Dear Mikel: I have missed you so much these past two years. Today I'm thinking of that horrible day and holding your hand for 5 hours in the hospital. I prayed you wouldn't leave us. God had other thoughts. I believe he didn't want you going through all the pain and running that seemed to follow you. I wish I could of made a bigger change in your life. We did have a special love that I still feel and will always be with me. We had some awesome times. I think going dancing all the time and our trip to Alaska was the high of our relationship. When we lived together in Paso was so fun and I remember you telling me many times that you felt at peace and were so comfortable then. I'm so thankful that you felt that way, so did I. My Love I will see you again in Heaven and we can dance away again. I love you with all my heart and theres not a day that goes by that I don't think of you. Forever Me

Mikel: 60th Birthday my Dear:  You are truly missed and loved by so many left behind. Family, lovers, grandkids and friends. I know you can't believe you would have been 60, but its true. I'm back in Paso now with all kinds of memories of us. Some good and some not so good, but I always loved you and will forever.

Hi Babe; Happy 59th Birthday. I hope you'll be dancing to the music in Heaven for your day! I miss you daily Mikel. I told Cindy she needed to have a Green beer to celebrate your life on Earth. We started that in Paso at Applebees on your Birthday, then to Colorado next was as Las Vegas. A month befor you left us we went to dinner and had green beers Senior Frogs. That was the last time we went out and we had a great time. I've going to church every Sunday and it has been so good for me. Is Heaven as BEAUTIFUL as the Bible says, I'm sure it is.

Mikel and I meant in January 2002. We started dating and had so much fun together. We'd go dancing every chance we had at the Paso Robles Inn; Mikel was a very good dancer. Mikel was a very generous Man and did alot around my home and my Mothers. I planned a 90th birthday for my Mom and Mikel played his music. All 75 people of my family were there and Mikel loved it. It's a great memory.
  We went to Anchorage, AK. to my sister-in-laws one summer for a couple of weeks. Six of us went on a fishing charter and we brought home 90 lbs. of cleaned, packed and frozen Halibut. We had quite a few bar-B-Q,s. It was so yummy. We went boating, jet skiing and had a blast. Mikel was in awe of the beauty of AK. and the 20hr's of daylight. 
  Later on we went to Texas to celebrate his son Eric's graduation. A few years later we went and celebrated Holly's graduation. We had so much fun. He was so proud of his 4 children. He loved them more than they ever knew.
  It was so nice to have a Man to share life with. We kept busy going to the beach or a day in San Francisco or just staying home relaxing. It was very enjoyable just to be together.
  On Mikel's last birthday we went out to dinner and walked the strip in Vegas. We talked and talked. It was a beautiful warm starry night. He was planning a trip to Texas to see his Mom and Jimmy and family, but he never made it.
On April 24th I got a call at 12pm that he was in the hospital in critical
condition.. I sat with him and talked of our life together, his 4 children, his sisters Cindy and Karen and his brother Jimmy who is very ill. I feel he heard me and I am so THANKFUL I was there with him. At 4:20pm he went to be with Our Lord! 
  I have so many special memories of our good times together and I will miss his phone calls, his music and most of all knowing he is close by. His love will always be in my heart forever. My love to his children Mellissa, Eric, Holly and Dana. DAD loved you so very much. My love to all of Mikel's family.  I will see you in Heaven Babe!  My Love for you Judy