- 26 years old
- Date of birth: Jul 2, 1980
- Date of passing: May 19, 2007
|Let the memory of Michael be with us forever|
"Happy Thanksgiving my Angel. Could you give your grandma a big hug from us please?
We sent you a balloon as always.
Dad and Ethan put up the tree. This year it is artificial. Dad did not want a real one.
We bought a huge turkey. You know dad loves his turkey.
Matthew is doing well.
We all missed you today (everyday).
Ethan went snow tubing today. He had a great time.
4 ever in our hearts.
"Hello my Angel.
I wish you could come back and stay awhile. What I wouldn't give to hear your voice and see your smile. Just one hug and I would never let you go. I would just continue to tell you how much we love you so.
4 ever loved 4 ever missed
"Hello my Angel. Thanksgiving is fast approaching. That is dad's favorite holiday. We have plans to eat out this year. We are going to a Thanksgiving brunch. I want everything festive for dad. Tonight we are having Turkey for dinner. He is so happy.
Dad wants to take a trip back home and to NYC.
I recently saw a photo of the steam train and boat. It made me think of the brunch cruise we took. Me, you, Matthew and grandma. After eating sitting on the deck listening to the music. I don't think they have the brunch cruise anymore. It was a beautiful afternoon. A lovely memory.
I miss you my Angel.
Love you to the heavens and back
"Happy belated Halloween my Angel"
"Friends on FB posted about their weekend McMahon reunion class of 81. They posted pictures of the school. Wow it has changed since you were a student. It looks like there is a game room. Beautiful pictures on the walls. I started thinking about your graduation. It is hard to believe that was 18 years ago! We were so proud of you.
We miss you Michael."
"Hi my Angel up in heaven. We talked to Matthew yesterday Things are looking pretty good for him.
Your dad goes for a scan next week then treatment will begin. I will be buy his side every minute just as I wss with your grandmother. Dad and I did not leave the hospital once grandma was taken off life support and hospice took over. Jason dad and I slept in the same room with her for days.
May I ask a favor? Could you ask our great God to watch over your 1/2 brother Ryan? He is very misguided. He has a lot of trouble getting stories right. He claims to be happy but is a very angry man. When happy you don't lash out. Maybe if our great Lord reaches out to him he can help him to become a happier person. A better person.
Ryan spent his life making you feel unwanted and now you are his brother. To use this page to spew his misinformed misguided stories is disrespectful to you. I will block him if I see it again. This is to be used for memories of you. He was right about only one thing and that is you helped to keep the family together. The one thing that had helped me during these years is that toward the end you found out what I had to live with. It was great to hear you say you finally understood the lack of cooperation I received.
You tried the last week to get certain people to be agreeable. You wanted to show me that you all could run the house but you also received no cooperation. I love you and miss you more than anyone will ever know.
I will be busy with dad for a bit but I well write again on Halloween."
"Halloween is fast approaching. We took Ethan pumpkin picking. I was remembering all the Halloweens we went to Jones farm for our pumpkin. So many to choose from. The Apple cidar and cranberry cookies.
Dad & I were Talking about the haunted train ride in Essex.
Good memories. I wish we could turn back the clock and do them all over again. I miss you.
"Thankfully, Michael doesn't have to put up with the last nine years of what his family had become. His youngest brother sits in jail waiting to spend his life in prison, using Michael's death to excuse behavior the preceded his death. His other brother had to flee from the house because his mother threatened to kill a newborn just because he felt uncomfortable with her holding him. His nephew has grown obese and vulgar. His mother has used every opportunity to exploit his death for attention. Now his step-father, who broke vows to stop drinking is paying for those broken promises made on Michael's memory with deadly prostate cancer.
If Michael had been alive, he would have been disgusted to see his mother abandon his dying grandmother so she could go to Disney. He would have been appalled that his mother and step-father scammed one of his brothers out of a lot of money to upgrade that Disney trip. He would be sitting in depression while his mother ignored his feelings to make his step-father's cancer all about her.
Michael's memory deserves a lot better than the exploitative ramblings of the people who took it upon themselves to co-opt it. He was a good person who was in tremendous pain every day of his life in his final years and was mostly ignored by the people moaning about how much they now miss him cuz he's gone. He was a good man broken by bad decisions and time spent in a private school that returned him to his family as an angry and violent kid. But he loved his family and did all he could to keep them together in the end, but he was fighting for that goal alone. His mother wanted to mean something as a jobless wreck without any control. His step-father wanted to chug a six pack every day and preferred that over family. His youngest brother wanted to get away with being a criminal but never learned how to cope with loss and was so guilted with the thought that his dead brother was punishment for his actions that he imploded on drug abuse and crime. His other brother just wanted to survive it all.
Michael's family was a jumble of selfish people held together by him and with his death, there were no more excuses to continue. No more obligations. No more emotional or familial leverages to be abused. I miss Michael all the time but it never crosses my mind that he wasn't the lucky one. You deserved better in life, Kakarot. You deserve better in death."
"Hi Mike.II have been thinking of you and grandma alot. I am having a really difficult time and could use you and grandma here. We found out dad has stage 4 prostate cancer. I am so scared. You were always the voice of calm. Dad is trying to be positive. He doesn't want us to worry. Like that will happen. I have never been able to hide my feelings. I am trying to be strong for him. I am at every test. Every Doctors appointment. I wish you could come down and visit for awhile. It would be nice to have you here. I have been looking for signs from you or grandma. It has been a very long since I have seen any.
I miss you very much. 9 years and my heart is still broken."
"School will be starting soon. I can't believe he is in middle school. Ethan is taking band as you did. It is sooooo hot here. The humidity is awful. I was remembering your high school graduation. It was so hot that day also. They moved the graduation inside. If course with no AC it did not make much difference. Matt and Ryan had top sneak in since we didn't have enough tickets. We were so proud of your accomplishment and proud of you. I chuckle when I think of your junior prom. The issue with the tux. You looked so handsome.
I really miss you.
"July 4th independence day today. We really didn't do much. I have been very irritable the past 2 days.
I was thinking about all the years at the beach watching fireworks. They were beautiful. You kids loved them. The traffic leaving was horrible. I thought about the birthday/ holiday picnics at the state park playing baseball and horseshoes. You and your brothers swimming. Those were good times.
Macy fireworks are coming on now.
I love and miss you my angel."
"36 years ago I gave birth to the most perfect little baby boy. 5lbs 6ounces. That tiny perfect baby grew into a wonderful sweet kind man. I am so grateful for the 26 years that we had you. Happy birthday my sweet angel."
"My Angel up in Heaven. I am sitting here thinking about your birthday coming up next weekend. We will be sending your birthday balloon. Family dinner and cake to celebrate your life. You would be 36 years old. I often wonder where you would be in life. Married? Kids? You would be a great dad. Would you had finished school? You were getting ready to begin pharmacy tech courses. We were so proud of you. I don't think I said that enough.
I don't know what happened to compassionate friends. I can no longer find our chapter. We really miss releasing butterflies in your honor and the worldwide annual candle lighting ceremony.
I will write again on the 2nd.
Love you always
Miss you always my Angel.
"Thinking about you this memorial day. I miss the parades we use to go to back home. I was looking at the pictures of the parade you were in with the junior high school band. That big grin and fluffy hair.
I miss you today and everyday.
"It has been 9 years today that you received your Angel wings. I was not ready for this. You are always on my mind and in my heart.
4 ever loved and 4 ever missed. If it stops raining we will be sending your balloon.
Love mom. ❤"
"Hello my Angel. It is almost that dreadful anniversary (9) again. I just can't believe so much time has passed. It feels the same now as it did in 2007. I miss you very much.
Mother's day was ok ( not really ). I was emotional. You are not here. Grandma is gone."
"Happy Easter to my Angel up in heaven. It was a very emotional day for me. After 9 Easters without you my heart still aches. I will never get over missing you. Dad and I sent up our balloon for you and grandma this afternoon.
I love you soooooooo much.
"Today was a crazy weather day. Torrential rain high wind sirens and hail. The rain was coming down circular. We couldn't open our screen door. It reminded me of that storm from late 2003 or 2004. Same weather conditions. We had never seen swirling rain. Grandma the dog and I were hiding in the walk in closet. Lol. Candles burning. You Dad Ryan and Matthew standing outside singing getting soaked hoping to see a tornado. Silly boys. You said don't worry mom when we see the tornado coming we will come inside. I remember saying by the time you see the tornado it will be to late. The four of you thought it was hysterical us ladies hiding in the closet. Thank goodness only lots of rain and heavy wind that night. Funny how a memory will just show up. That was a great night.
Thanks for that memory
"CT had a big snowstorm yesterday. It got me thinking about our last winter back home. It snowed alot every couple of days. We had like 28 inches that winter. You, dad, Ryan and Matt had to shovel out our drive way almost daily. No city plow on a private road. I would make hot chocolate for you all. It was so beautiful to watch the snow come down sitting by the fireplace.
It would be so great to be back there again with all of us together building snowmen, snowball fights. Shoveling.
I miss you my Angel
"My Angel up in Heaven you were always the glue that held everything together. The person to talk to. I've had the wind knocked out of me and could sure use your calming voice and wisdom. I wish you would visit me in a dream so we could talk. My gosh I miss you so much.
4ever loved & 4ever missed.
"Hello my Angel. I missed not having you here for the holidays. We spent Christmas day at Matt's. His girlfriend made Christmas dinner. The people and the noise made the day pass by quickly. Not a lot of time to think. We took Ethan to the hotel to see the decorations. He also went snow tubing. We didn't do much this holiday. Dad was in the hospital twice. He is very tired. Three more days left to 2015. Hopefully 2016 will see us living in a new state. We really need a change. I know we've talked about it for awhile but hopefully the dream will become reality. I'm so sorry we couldn't do it before you left us. Maybe you would still be here. Almost nine years and i'm still having a rough time.
I love and miss you my son.
"It was a hard day today. Very emotional. I guess because the holidays are fast approaching and every year we attend the world wide candlelighting ceremony for parents who have lost children. Last year the ceremony was not at the church and this year I find no listing for our area. I hope we can find some place to go. We wil light a candle at home if we have to.
I just wanted to say how much we miss you.
"Happy Thanksgiving to my Angel in Heaven"
"I've tried several times to leave a note but it does not post. I just want to wish my Angel a Happy Halloween in heaven. Wish you were here to go to events with the family. I know you loved Halloween. Dressing up. It is so difficult to take Ethan for a costume. I go in September now
We want you to know you are loved and missed more than you know.
Love to you.
"Hey my Angel"
"Hello my Angel up in heaven. It has been a few weeks since I was able to write. I hear if you find pennies around or see butterflies it is a sign that your loved one is close. I found several pennies the past couple days and a butterfly flew around me today. I was hoping it was you.I miss you so much."
"Happy birthday to our amazing Angel up in heaven"
"Happy Birthday, buddy."
"Hello my Angel up in heaven. Father's day just passed by. It was a quiet day. We took dad out to lunch. We missed you very much. Dad had to work during the evening. I have been thinking a lot of days gone by. How I wish I could have them back. Your birthday is coming in 9 days. Another difficult day. Well I need to stop Ethan off at his outing. I will write again soon.
Love you very very much
"I haven't been to a Yankee game in quite awhile. I was thinking about the game you, Wanda and I went to. It was a nice evening, great game. Of course we got lost coming home. We always got lost coming home. Every place we stopped for directions nobody spoke English. I felt so bad it was 4am when we got home. U had a final in the morning. I wish we could attend another game. Keep up the tradition of getting lost. It made some funny memories.
I miss you dearly. Mom."
"Yo brother. When you gonna come haunt us already. We could use the excitement. I don't do this here much. But there's plenty things we still needed you here for. We sure miss you. I know i do. But I'm hopeful we'll meet again. Love you man. Whoop whoop!"
"I was reading up on the new Batman v. Superman movie and The Suicide Squad movie, as well as DC's Convergence storyline. I really wish I could talk to you about it and get your take.Dude, you should see Joker now. It's terrible. lol I can only complain to you about it and you'd make some kind of joke. I miss that."
"I don't know what is going on. I have tried three times to write yet nothing shows. Let's try again. Happy memorial day my Angel. We would love to send our annual balloon"
"I can't believe it's been eight years, dude. It sux not having you around. Who else can listen to me whine about stuff that doesn't really matter...like comic books and idiot gf's. lol. And who else can dish out such funny insults and take mine too. We had a lot of good times in school and in my basement. I haven't had a friend like you since you left and I never will again. At least you're in a peaceful place w/ your Grandmother. Say "Hi" to my brother for me."
"Wow eight years already. I have spent the morning remembering this tiny perfect little baby who grew into such a big kind hearted man. Your laugh was contagious. You were always quick to lend a helping hand. You are gone my son but never ever forgotten.
"Hello Dear One, today marks the 8th anniversary of your passing, and all I can think about is the night of your birth. I was terrified your mom would have you in my car on the way to the hospital! You were such a beautiful baby who grew into very handsome man with a gift for making the written word rock on each page. Your one precious life mattered greatly. Here's to you sweetheart! ❤️
Love, Cousin Patty Ann"
"Ok let's try this again. I just wrote to you but nothing showed up. Tomorrow is mother's day"
"It is getting to be that time of the year again. The dreaded anniversary. It is still about a month away but the tears are flowing and depression is setting in. Everyone is getting on my nerves for the littlest thing. 8 years, were did the time go? I remember that day as if it were yesterday. I miss you so very much"
"Easter will be here soon. I was just thinking about our last one together. Coloring and hiding eggs for Ethan. Honey baked ham (from the honey baked shop) for dinner. Who knew in a few short weeks you would be gone. I am so miserable and I miss you so much. Will this ache ever go away? I am thinking of ordering another ham this year. I haven't had one since you left. Ethan is getting a little old for hiding eggs.
I have to take s pain pill. I hurt my foot.
I love you so much. How I wish I could talk to you. Maybe a visit in my dreams.
Until next time
"We recently moved back to the area where you last lived. It is difficult for me to go out around here. A lot of memories of you. I went to the park with Ethan today and could see you vividly playing with him on the slide. Two more months it will be eight years since that horrible day. That hole in my heart is just as big today. Ethan starts a new school tomorrow. Only 5th and 6th grades. He is excited though I think I am more excited than he is. Ethan is getting to be such a big boy. You would be very proud of him.
Easter is coming soon. We have a huge yard to hide eggs. I think you would like it. I am thinking of ordering dinner from the honey baked ham store ( just like your final Easter dinner). I wish you were here to enjoy the festivities. Coloring and hiding eggs, setting up Ethan's basket. This may be the last year to hide eggs. I think he is getting too old.
Well Mike I have to go for now. I will write again soon.
Love and miss you always
"I wrote to you on Valentines day. For some reason it is not showing up. It was a stressful day as are all days. We took Ethan to this event about children in poor third world countries. It was both interesting and depressing. Ethan would like to sponsor a child. We sent balloons with messages to you and grandma. I really really really miss you"
"Dad, Matt & I are taking Ethan to the stock show tomorrow. I was thinking about the last time you were there with us. Games, pony rides, fried dough pizza, midway rides. It was a great day. I wish you could be here for this outing. We miss you everyday Michael.
"Well another year is about to begin without you. It is not any easier now. I miss you very much my son. Matt received some upsetting health news. I wish you were here to talk to. Ethan is shooting poppers and frisky is scared.
It's not going to be a good year. I wish you were here.
Love and miss you soooooo much! :'(
"I wrote the other day. I do not know what happened to the entry. Christmas was OK. Stressful. I am happy out is over.Christmas just is not the same without you. I was thinking about the time we cut our tree at Jones farm. Cutting the tree, cookies, Apple cider. I miss you Michael."
"We tried to do something different for thanksgiving dinner. No Turkey this year. Dad made ham. Matt's first holiday home in five years. Dinner was a disaster (something to look back on I guess). We went to the Gaylord afterward. It was nice. The decorations were scaled way back this year but what they had was nice. Matt and I took Ethan to the parade of lights Friday. Thousands of people. We couldn't really see much. Next weekend is the polar express train ride for Ethan. Hopefully it will be a fun time. I remember the haunted Halloween train ride you and your brothers went on back home. I was thinking about that brunch on the boat. They don't have that anymore. the Christmas season is officially here. I miss your hearty Santa laugh.
Mike would you talk to the big guy (God) again about Sarah. She has stage four glioblastoma. I read it isn't good. She is only 18. It is a worrisome time for the family.
I have to feed Ethan. I will write again soon.
"Hi Michael. There is so much going on. I wish I could talk with you. Could you and grandma talk to the great one and ask him to watch over cousin Scott's daughter? She is 18 years old and just found out she has brain cancer. Tomorrow they find out how bad. Thanks. I love you. Thanksgiving is coming up. Dad said no Turkey this year. Can you believe it? He loves Turkey. We are having ham. Matt had some slight trouble. He should be home Thursday. He could really use your guidance. He misses you though he keeps it to himself. We all miss you. We may finally be moving out of Texas. Woo Hoo! :-) I wish you and grandma were here to enjoy that news. We hope to move this coming summer. As things progress I will write to you. The annual candle lighting ceremony is coming up. We will be there as we are every year. Ethan tells everyone this candle is for my uncle Michael. Hopefully Matt can attend this year.
Your uncle became a grandfather last month. Justin had a baby boy. Lots of brown hair. Look out for your thanksgiving balloon on Thursday. I wish you were here.
Love and miss you always and forever.
"Your favorite day is here. Happy Halloween in heaven. I wish you were here to take Ethan out with us. I heard some schools were canceling their traditional school parades. No fun for the children. I remember coming to school to see you and your brothers dressed up for the school parade. Well I have to get Ethan ready for school. I just wanted to tell you how much you are missed today and everyday. :'(
"Sitting here thinking about you. This time of year I really struggle with missing you. Not that I don't miss you and think about you everyday. The holiday season will begin soon.Another Thanksgiving and Christmas without you. Halloween is two weeks away. You loved Halloween. Matthew is going to take Ethan to fright fest this weekend. Next month uncle Jason is going to be a grandfather. Justin is going to be a daddy. I guess Ethan missed the bus so we have to take him to school.
Until my next post. I love and miss you more then I can say.
"I just wanted to say how very much we miss you. Today we are at fellowship church. It is a church unlike any you have been to. Ethan will be baptized soon. He is excited. You would be so proud. We are very proud of him. It is his special day."
"I just wanted to say how much I love and miss you. Life goes on. It doesn't stand still for anyone. Labor day weekend is here. How I wish you could be here for the picnic at the lake. Family gatherings are not the same without you and your grandma. :'( big hugs from us all."
"I was sitting here thinking about my first born baby boy. How much I miss you. School will be starting soon. Ethan will be in 5th grade. You would be so proud of him. Whenever I become emotional Ethan reminds me that you are still here beside us. I wish I could hear your voice, see your smile, hear your laugh. My heart will always have a piece missing.
I love you and miss you always.
"All I can say is boy how I wish you were here. It has been a very rough few days and I sure could use your shoulder to lean on. I miss you so much my son. You were taken way to soon. You had so much more to give. Always were willing to help anyone.
I love you.
"Every morning I wake and for a moment I feel happy. I forget that you are gone. Within minutes the depression begins to set in. Will I ever find away to be happy again.
I am sorry Michael. We missed the compassionate friends butterfly release this year. I don't know how I did that. I thought the event was in July. It was in June. It is always in June. We attend every year. Ethan always speaks into the microphone saying this is in memory of my Uncle Michael. We release two butterflies. One for you and one for grandma.
On another note. Matthew and Dixie took the kids to six flags last week. Ethan went on the Texas Giant . He was so proud of himself.
Something great maybe happening. I will let you know if it does.
Well my son it is a hot day today. I am going to nap.
Until I see you again. I love and miss you. :'-("
"Well Mike though I wish you were there last night. You did not miss much. Our time at the lake was not wonderful. Matthew was over heated. He had trouble breathing for a bit. He was very hot and sweaty. It scared the heck out of me. While looking for a concession stand for something cold we were told some young man either drowned or nearly drowned. The fireman said he drowned but his eyes were open as they passed us. Prayers to him and his family. We left early and did fireworks here. The traffic getting to the lake was worse then I remember back at calf pasture. Matthew got a bad sunburn at hurricane harbor. I really wish you could answer me back. I miss you."
"Happy independence day in heaven Michael. I sure wish you were here to enjoy the festivities this evening. We are going on a picnic at the lake tonight. They have fireworks later. Finally after 11 years. I remember going to the beach with you boys, dad and grandma to watch the fireworks. They were beautiful but getting out of Taylor farm was horrible. Matthew and Ethan bought some fireworks for when we come home.Today Matthew and Ethan are with Dixie and the kids at hurricane harbor. Hopefully it will be a great day for Ethan.
I will write again soon. Love and miss you always . :'(
Tell grandma we are thinking of her also."
"Hi Mike it's mom again. Happy belated birthday in heaven my son. Dad, Matthew, Ethan and I went to UNO yesterday to celebrate for you. We sent your balloon. Good news, Matthew has a job. He began last week. You would be proud. Tomorrow we are going to the lake in Grand Prairie to see fireworks. Matthew and Dixie are taking the kids to hurricane harbor during the day. I wanted you to know we are keeping busy. I had surgery last week. Thank you for watching over me.
I will write again next week with my results. Love and miss you. Mom"
"Hey Dude. Happy 34th. WIsh you were here. We need you. I miss your voice of reason and of course, your jokes. There's so much to tell you about. I have no one to whine to about how horrible these comic book movies are. I think you'd like them though. I downloaded ICP's 'Big money rustlas' and the new 'DBZ' movie the other night and thought of you. I wouldn't be into either of these if it wasn't for you. Know that we all miss you and think of you."
"Hi Mike it's mom. Your birthday is coming up on Tuesday. I miss you very much. I sure wish I could talk with you. Well I can talk I just can't hear you back. We are going to the lake Friday to see fireworks. I think we will celebrate your birthday there with all the beautiful colors. I will make cupcakes with Ethan. We had a memorial day picnic and this beautiful butterfly landed on dad's shoulder. Everyone said Mike is here. The butterfly just sat there. I have to wake Ethan. I will write again Tuesday. Love you with all my heart. Tell grandma hi."
"Hi Michael it's mom. Just wanted you to know I was thinking about you as always. The 19th was a hard day but I made it. Every year on May 19th Bonnie changes her fb profile picture to your picture. We all miss you. Great news, Matthew began college last week. We are sure you would be proud. We know you are watching him. I wish I had a day to talk with you. I have so much to say. Well my wonderful son I will be looking for you in the brightest start in the sky. We saw you at our last picnic. The butterfly theft landed in dad's shoulder. I will be waiting to see you in my dreams. Until then remember I love you. Miss you :'( sorry I had to edit. I forgot to tell you Michael Ethan and I go to see all the new Spider-Man movies for you. I was signed Peter Parker girlfriend was killed in this last Spider-Man. I did not see that coming. Also Miller it's home. He send to be doing well. Love you. Mom"
"I really do not understand why I can not sign in under my name . Especially since I began this memorial. Anyway tomorrow it will be seven years since Michael left us. I miss him more than words can say. He was my heart and a piece is now missing. I wait for him to walk into the house but that will never be again. I wish RIP meant return if possible. Until we met again my Son. I love and miss you every minute of the day.
"I find myself thinking about you a lot. It seems to happen every year between March and May. I just miss you so very much. We are coming up on seven years. Seven years without you. Where did the time go to? It had not gotten any easier for me. I hide my pain during the day and she'd my tears when no one is looking. Do you hear me calling out your name? I love you very much and wish you were still here. I am a little annoyed at your"friends". None of them have written anything here for you. Matt is home. He is doing ok. He will begin college in May. He registers in about ten days. I will write again soon."
"I was thinking of your jolly hearty laugh this morning. We couldn't help but laugh with you. I sure wish I could hear you laugh now. Missing you today and everyday . :-(
You are my heart. ♡♥♡♥♡♥
Love you always
"Missing ur humor. Its hard to find light of a day without it. Im wishing the song in the background of this wasnt so depressing. I mean wow. But u gotta lot of ppl that miss u and sure ciuld use a haunting right no w. Rest easy"
"I love you uncle michael"
"Christmas will be here soon. Just thinking about you as a boy on Christmas morning. How excited you would get waiting for Santa. The twinkle in your eyes. Wishing you were here. I miss you so much.
Love you forever and always.
"It has been 61/2 years and I miss you more each day. It has been so lonely without you. I know God needed you and you are in a better, happier place my Angel. The holidays are coming Mike look out for our annual balloons. Great news Matthew is coming home in a few weeks.
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