Saying Hello & Goodbye
we never got to hold our sweet baby boy while he was alive, the first time my fiance and I said hello to our baby boy was two days AFTER he was born, i was so scared but when we finally held our baby and admired everything about him it was heaven, i got to hold a sweet angel i can never describe the feelings of emotion i had that day when we said hello and goodbye all at the same time, he was so perfect i couldnt wrap my head around the fact that he was so perfect and taken from me, all i wanted more than anything was to leave that hospital with my son. take him home in his going home outfit strap him in his new car seat and head home to start the rest of our lives together, but we didnt do that instead we left empty handed without pur baby boy, just a memory box the hospital gave us. and the memories in our head and the pictures on our phones. when my son finally came home it was in a small pretty light blue urn with a teddy bear on it. i cried and cried as i held the ashes of my son when a month before that i was feeling his sweet kicks hiccups everything, now all gone...