I haven't even been able to look at pictures of you Bubba, until last night. I laid down because I was so tired and all I wanted was your arms wrapped around me tight. To feel your skin on mine. To breath in your sweet scent. To feel your heart pumping through my body. To hear you say you love me and everything will be ok. I had to settle for a picture of you when we were 17. It was from my high school graduation party. You were so proud of me that day. You had the biggest smile on your face. Remember the day we first met? We were 11 and I asked you to dance, then the next day you asked me to be your girlfriend. We never stopped dancing from that day. The love letters, the first kiss, the misadventures, the first fight, the trouble we caused, the first time we touched, the late nights & early mornings, the first cigarette, drivin fast, the first time i broke your heart, the day you put mine back together again, my initials tattooed on your chest, no secret untold, our first taste of alcohol, camping trips, working on my car,reckless bridge jumping, the first time we were passionate, poems, music, the happiest day of our life (our blessing), laying under the stars, coming out together, the miles you walked to wait on my porch until i got home from school, running through the rain, the day papa died, every tear we shed together, every laugh, boyfriends, girlfriends, our friends, walks on the beach, our toes in the sand, phone calls that lasted hours, living together, illness, saying i love you no matter what, twists of fate that brought me back to you each time i didn't want to be here anymore, the way we were attached at the hip even when far apart, swinging on swings all night long, bars, clubs, moving to ptown as soon as we could, peircings, road trips, watching finding nemo on repeat for days, my intense love for you, your intense love for me, our ups, our downs; fuck Bubba I could go on forever. You are my Bestfriend. You are my first true love. You are apart of my family. You are my everything. Brother, in all honesty there is a hole where my heart should be and I don't know how I'm going to make it without you. No promises made, no promises broken, remember?I'm going to catch that raindrop next to yours as soon as I can. I love you Michael Paul. 18 years and counting...