17 Months later
It has been 17 months since you left us mum ,and really while many new chapters have started the old chapter remains open .Its nearly Christmas time 2016 ,how does life carry on ,when you didn't carry on ? We just try to carry on with our lives the best we can .The children get older and life events keep happening ,then why does it seem that since you died our lives stood still and sometimes stopped completely .
There is no need for material possessions or the things we think we need ,all that matters is being kind and remembering how to give and receive from the heart ,it is just an exchange of energy .I really miss not choosing gifts for you ,it was my most favourite thing to do ,that and Christmas carols and cake ,you know we loved cake !
The pain of your loss comes at really strange moments for me ,when I am least expecting it , but when it does ,it is so raw ,I cannot catch my breath .People say it will get easier ,I am not so sure really ,a girl needs her mother ,I need you mum .
Watch over me when you can and let me know you are near ,you know I can read the signs .Happy Christmas mum ,I love you xxx