There's nothing quite like a mothers love, knowing just what to say with only a hug. That protected feeling of having you near, although physically you are no longer here. Having me at 17 even though everyone said you can't, we we're inseperable from the very start. Fearless and strong a woman I adore, for you lived life without question, never consumed by the ego greed of wanting more. I said goodbye at 24, for you had to leave and our journey was no more. This overwhelming heartbreak ran through my body, for you we're my soul mate and now I have nobody. As I said I love you, you whispered it back, our last words together and I'm grateful for that. As time has passed by and my heart is healing. I'm surrounded by your love, it consumes me this feeling. Knowing you are near my very own spirit guide, I now have no reason to run and hide, from a feeling that yes I know is constant, but grief can consume and bring out a monster. Mother you taught me to love, respect and be true. Your life lessons will never undo. You said to Grandad who will look after Sach, but please don't ever forget you already did that. Your light will continue to shine through me, throughout my life and my journey. I'm so grateful for you and the time that we had, but for me to sit solemn and sad, what an insult that will only be. I'm forever your daughter and you my wonderful Mummy xxx

Hi my little rabbit face, thinking of some hillarious things we have done. remember daring each other to walk really close behind people we dont know in town til they turn around. hahaha and you went and chose the fattest man ever, when he turned round you ran off laughing. hahaha. i remember when you did that stupid bent knee dance and paul caught you hahaha he lucked at you like "wt an arse". i love thinking about funny things we have done and laughing at everything and everyone! I really miss your sense of humour mummy and ur quick one liners. i love how ude say night godbless  love you see you in the morning everynight and ide say it back even at 23:) I am so lucky to have you as my mummy and i am so glad i told you i loved you everyday. What is so great about you mummy is you didnt even know just how amazing you were and just how much everybody loved you. I loved are special bond and i will cheerish it for the rest of my life.          
Night godbless love you see you soon xxxxxxxx

I remember on this night, it was around winter time and was absolutely freezing! we wa wrapped up wi boots n big scarves. went to pick max up, she comes out wi teeny leather jacket and open toe stillies!!!! Typical hahahah :-) xxxx

Apart from her beautiful precious family and friends Maxine had another love 'HORSES'.

She had a real passion for them, the times we spent out riding she said she ''felt free''. Maxine was an amazing rider,she loved galloping through the woods and we always said we would take them to the beech, sadly this never happened.

I do have to laugh though, when she had to clean out the stables it did take her almost 2 hours and she did request a face mask for the smell :) at first.. After a while she would get used to it again and she was planning on spending more time with them as she was trying very hard to work on Paul to move to Calverley.
Maxine would joke and say Paul said ''he's not ready for pipe and slippers yet ''and the slow country pace of Calverley.

When I took this picture it was a gorgeous sunny day and we had planned to go to our usual place The Calverley Arms but as always Maxine wanted to see Primrose first and insited on bringing her in for a cuddle and some polo's.

As we all miss her I'm sure the horses will too, Primrose used to whinney when she saw her as she always knew Maxine had brought her a treat.

This picture was Maxines favourite she was in her element in her place she loved so much.

I'm sure up in heaven she is riding a beautiful white horse and her passion will live on ...

We miss you angel ....xxxxxx

Morning Maxi

As you know we went out for your birthday last nite, me, Sarah,Lisa,Nic,Paula and Bev. We reminisced about sum of our mad times, and how much of a menace u were! Lisa and sarah tellin us tales of when u all worked at Penelopes, the job u tried to escape from but ended up stayin for years!ha.
We couldnt make it up to square where everone was sending your lanterns off, so we got sum too and decided to let them off after the meal. After much deliberation and because we were in town.we decided we were goin to let them off outside harvey nics (a shop you loved haha)! However it may have been a blessing in disguise as the weather scuppered this plan and thinkin about it, we probably would have got one stuck on the roof and got arrested hahah, u would have been laffin ur head off! but settin fire to to one of ur fav shops wouldnt have been a good moment. :-)
So just to let you now we will be settin them off next fri and its not because we are sayin goodbye. Its to say hi girl, see you again one day. 
Miss u soo much max, a hole has been left in our lives. But keep smiling and we will too xxxxxxxxxx

This isn't a story it's a poem but it won't all fit on the other page.

It offered me comfort so I hope it does for others too...

Death is nothing at all. 
I have only slipped away into the next room. 
I am I, and you are you. 
Whatever we were to each other, that we still are. 
Call me by my old familiar name, 
speak to me in the easy way which you always used. 
Put no difference in your tone, 
wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow. 
Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes we enjoyed together. 
Pray, smile, think of me, pray for me. 
Let my name be ever the household word that it always was, 
let it be spoken without effect, 
without the trace of a shadow on it. 
Life means all that it ever meant. 
It is the same as it ever was; 
there is unbroken continuity. 
Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight?
I am waiting for you, 
for an interval, 
somewhere very near, 
just round the corner.
All is well.

Henry Scott Holland 1847-1918
Canon of St. Paul's Cathedral

I wouldnt even know where to start with a particular story, there's so many!
So many fun times and laughter I shared with you, I have memories in abundance to cherish... from your mums infamous Christmas parties, to all the random nights out here there and everywhere, even the very few times we ended up in Nite Trax, or Shai Nan sharing a curry at 4/5am, to our nights in Bingo, (we'd call it 'B' for code) haha...We'd laugh at the most stupid things for ages, you'd even txt like days later still laughing at our random sillyness.
Like Kem and others said being in your company was addictive, you'd drop me off home after being with you for hours and we'd still sit chatting for a further hour or so.. Im soooo glad I knew you Maxine and so proud that Kai had the privilage of having you as a 2nd Cousin.
You will be tremendously missed by all that knew you, I think I safely speak for all when I say a wave of shock hit hard yesterday, I'm still in disbelief... You really have  ''Gone Too Soon''

A memory is a keepsake of time that lives forever in the heart, I'll cherish all mine for eternity!!

Goodnight Godbless....your mums open arms await you, R.I.P Maxine..xxxxx 

 

One of the best things about maxi is how she told a story, she would always have something hilarious to tell. I wud laugh for hours/days after we had met up. One story she did tell me and stil cracks me up is about a time she was out n about and got attacked by a bird! A little robin i think it was. she said it was watchin,giving evils and had it in for her! after watchin her for awhile it made its move, dived on her n got tangled in her hair! i think she was with her mum and they wa tryin to get it out whilst screaming! not funny at the time but amused us all when she told us. So beware of any sinister lookin birds that are watchin.U may end up with nest head! 
will miss your stories and your giggle maxi moo. Give zena a kiss and love from me!  we wil have that catch up one day, and will laugh forever xxxxxxxxxxx 

i rememner being small, max and my sister used to take me to dance class, people used to pick on me because i used to dance and max told every single one ov em mess with my fam and u will have me to deal with, lets just say they never did it again.

ill miss you you were so special to me and every other persons life u was in, you and my sister are re-united again just hope u dont get into mischeif like you both used to haha rip princess of little london

I will never forget the love she had for her family, the unlimited amount of times her Grandad would call her and no matter what time it was or what she was doing she would answer. Maxine loved and honored  her Mother Zene and her family. Maxine taught me family is everything and always told me do what makes YOU happy and Maxine lived just like that.18yrs of knowing her will never be long enough.

Maxine and I had an on going joke that has had us laughing for over 7 years now and she never got tired of reminding me of the moment.  We were in Greece at dinner eating Rula Special( a greek desert) and I said to the waiter " Jenny made that" 3 times being ignored all 3 times ( I have a tendency to talk even if people are not listening) Maxine burst into laughter whilst imitating my voice " Jenny made that".

It made me laugh and we have laughed about it ever since.