I remember when we where younger we lived in a house a few blocks from granny and we had a race back from her house to ours then it started pouring rain you where wearing blue Jean's shorts,  I  remember you where always so beautiful. The time at the bank after i went to work with you and carrie and yall where Blaring the Chicago hits CD you had ordered I was so embarrassed. Or the time at possum kingdom we where tubing and the smile on your face was comforting I was no longer scared. Many times i tend to think of your mistakes and forget all the good you had done the fact you would help any of your neighbors you had a very kind heart. It has not been easy the first year was rough then I became numb I've always been one to just act like things never happened when I lose someone it's how I deal with things but this year has been fairly rough I catch my self looking in your old apt window to see if I can see your shadow I see landon running to give you a hug at the park like that one day where you sat on the slide and he slid pennies down the slide to you.  I can go on and on but it will only make me cry more.  I've always wondered if you would have pulled through if we didnt decide to let you go. I love you mom