My dearest Missy, my Angel 10 years since God called you home. It doesn't seem that long yet it seems like forever. I miss you so much, grandma and dad are up there with you and I miss them so much too. Grandma has been gone almost 15 years. Crazy how time goes so fast. I've got a hernia and can't get a scan til next week to see what's going on with that.... that is so fucking aggravating I could have some serious problems with that. Fucking insurance companies!!! I didn't sleep well last night, pain from the hernia kept me restless until 4 am. Anyway my girl You are never far from my thoughts and I miss you terribly. I will try to let you know what is going on with my life. Love you always Angel and miss you still, Love momma

My dearest Missy, I can't believe I didn't leave any tributes for you ALL of last year....that is definitely not like me. I am so sorry sweetie. Well this year marked 7 years since dad passed away. I can't believe this year marks 10 years since you passed away. Nicole and Mik got divorced and Mik moved in with Michele Joshua went out to Arizona to live with his bio dad and Leela is living with him too. The adoptive parents turned out to be horrible with the kids. I'm so sorry Miss but they seem to be doing well. Anyway I'm sorry for my delay in visiting and writing. I'm doing good. I love you always and miss you still. Love, mom

Hey Missy, can't believe you have been gone 8 years. It was a difficult day I found out Callie, the dog I got 8 years ago to help me deal with your death has Cancer. She turned 8 years old on February 13 and needs to be put down ASAP to keep her comfortable and as pain free as possible. What a Cluster-fuck Irony. I hear all the time that God only gives you what you can handle....I vehemently Disagree with that statement as you well know. Dan is taking it very hard. Dan just lost his mom 3 weeks ago and now this.....I'm worried about him. Oh hell, what made me think 2022
was going to be any different than any other year in my life? Makes me wonder...... Crazy irony, it's weird. I know Callie will be with you up there when her day comes . Well Missy going to sign off. I love and miss you so much!!! Say hi to Grandma Ellen and Marty. Love, momma

Hi, baby girl so sorry I haven't visited for so long. I have no good reason for not visiting. I moved out from the farm finally. I'm still getting settled in, takes time to pack 20 plus years of stuff into a one bedroom apartment. I have Sport with me so that helps me with the adjustment. I'm still in contact with Chuck, Jenny, Vicky and Kristie. Chuck and I have plans to get married again. Mik and Nikki are getting divorced. Rick and Jessica sent Joshua to stay with Mik and Nikki for a year or longer. Joshua was acting like 15 yr. boy and
Rick and Jessica couldn't deal with that. It makes me mad but it least he's still in Mn. Leela is doing good finishing her Senior year of high school, still with Deb in Arizona. Leela went to North Dakota by bus this past summer after she turned 18. She had a good time. She broke up with a guy from Texas whom she had never met. She has a new boyfriend, sounds like a nice young man. I know you would be proud of Leela and Joshua. I'm going out to the farm today to watch Callie, one of Dan's brother in law died and the funeral is tomorrow up in St. Louis Park. My life now is less stressful than it was, so my move was a good thing. I miss you so much my Missy Marie, can't believe you would have turned 42 today and March 18th 2022 you will be gone 8 years. It's seems like yesterday, I watched the video of you from your funeral, that hasn't gotten any easier to watch even after 7 years of you being gone. I want you to know how much I still miss you and love you!!!!! Until we meet again my little goblin, Love you to Infinity and Beyond, love your momma❣❣❣I can't believe I forgot to mention I went out to Indiana to see your Aunt Jenny, Uncle Sid, and your dad Chuck in March for almost 2 weeks. It was after that Chuck and I talked about getting remarried calling it fate and a second chance to do it right. So there it is....I know you would be okay with that. Love & Miss so very much my little spook Missy Marie❣ Love your momma

I miss you momma I hope to see you some day again I love you

Love you sincerely your son Joshua

Hey Missy, it's mom. Can't believe it has been 7 years already since you passed away. I think of you always because there is always something here to remind me. Leela bugs and Joshua are doing good. I can't believe Leela bugs will turn 18 in July and Joshua will be 15 in May. They are growing up too fast. I'm getting a fill in tattoo around your portrait, Palmer is doing it today. I love the ways you let me know you are here with me. Thank you so much, love and miss you always, love mom

Hi Miss, mom again. Just voted for our president. I want Joe Biden in office. tRump has been in 4 years too damn long. He is trying to change our country into a dictatorship run by him@!!@. Praying for a good final election count of ALL the ballots cast. I hope we will know by the end of the day tomorrow who our next president is. I love you and miss you so very much!!! I will let you know when we have a "new" president!! Love, momma

Happy Birthday my little goblin!! You would have turned 41 today. I miss you more than words can say. I talked to your dad Charlie and grandma Peggy last nite. They both miss you bunches. Leela made a video of you and shared it with me on messenger yesterday. It was beautiful!! She also said if I needed to talk to someone on your birthday she would be available. She has your artistic ability and also your empathy!! I know you would be proud of both Leela and Joshua. I'm going to go now but will return. Love you & Miss you still!!! Love your momma!!!! 

Hey Missy, it's one week before your birthday I have been in contact with Chuck since July. He lost his 2nd wife Lynn to COPD. We talk regularly, he moved from Vegas to Indiana to Jenny's. I struggle this time of year as you well know. This co-vid pandemic has killed 200,000 thousand people and counting. The dumb ass we have had as POTUS has done nothing to get this pandemic under control. I pray he gets voted out of office and the election is 10 days away. I love you and miss you more with each passing day. I know it's a week away but, Happy Heavenly Birthday my little goblin  forever 34!!!!! Love your, momma

Hey Missy, mom again. Sorry haven't visited you in awhile. No excuses, we have been living in a totally different world. A virus has made living and working almost impossible. The one thing that would help get the virus under control is to wear a mask and some people just won't do it. I don't know what is going to happen. Scary times Missy. I miss you terribly but in the same breath I am glad you are not here to go through this. Love you always, miss you still. Love, momma!

Hi Miss, mom again. I am afraid for our Leela bug. After fighting for the kids not to go to Debra, 6 years later Leela was sent to stay with her until she graduates. I don't know how things will play out. I'm scared. I think of you always but I need a miracle.

Missy, after all the fighting I did to keep those kids away from Debra, went down the drain in the last few weeks. Leela went and fought against everything that was done for her to improve her life. Rick and Jessica tried everything to help Leela and Leela fought it. It had come down to letting Leela to keep doing what she was destroying and cause harm to not only herself but others or stop it the only they could. Leela has been sent to Debra's until she graduates in 2022. Missy I believe you knew more than you let on. I don't know how it will play out. I pray every day for a positive outcome.

Hi Missy, 5 more days and your 6th Angelversary will be here. It's still hard to believe your gone. Today I got a message on fb from someone that knew the kids. She found one of Leela's school papers wondering if I would like her to mail it to me, wow right? I told her yes. I will let you know what I get from her. Today's message on fb was definitely a sign from you Missy. Thank you, I love and miss you very much ❤✌

Happy Heavenly birthday my little spook! I'm sorry that I haven't visited since June. I think of you often. I wonder how your life would be today. Leela is having a break down I guess, she has been in a group home since February this year. She is having alot of issues. I know it has alot to do with what Blue did to her, the sexual abuse he did to her and can't believe you didn't know about it! I had to get this off my chest Missy, after what you went through. I didn't want to voice this to you on your birthday but needed to at get it out. I love you always and will miss you til we meet again. As always your momma ❤

Good morning Missy, been awhile since I have been here. I had Joshua staying with me for almost two weeks. Joshua was a big help to me while he was staying with me. We had some one on one time which I think he needed. Leela is still in the group home in Marshall but doing really well from what I understand. Leela will be able to go home in February. My disability claim went through in April, thank goodness. It's about $600.00 a month. The Scottish Fair and Highland games are in 2 weeks. I had money saved for that but my car needs some work, of course Dan is making excuses blah blah blah as to why he can't give me some financial help. Nothing new..... I am hoping Nikki can go with me, but she broke her ankle in three places and just got the ok to return to work. Our cousins from Scotland were here last weekend, I didn't get to meet them but there is going to be a reunion in Scotland in 2021. I'm going, one thing crossed off my bucket list! Well Missy I love and miss you always, love momma

Missy, hard to believe you have been gone 5 years already. I feel as though your passing just happened and also so long ago. Leela is not doing very well, she is in a group home in Marshall. I haven't talked to her or seen her. Jessica says they are waiting to see if she passes Orientation. I'm feeling I can't do anything to help her. I don't know firsthand if Joshua is doing okay without Leela. Jessica said he was doing good without Leela. I want you to know how much I love and miss you always . Tell grandma and dad hello and give them both hugs and kisses. I have not been out to the cemetery, it's buried under 12 inches of snow. When the snow melts I will get out there. My disability came through, $600.00 a month, about the same as what I made when I worked at the camp. I love and miss you always Missy Marie, love momma
.

My beautiful Angel Missy, it is 5 years since your last birthday. I miss you so much. It will be 5 years March 18th 2019 that God called you home. I get to see Leela and Joshua as often as my being on oxygen allows. I think of dad's situation and how mine parallels to his. I can't believe how quickly my situation has worsened in such a short time. I'm scared I'm not guna lie. I pray I will be here for some time yet, I'm only 58. I feel like your death just happened as it does every day. I miss you so much and think of you always.  I'm no longer working because of the oxygen thing. I can't do much coloring either. I'm doing good as I can be. I still miss you my li'l goblin and hope I can get out to the cemetery today. I love you always and miss you still!!!
Love, momma

My Missy Marie, 4 years ago, God called you home.It feels like forever yet like yesterday. Dads 1st Angelversary was March 7th. In my wildest dreams I never thought you and dad would die before me. I miss you both so very much! Please say hello to all who have gone before me. Much love to all!
Love, momma

Hi Miss, I haven't been on this site in a while. It will be 4 years on March 18th since you died and left a hole in my heart. I think of you always, some days it hits me hard and some not quite so much. Leela and Joshua are doing well. I just don't see them as often as I would like. I did see them over new years. I had a appt. with a rhuematologist today and finally got diagnosed with fibromyalgia. Guess it answers the questions I had forever. I miss you so very much. Dad has been gone almost 1 year, still feels like yesterday but not. Getting older sucks and it only gets worse. Whining now so will close. Always on my mind and in my heart. Luv ya Missy, love momma

Happy Heavenly Halloween and Happy Heavenly Birthday Missy!!!! It has been 3 1/2 years since God called you home. It still feels like yesterday. I love you and miss you every day, Leela and Joshua were here a couple weeks ago and they seem to be doing well. Their adoptive parents bought a resort in Gary, South Dakota. I don't see the kids as often as I would like, but since dad died things changed dramatically. I'm still reeling from dad's death and his date of death is 11 days before yours. March is a difficult month and so is October. Chad and Michele are getting divorced, didn't see that coming. Nikki and Mik are doing good as are their critters. I don't think we will celebrating holidays together anymore since dad died. Things have changed and there is wedge between all the kids and adults and it breaks my heart. I love you and love the signs you leave for me. Thank you darlin' Love you always, love momma.

Hello Miss, sorry haven't visited in a awhile. Life just keeps on keeping on til it doesn't. July 7th was 4 months since dad passed away. On July 8th Marty was laid to rest in Browns Valley with Myron & Donna. Leela and Joshua are doing well. They may be moving to Gary South Dakota I guess Rick and Jessica bought a resort there. I haven't talked to them about that but they told Nicole. This last weekend was the Scottish Fair and Highland Games. Nicole, Pam, Sue, Rick and I went. A good time but
gets so dang hot in mid July by noon your done. We had a short but nice visit as well. Chad and Michele are getting divorced, surprised me. Well darlin', til we meet again when God calls us home. Watch over the ones you left behind, and know you are loved and missed til we meet again!
Love you always, miss you still!!!
Love, Mom

Hey mommy, how are you I'm good. You don't know how hard march has been for me. 3 years can you believe it. I'm going to be 14 soon. I'm just really really mad at my self for not praying or leaving you messages. It makes me so mad that Joshua is all ways mad at me. It makes me so sad and mad that you are not here. It makes me feel like it is my fault for your death. Not trying hard enough to make you happy. I'm just really confused this month. I miss are family I miss seeing you in my dreams. I get little signs about you being hear but I can't fissicly see or hear you I miss Ashe hugs I miss your smell. I miss you saying I love you I miss your hair I miss your shortness. I all out missing you. I love you. Thanks for listening. 

Three years Missy, three years you've been gone. Time goes too damn fast when you get to be 50yrs. young. Dad has been gone almost 2 weeks. Hard to wrap my head around that. DENIAL is hitting big time even though I saw him right after he died and then again at the funeral home. I went to his memorial a week ago. People I love are dropping like flies, I am not immune to the very same fate, I don't feel like I'm 3 yrs away from 60. I have some health issues, what I consider to be just old people stuff, ya know?!? I never imagined I would see you die before me, or dad. I feel like a fish outta water, like how can I go on when you and dad aren't here. I want to be here for the grandkids but scared as to the fate of our world. Please watch over us and keep us safe. I love and miss you always darlin' ❤❤❤❤
Love, Momma

Hey mama, today is Halloween. 3 halloweens with out you. I wonder if you know papa Marty is In SF hospital. I almost have another boy friend his name is Joe. He likes me but I don't see him a lot. My Halloween costume is a purple fairie I love and miss you. Thinking about you lately. ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Happy Heavenly Birthday Missy, it hardly seems possible you have been gone almost 3 yrs. I am going to see a medium later today and Amanda Gilbertson is coming with me. I just miss you sooo sooo much. Dad isn't doing good, has been in the hospital since Thur. They transferred him to sufu on Saturday. Please watch over him angel. I love and miss you sooo much. You will never be forgotten!!!

Dear mommy how are yo I just started middle school I was bored and searched your name and this pulled up. I forgive grandma sandy for not telling me. I love and miss you. I'm in cheer leading and to day I have a game please help me not miss a count

Hello my Angel Missy, I'm ashamed I haven't been here in a long time. Been busy, depressed, and anxiety issues UGH

Happy belated 36th birthday Angel. I just left a note for grandma Ellen. I haven't visited your memorial or moms in months. Both of you have been occupying my thoughts as of the last 8 months or more. I still reach for my phone to call you. I had lunch with Amanda the day before your birthday. I went out on Halloween as an old hippie with glow in the dark hair not too far from the truth

Love you honey Happy Birthday

My Missy Marie, your angel Leela celebrated her 12th birthday July 25th. The adoption of the kids was finalized June 8th 2015. The kids are happy and healthy and seem to be settling in with their adoptive parents Rick & Jessica Christens. I will make certain that Leela and Joshua never forget you, their mother always and forever!!!!! I am still in a rut but finally got my point across to my head therapists so they did a medication change a week ago. I go back in 1 month. I got a 2nd job at the AmericInn as head of housekeeping, will have to see how it plays out. I hope I can do it. I miss you as much now as the day the Lord called you home my angel. There is a large void in my heart for you and mom that can never be filled. I wait for the day we will be reunited. I love you darlin and miss you still my angel !!!!!! ♡♡♡♡♡ your momma.

Hello my sweet Angel Missy mmmmmwhua ♡♡♡♡♡ I made it through the fourth of July didn't do nothin' but survived it anyway. My depression and anxiety is off the charts. I am seeing a dietician to lose this massive amount of weight gained, It's working or at least for the moment it is. Feeling blah most of the time, hatin' life sometimes it takes all my energy to get through a second or minute of every day. I know you see and hear what's going on with me and your with me always. I just wish you didn't have to go away. I miss & love you my angel now and forever. Love your momma ♡♡♡♡♡♡

Hello my Missy Marie, just letting you know the kids had their tonsil and adnoid surgery on Tue, they did well and were home the same day. I guess Debra came up from Arizona, (oh yay) to be with the kids. She is such a suck up its pitifully ridiculous. Dad called me and let me know Debra was here which I am grateful for. I am still at the farm, dad said to stay here so I am. I know you are aware of what is going on and am sure you get it. I love you much and miss you still, think of you daily and know you are looking out for us. Thanks darling, love you always, miss you still........love momma ♡♡♡♡♡

My Missy Marie, hi it's mom. I want you to know I thought of you and mom ( grandma) on Mothers Day . This year was harder for some reason. I posted a couple pictures on signs from our loved ones and died to young in remembrance of you this Mothers Day 2015. On May 9th we celebrated Joshuas birthday at the YMCA. I guess both kids are scheduled to have surgery to remove their tonsils and adnoids I think next week. Both kids are looking good and seem happy with their adoptive parents. The adoption isn't final yet but very close. Well sunshine I won't be moving at least not now, things kinda fell apart for the moment. I know you know what is going on because you are with me always. I want to thank you for being with me at the eye and tissue banquet, made things easier for me. I also want to tell you how proud I am of you for being a donor. Your organs couldn't be used, but your corneas and tissues were used. They were able to get 88 complete grafts from you and 77 have been used. So very proud of you darlin', I know you are living on in others and that gives me some peace. Well my girl I am going to sign off for now, remember you are with me always. I love you now and always will, and I miss you still. Love, mom ♡♡♡♡♡

My darling Missy, how are you? I am doing well and trying to get things done in a timely matter.Dad is not doing well and hasn't been for a while. He is doing ok enough to work some but that's about all. Nicole and Mik are living in the house in Lynd. The boys are doing well, Chad isn't working for CEEC he is working at the corn plant. Shelly still in school not sure when she will be graduating. I am so glad you were with me last Saturday at the Eye and Tissue luncheon, made things alot easier. I am sure I told you that Scott died back in March, well guess they are spreading his ashes at the lake today. I have been feeling so alone lately, the people I thought had my back don't for whatever their reasons I don't know but can't waste time and energy on worrying about shit I have no control over. I did pray about it and I got an email about how to deal with the loss of a long term friendship. God does answer prayers. I went to your grave site in Lynd a couple wks ago and added some flowers and a cross. I haven't talked or seen the kids since Easter but am going to contact Rick & Jessica about a visit or at the very least a phone call. Dan is being fairly decent so that's a good thing. I am not taking Callie but will take Sport. A very hard thing to do :-(  Well my beautiful angel, I just wanted to update you and let you know how much I love & miss you and Grandma Ellen. I talk to Barbara not alot but some. She really does miss you. Remember I will never forget you and think of you and mom daily.All my love to both of you, forever yours,
Mom

My darling Missy, I had lunch with an old school friend today. She asked me about my appt. with "Mary Kay. She has had 3 readings with her, another person who belives in the after life. What a good feeling my Missy Marie I feel awesome, am so glad you are at peace, not sick, and with mom and daddy! I love you baby girl save a place for me in heaven cuz I will be there soon!!!!!!

My Angel, it has been a year since you went home. I still don't want to believe you are gone. I sense you are here with me, sometimes so much so I wonder if I am going crazier. I know you would think that not possible but it is. I am going to see a medium today and hope it helps me in accepting your death. I miss you as much today as I did a year ago. You will always be in my heart darlin' thank you for showing me you have been with me since you were called home. I love you my Missy Marie now and forever ♡♡♡♡Momma

My Dear Beautiful cousin,
How I miss you and today isn't easy for any of us. It's been 1 yr since u left us and was called back to the angels and butterflies. But seems like yesterday .. I miss our talks and how u could make me laugh even though I would be sad . Didn't matter how far apart we were u always seemed so close .... I miss u so much my heart still hasn't healed but I know u are watching over me ... I feel Ur warmth and joy with every sun rise and your happiness that you always showed in every butterfly that I see. I feel u around me when I'm struggling and it seems to have a hand on my shoulder telling me to snap out of it girly life will get better.... I love and miss you Missy ..... I light a candle tonight on this sad day in your memory for u have not been forgotten just missed to the fullest. ....

My Missy Marie I had my reading with the physic medium today. I was left with such a sense of peace and calm. I am glad you are with mom and daddy. It helps me with the acceptance of your death. I will always have a place in my heart for you my sweet girl. I love and miss you more everyday it seems. Give my love to Grandma Ellen and daddy and to the children we lost. Luv Luv from Amanda. Take Care Missy Marie and save me a place in heaven, I will be there soon!!!!!! Love, Mom

Hard to believe its been a year already Angel. I cant tell you how many times youve been sneaking up on me lately. I Miss You Angel, so much. I'll hear a song or see something that makes me think of you and there you are with that beautiful smile and great laugh. They say it gets easier, but im still waiting for that to happen. I Love You Angel. Wish You Were Here.

My Missy Marie, in 10 days you will have been gone 1 yr. I still can't wrap my head around the fact you are truely gone. I miss you so very much darlin,' as I sit here typing this, the more the tears flow. I know this is part of the grieving process and what a process it is. I think of you every day and some days are easier than others. Today is difficult the last 2-3 months have been hard. I have been told it gets easier with time, I don't agree. I have an appointment with a medium on your Angelversary, feeling a little anxious but hopeful. I love and miss you so very much darlin', but you know that. Save a place for me in heaven, cuz I will be there soon. Love you now and forever til we meet again my girl!
Love, mom

My dearest Missy, you have been on my mind alot these days. The anniversary of your death is about 3 wks away. I still can't wrap my head around the fact you are truely gone. Still seems very surreal the whole idea of you dying and being gone gone. The kids are doing well, you would be so proud of them darlin. I am going to see them next Sunday to bring them your "ashes" I have kept for them. They are more ready to get them now, and I think understand a little better about your death. I wish I could say the same about me and understanding your death better. I honestly don't think I ever will get to that point. A part of me died with you the 18th of March 2014. I will never have that part back and I don't know if I will ever accept it or do I think it lessens with time. My heart aches and you are always with me. Some days your death feels so fresh in my mind and other days there but in the shadow of my mind. Missy Marie You are always with me, I can feel your presence or sense it. I love you now and forever my baby girl!!
♡♡♡♡♡ Momma

My Missy Marie, since the first of February I have been getting de ja vu about last year at this time. It is only 6 weeks until the 1 yr anniversary of your death. This feeling isn't what I thought it would be. I had a dream about you and I last nite, it was more like an episode of I love Lucy or the Lucille Ball show. Weird but not, cuz it was something you and I did or would have done kinda like mom & Carol. Hard to explain but I know you know what I mean. I'm scared because I might relive the day of your death or worse not have any kind of feeling about your death. The feelings surrounding your death are with me all the time, but not always the same. I am looking forward to the personal reading scheduled with the medium on the anniversary of your death. Hoping it will help me move forward because I know that's what you want me to do. I just miss you sooo much darlin' words can't express my sadness about your death or how much life has changed. I got the tattoo to remember you, it is Lady slippers and Monarch butterflies and I know you would love it. Well darlin please remember how much I love and miss you until we are together again!!!! As always love, mom

Hey babe I woke up thinking about you, and it made me realize some things that I should've understood or wish that I had before now.There were times when you told me you were lucky to have survived until the time you met me, about the doctors saying having children would kill you, the seizures, crazy blood sugars, and just dealing with an illness all your life. I am so fucken mad I can't even think straight I miss you, I'm so so fucken sorry for any of the time I ever took you for granted, when you would say those things I would just equate to everyone else who has said that to me and really didn't give it much thought. I think about you everyday baby nothing has changed that way, you are what my life is, I love you baby I wish I could have all the days back that I didn't say it just to say again. I never understood that our time would be short, I miss our kids and our family baby I don't know what to do?

Morning my Missy Marie, just wanted to let you know Bob (papa) Hentges died January 31st. The funeral is Saturday (7th) @ Catholic Church in Marshall. I plan on going, sounds like he had been pretty ill. Oh and also Rubys son Jeremy, the one that was gone for 20 yrs, just showed up back here at Christmas.........Ikr CrAzY. Been thinking of you and mom alot lately. Guess it's cuz I'm still trying to accept your death and you and mom were so close. Well baby gurl that's all for the moment. Talk to you soon, love you and miss you more than I can put to paper.
Luv ya, Mom

Ok so I have been having a really hard time coming to terms with you being gone I am actually still in shock and still not able grieve your passing you were one of the best and anyone that was able to know you knows that and I still find myself wanting to call you Facebook you stop over and see you but I start to to reach for the phone or Facebook you a message or start driving toward your home and then I remember oh that's right she's gone and I can't handle it I love and miss you so much my sister from another mister lol you always had such a brightness you brought with you whenever you came into a room and when talking on the phone with you you always had a way with words to make me feel better and now there is apart of me that just feels empty and aches for my sister. I miss you so much please as I go into surgery tomorrow please please watch over me and if that doctor screws anything up you have my permission to haunt him for as long as you need to lol anyway until we see each other again please know how much I love and miss you. Love your sister forever Amanda♥️

My girl Missy, today is Feb 2nd and the 1 year anniversary of your death is 7 weeks away. I still can't believe you are truely gone. When I look at the pictures of you, I try to remember that particular day in your life. There are quite a few actually, it's funny how that works. Guess those things are now in the forefront of my mind, rather than just a fleeting memory in time. Alot of things will trigger a memory of you, and that is a good thing as it helps me to move forward I think but you know it's a SLOOOW PROCESS. The hurt that came from your death will always be there and no one can take from me the memories that, that hurt has caused. I luv you baby girl always and forever,   Love mom

Missy was like a second mom to me ... and i miss her soo much ...i wish she was here still its really hard knowing shes gone forever ..... i miss you missy i love you like my own mother .... ill see you again someday

My dearest Missy, I've been thinking about my birthday, one year ago. I remember coming to see you and you told me to wait a sec. You went into the bedroom and came out with a small rectangular box with wrapping paper on it and gave it to me and said "Happy Birthday momma. I opened the box and inside was a beautiful elephant pendent with a turquois head piece. Inside the box was also a hand written note explaining why elephants are so revered in the world. I remember you and I talking about that subject and saying how cool elephants were and we weren't surprised that they were so revered. I want to thank you again Missy for that awesome gift and I will wear it today in your memory. God bless you darlin' ♡♡♡♡ Mom

Missy another year has come and gone, glad it is over but doesn't change the fact you are gone. It will be 10 months on January 18th. Almost a year since you died, still don't want to accept it. I made an appt with a physic medium for a personal reading to try and talk to you thru her on March 18th, as you know there are no coincidences. It is a good omen I believe. It was the first date she had open when I called to make the appt. I about fell over when she told me that, also very happy about the date. I am anxious but glad and can't wait for the reading. It is about the only thing that keeps me going right now. I am feeling that my life sucks right now but am sure it is because of Dans trouble and him drinking alot and being a absolute asshole. I can hear your response in my head weird how that happens. I have not seen the kids since November but they are transitioning to their new home and I don't want to interfere with that. Well angel, I love and miss you very much but feel your presence occasionally. I wish you were here and not just your spirit. All my love darling, as always Mom

My Angel Missy Marie, This is the first Christmas without you and also your first Christmas in heaven. This holiday season has been extremely hard for me. I was gonna spend Christmas Eve at dads with the kids and everyone but that didnt happen thanks to Shelly. It shouldn't surprise me I guess but Shelly is a hipppocrite, claims she is a christian but she is NOT. I did go to the cemetary and spent 2 hrs talking to you and God, questioning my faith, Gods existence, and how much I missed you and mom. My Christmas this year SUCKED as much as the whole year of 2014. I am hopeful that 2015 will be better. I miss you so much Missy and Mom too. It's been much harder cuz my 2 people I could talk to about anything are both gone now. With all my love to you and mom in heaven baby girl. Luv u much, miss u more!!!!!!!!!!