about our last moments together and I will treasure them for the rest of my life, rest in peace my angel, love you millions Dan Dan x x x x

Although I never knew you for very long, I am so proud to say I joint the ride for life and rode along side you, we had a lovely afternoon and im sure your still laughing about the present rob picked out in the raffle a £5.00 box of chocolates i still do. Your free from pain now Rip Maxine xx

Words can't explain how I hurt for your passing. How I yern for your return. Nothing will ever be strong enough to describe this feeling because even I can't understand it. You made me laugh, you made me happy. Through rain, sunshine and snow. No matter what the problem was you was there. Instantly. You was active, always pushing yourself and doing things right up to your last breath, I think that's what is most weird about loosing you. You fought the strongest war anyone could have. So all I am going to do now, is lock you in my heart and throw away the key. I love you Maxine Guiver.

You will always be locked away in my heart until we meet. Again my beautiful angel xxxxx