Natalie with baby Roux at the Orofino Dam, 2009.
Natalie Ann Fuller
  • 28 years old
  • Date of birth: Apr 17, 1986
  • Date of passing: Mar 14, 2015
Let the memory of Natalie be with us forever
This memorial website was created in memory of our loved one, Natalie Fuller, 28, born on April 17, 1986 and passed away on March 14, 2015. We will remember her forever.
Memorial Tributes
This tribute was added by Karen Seashore on 18th April 2016

"Well, today I rode my bike up Ella and saw the shed where we sorted through so many things, so much beautiful art and proof of a live deeply lived. Here's a toast to the irrepressible Natalie Fuller!

Love, Karen"

This tribute was added by sara goldman on 17th April 2016

"Dearest Natalie,

Can't believe your birthday is today.  30 years old!
I remember when you were born..

You have touched so many lives and your angelic spirit continues to live on!  We love you Sweet princess
xoxox

Sara and Jenny xoxoxo"

This tribute was added by Maria Mangicaro on 20th March 2016

"Dear Natalie,

I have recently read about your life and the struggles you went through.

May you rest in peace.

"In My Father's house there are many mansions. And if not so, would I have told you that I go to prepare a place for you?""

This tribute was added by Heather Smith on 15th March 2016

"You were a burst of energy and always full of smiles. Your one of the bravest people I have ever met. Keep watching over us up there"

This tribute was added by Julie Reister-Keaton on 15th March 2016

"Yesterday our North Idaho skies saturated us with snow, hail, and hard rain-- contributing to the anniversary day we'd lost you for good.  Still, for brief moments the sunlight would seep through the layers of thick mist, just like Natalisms that show up in photos, objects, your creations, and memories of times shared with you in our home, on our boat, biking or walking.  Miss you, Sweetie."

This tribute was added by Rose Shadek on 15th March 2016

"My heart aches for your light to shine again.  I think of you every day when I look at the Disney Princess mirror.  When I look in the mirror, I only see your beautiful smiling face.  I still remember your voice and your laugh.  Tears."

This tribute was added by Zibby Keaton on 14th March 2016

"Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and walk past my couch and swear I see you eating Cheetos on it. Laughing at how angry you know I will be. You make your presence known in very mysterious ways, my dear squishy. I miss and think about you often."

This tribute was added by kelly deshields on 14th March 2016

"Missing you today . Knowing you are at peace helps get me thru this day. Love and prayers to Doris and family. Her beautiful spirit is still truly missed. Kelly Deshields, Dylans mom"

This tribute was added by Amanda wilmes on 14th March 2016

"Listening to Doctor jones this morning really put a smile on my face! I wish everyday u were back here with us ! I miss your beauty, your smile, your kind words,. Just everything about u nat! :/"

This tribute was added by sara goldman on 14th March 2016

"Jenny and I will always remember our sweet Natalie's infectious smile and silly laugh!  We miss her more than words can ever describe..  She will remain in our hearts forever..
Love and Hugs,

Sara and Jenny  xoxoxo"

This tribute was added by Mel Clench on 14th March 2016

"My heart breaks for you and your family on this the first anniversary of the loss of your daughter Natalie, I know the daily pain you now live with. I lost my 17 year old son Shayne to suicide on March 3, 2014."

This tribute was added by Linda Stalters on 14th March 2016

"Natalie’s life continues to impact the lives of millions.  The pain of saying “good-bye” never escapes; hopefully knowing Natalie’s life has such profound significance in motivating others for good eases the sting.  Most sincere love and hugs to you, Doris."

This tribute was added by DJ Fuller on 14th March 2016

"~Natalie~

In my dreams
you are a white horse
with a white mane
who leaves rainbows behind you
as you gallop from star to star.
The other day I asked you
to take me somewhere
so you carried me to the moon
where I sat like a baby
and powdered myself
with its fine white dust.
And then you took me to a place
where all is possible
all is well
and where we'll never know
a parting of ways."

This tribute was added by Doris Fuller on 13th March 2016

"It feels both like yesterday and an eternity ago that we said goodbye to Natalie. In fact, it has been, tomorrow, March 14, a year. The only silver lining is that she lives on in so many hearts and lives and that she is no longer hurting. Sweet dreams, Nattie Bear. I'll love you forever. - Mom"

This tribute was added by Elizabeth Sloan on 21st October 2015

"Today I am in my studio, clearing a path to make 30 pieces of art for a Moscow show coming up. "What's this?" I wondered as I picked through piles and lifted a box. (I haven't had studio time for a while.) Ah, yes. The box of postcards Natalie had collected and that Doris sent to me to use in my art. So as I begin this month long project, Natalie, you will be in my studio with me, and I plan to use a few of the Paris papers in my work."

This tribute was added by cynthia mccrerey on 30th September 2015

"What a heartbreaking discovery to hear about Natalie's struggles and passing.  My heart aches for you, your family, as well as the many friends that held her so dear.  My limited memories shine - brilliant, beautiful teenage girl who was thoughtful, caring, and kind.  And that SMILE!  Sending you love, peace and blessings as you cherish your memories and advocate for mental illness awareness."

This tribute was added by Anna Everett on 16th September 2015

"Natalie was my closest/best friend in the year before she died. Its hard to make close friends as an adult! i just adored her and she adored me. The day before she died she posted on my facebook ' i love you Anna forEverett'. She brought out the best in me. I am normally a rather grumpy person but when we were together, we just laughed and never had a bad time. I miss her every day."

This tribute was added by Doris Fuller on 14th September 2015

"Natalie died six months ago today. Just this weekend, I came across the following vignette in one of her notebooks. She had written it a year earlier. (With apologies if you already found it on the site. I posted it yesterday but couldn't find it today.)

Better Homes and Gardens 2008
She finds a second clue

She flips through the magazine looking at all the beautiful houses and delicious recipes. She finds a second clue.
        It says, “In the sand, you will find a thing to give you ‘piece’ of mind. She goes to the beach and finds a bottle with a note in it." It says, “you’ve lost your memories from your past life but, in that life, you discovered us. The key is in the place you lost. Use not your eyes to unlock the door.”
She is startled by a voice behind her.
“Confused yet?” he says.
She laughs and clutches her heart.
“Yes! I am very confused. I don’t know who I am. I don’t know where I am. I am not exactly sure what’s going on.”
He laughs. “Don’t worry. Your memory will return in time. I can’t tell you everything, but I can tell you that your name is Natalie, and you’re dead.”
“I’m dead?” she puts her hand to her chest…. Heart’s still beating, eyes still blinking, synapses still firing!
“You crossed over, Nat. You’re in another dimension. You’re in heaven.”
She looks at him, dumbstruck.
“I have no idea what you’re talking about.”
“Here, let me take you on a little tour. Everyone will be so excited that you’re finally here. We’ve been waiting for you. Especially God.”"

This tribute was added by sara goldman on 13th September 2015

"I was just thinking about our precious Natalie when an email popped up from Doris .. It was a reminder of the 6month mark of Natalie's passing..Tonight is the eve of the Jewish New Year Rosh Hashanah
This is a time of renewal faith and hope..Our darling Nat brought that to so many of us..She was a lover of all G-D's creations..animals..nature..butterflies..I could go on and on..
May this New Year bring us hope and comfort knowing that the love kindness and compassion of Natalie will continue to sprinkle down to us all!  Much Love Always,

Sara
xoxo"

This tribute was added by Doris Fuller on 13th September 2015

"Natalie died six months ago tomorrow. Last night, as I continued my journey through her many writings and other creations, I stumbled across the following story she wrote in 2014. It was just the right thing to find at this midway point through the first year without her, like a kiss and a hug from the great beyond.

Better Homes and Gardens 2008
She finds a second clue

By Natalie

She flips through the magazine looking at all the beautiful houses and delicious recipes. She finds a second clue. It says, “In the sand, you will find a thing to give you ‘piece’ of mind."
        She goes to the beach and finds a bottle with a note in it. It says, “You’ve lost your memories from your past life but, in that life, you discovered us. The key is in the place you lost. Use not your eyes to unlock the door.”
She is startled by a voice behind her.
“Confused yet?” he says.
She laughs and clutches her heart.
“Yes! I am very confused. I don’t know who I am. I don’t know where I am. I am not exactly sure what’s going on.”
He laughs. “Don’t worry. Your memory will return in time. I can’t tell you everything, but I can tell you that your name is Natalie, and you’re dead.”
“I’m dead?” she puts her hand to her chest…. Heart’s still beating, eyes still blinking, synapses still firing!
“You crossed over, Nat. You’re in another dimension. You’re in heaven.”
She looks at him, dumbstruck.
“I have no idea what you’re talking about.”
“Here, let me take you on a little tour. Everyone will be so excited that you’re finally here. We’ve been waiting for you. Especially God.”"

This tribute was added by Jenny Goldman on 16th June 2015

"Natalie was my childhood best friend. We lived next door to one another and we were inseparable. Natalie and I would spend almost every waking moment together playing with our Barbie dolls, spending the night at our respective houses, watching movies and simply having tons of fun. One of my favorite memories of sweet Natalie was when she told me that she created the word "shenanigans." She said with confidence, "Jenny, shenanigans is a word I just made up!" Then she explained the meaning of it. I just thought, wow I have the smartest best friend in the entire world!

When Natalie moved to Colorado, I was heartbroken. There wasn't anyone else who could ever replace my best friend. After Natalie moved, we would consistently write letters to each other. I would scream with pure joy and excitement when my mom would tell me that a letter from Natalie arrived in the mail.

Last week, my mom came across an article Doris had written about Natalie's passing. Both my heart and that of my mom's shattered when we heard this unbearable news.

Natalie is a person who enriched, enlightened and brighten my life. She truly had a heart of gold. Her love of life, free spirit and humor were contagious. She inspired me to be a better person. I will miss her beautiful heart and soul.

Our thoughts and prayers are with Doris, Don, Greg and the rest of the Fuller family. We love you forever, dearest Natalie.

-Jenny and Sara Goldman"

This tribute was added by Shawn W on 21st May 2015

"I loved Natalie very deeply.  She was a good friend to me.  We used to talk for hours.  I'm sick with myself for not being a better friend to her.  I wish I could have been more there for her.  I don't meet good friends like her very often.  When I moved suddenly I left her digits on the side of my fridge.  I wish I could do things over again.  I remember her being especially happy when she was on vacation sailing in Washington D.C.  I also remember the last time I spoke with her was well into the night.  And I would have stayed up with her all night had I known how to save a life."

This tribute was added by Simon S. on 10th May 2015

"I learned about Natalie from a recent article I read, written by her mother, near the anniversary of her daughter's passing. I wanted to come here to express my deepest condolences to Natalie's family. I am sorry for your loss.

I also come here from the perspective of someone in what I believe is a similar position as Natalie. For someone like me, the despair is crippling. The burden is unbearable - many times it's so bad I can't get out of bed. I have contemplated relieving myself of future pain often, even as recent as a few minutes ago. It can be hard for another person to appreciate the feeling of drowning in loneliness, and wishing that you were better than you are - not for yourself - but for others that care about you; good enough for what they deserve, not what you are. I am so, very tired. Every part of me is weary - being worn away.

I do not believe that Natalie wanted the result of her passing to have so much pain to her friends and family. I believe that Natalie was carrying a weight that became too much to take. She sought peace, to finally get some rest, and to be free of all that burdened her.

I hope that others will learn compassion, and more awareness and less stigma is possible within our society.

Rest in Peace Natalie."

This tribute was added by Mike Randles on 1st May 2015

"Natalie was our wrestling manager. I remember her as being smart, energetic, and possessing a positive disposition. A profound loss. Our prayers are with Doris and the rest of her family."

This tribute was added by Cindy Burns on 29th April 2015

"I'm very sorry for your loss."

This tribute was added by thorn ducati on 28th April 2015

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This tribute was added by Kim Goeggel on 27th April 2015

"I am so sorry for your loss. I did not know Natalie but I do understand losing a child. My 18 year old son, Tyler, took his life almost 2 years ago. Just like Natalie he was bright, did well in school, loving, just a great human being. The kind you of person you hope your children grow up to be. He also suffered from Mental Illness as his last letter said he was mentally exhausted and that nobody would understand what his thoughts did to him. I tried to move heaven and earth the 2 months I did know about it but he was determined.....I wish you the comfort of knowing there are people who deeply care and understand. The sadness and emptiness will probably always be there but you do  learn how to deal with the feelings better. I hold on the all the happy memories and there were many! Thank you for doing what you do to bring awareness and resources for this disease. Something I did not have. Always know,  Natalie is proud of you and free of the mind that was trapping her. She is your Angel at every step of the way. She will never be forgotten and always be loved! Godspeed sweet girl....."

This tribute was added by Tammy James on 26th April 2015

"I did not have the privlege of knowing Natalie but I am very sorry for your loss. I have just read Natalie's story of her struggle with bipolar disorder.  As someone who has just been diagnosed Bipolar reading her story has made me feel less alone in the world. God bless you and Rest in Peace Natalie."

This tribute was added by REGIS HYDE on 26th April 2015

"I too have a bipolar diagnosis and over the past 10 years it has been a nightmare. I did not know Natalie, but I have read about her journey living with this dreadful disease. My prayers go out to her family and friends who are left with a void in their lives with the passing of their beloved Natalie Fuller. I can only hope that society learns from her example to live on in spite of the disease and to ensure that mental illness is given the same weight as other life threatening diseases. I am a firm believer in life after death, and I believe with all my heart that Natalie is in a far better place devoid of all her physical and mental restrictions. God has set aside a place for her in heaven. She will come to Christ and be welcomed into the kingdom of heaven , while  I will continue to battle the disease that she eventually succumbed to.

Natalie you are my inspiration and I would have loved to have known you.

Your brother in Christ,
Regis T. Hyde"

This tribute was added by Robin Coin on 26th April 2015

"Thank You for sharing your beautiful daughter's life with everyone.  How brave and strong you are!  We have no choice do we?!
I lost my daughter to the demons too in 2011.  Your daughter reminds me of her so much.  To meet her visit her virtual memorial I made for her - say her name - keep her memory alive
http://Courtney-Coin.Virtual-Memorials.com"

This tribute was added by Charmin Persson on 26th April 2015

"God bless you as you travel forward from Natalie's death.  I was moved to read your article about Natalie and her struggle with mental illness.  I am convinced that her life will truly make a difference in the lives of others suffering from mental illness and their families who love them.  It will come through you who will tell her story."

This tribute was added by Claudia Vela on 26th April 2015

"I am from Mexico. Mental illness does not know about race, gender, borders. It exists everywhere and it is so hard to understand. People prefer to look away. Pretend the person does not exist, that it is a phase, and it will pass. I lost my husband to mental illness. My children will never know who his father really is. I understand Natalie's struggles because I see them in my ex husband. Talented people immersed in a cloud of darkness and loneliness, where there is no one else but them. Drifting away from the people who really love them.  This is a beautiful tribute to Natalie and all the others."

This tribute was added by Tanya Klein on 26th April 2015

"To ALL that miss Ms. Natalie..what a sad ending to such a fighter...my 14 year old daughter also suffers from severe bi-polar and to what started as what I thought was a strive for attention (ex: self harm, hearing voices, staying up all night), numerous hospitalizations, bad diagnosis & treatment plans) is now a full fledged plea for society to get it! Mom's know their children better than anyone and if we really listen we can tell when they are honestly communicating and this evil disease that Laken and Natalie suffer/suffered is just that "an evil disease".....not chosen it's victims and it needs to be recognized by a society as a whole in hopes that more losses such as the loss of Natalie do not continue...her story and that of her family's is mirrored in many families...and we lay helpless at times in how to save amazing lives who suffer this tragic illness. I am to my utter core heartbroken and sorry for the loss of this amazing young woman to all that are suffering without her. Rest assured that GOD himself knows of this illness and that the victims are innocent and handicapped to try and beat it. Thank you for sharing Natalie's story so that others such as my family may keep motivated in fighting the fight to support and help find a way to allow these suffers options in living with such an illness and in finding tools to help in the struggle this disease presents to all that live among it. God bless and give you strength dear family and friends of Natalie....may you find strength in the positive that sharing Natalie's story will bring to so many and in spreading our families are NOT ALONE in its devastating effects. Sending hugs and prayers of strength to you all!
Sincerely,
Tanya"

This tribute was added by Erica Stoffel on 26th April 2015

"As someone who similarly lost a loved one (my Mother) to a similar condition in a similar situation with a comparable progression, my sympathy and support are extended to the family. This is such a horrible disease, I pray for the day it ends."

This tribute was added by Joe Trmprt on 26th April 2015

"I did not know Natalie , many Condolences .. I wish i knew her and could have spoke with her .. I have my fair share of demons after serving in Combat both in Afghanistan and Iraq , Rest Peace Natalie You May Be Gone but Never Forgotten ."

This tribute was added by Michael Stevens on 26th April 2015

"I did not know Natalie personally. I knew nothing about her until tonight when I came across the article  "The ‘demons’ got my beautiful, loving daughter" on www.msn.com.  I was moved by the severity of her illness and how quickly it appeared with no brain injury or family history.

I want to leave this tribute to send the Fuller family and everyone close to her my condolences and wish the best in the future dealing with the loss."

This tribute was added by kevin eldridge on 25th April 2015

"After telling my son sometimes I have to break my day into small time frames to get through some days because of a difficult time I was going through He told me yea I know I do that every day Dad.
It broke my heat to hear him say that.
I pray his Demons don't get him.

God Bless Natalie Ann Fuller and her Mom for shedding such light on this most horrible Disease."

This tribute was added by Debra Ray on 25th April 2015

"I did not know Natalie or her family.  I came across this article about her and my heart aches for her and her family..  I work in the field and when I hear stories like these it makes me so sad... I am so sorry... She seemed like she was a beautiful young lady..  God got another angel.."

This tribute was added by Antonia McCutcheon on 24th April 2015

"Beautiful girl.  Beautiful mom.  Natalie's spirit is felt by many even those who did not have the honor of knowing her as I did not ever meet her.  I will help spread her word as she was put on this Earth for a reason and that is to educate and inspire us .  Mom, please know that she is truly reaching us and making a difference.  She is doing the job that she was put on this Earth to do.  Thank you Natalie for inspiring us so and we will give back in honor of your legacy.  We will continue the work that you have started.  We are here for you.  Mom, please feel better in knowing that her spirit is reaching out to the world and making a difference.  We feel her.   Lots of love and hugs!  -Antonia"

This tribute was added by mike g on 23rd April 2015

"I happened upon this story by accident. I was attracted to it by the story and by the fact that I struggled, mostly alone, through some of my own demons, often in my teens and twenties, at times thinking some fairly scary thoughts. After looking at this website, I am left with the impression that Natalie was a very beautiful, amazing person. As a father, I cannot begin to imagine what her family is going through. It is very clear that she had a lot of friends and family that she loved and cared about and that loved and cared about  her. Natalie, please rest in peace, I am sure you are in a better place, and look at how many lives you have touched."

This tribute was added by Maria Neri on 23rd April 2015

"I will keep you and your family in my prayers, I am in morning with you I understand the pain you are feeling! My brother who was 37, took his life too 3 days after Natalie in 3/17/15. We are so heartbroken as well. We did not know about this demon he was battling so we couldn't even help him because he never told us! Now both Natalie and Eddie are in peace no more pain!"

This tribute was added by Diane Pica on 23rd April 2015

"Mrs Doris Fuller, We do not know each other, but yet when I read what happened I have to say I feel like we have a huge connection, I want to send my most deepest condolences to all of Natalie's family, I hope your stronger then I have been, my daughter Christina age 22 passed away February 6, 2014, she had her first major episode at 19, she has been in and out of hospitals, had the same exact symptoms as your daughter, the last 6 months of her life she became very depressed, but you still never think there gonna die by suicide, she stepped in front of a train also, suicide like this is the most difficult thing a human being can go threw, my heart goes out to you mrs fuller and family, I am Christina's mother and I am still grieving, and have been going to suicide meetings, therapists, any kind of help I can latch on to, I miss my daughter so much, the pain has been the tortures of hell, I know what your feeling and I'm here if you ever want support, god knows I need all the support I can get , I felt I just had to share since we experienced just about the same tragedy. RIP Natalie and I hope you and my daughter are angels watching over us. GOD BLESS"

This tribute was added by N Hall on 23rd April 2015

"I just read about Natalie's struggle with bipolar illness and my heart goes out to her family. These mental illnesses strike when a young person is just starting out in life. My son was diagnosed with schizophrenia at the age of 19 and 7 years later as being schizoaffective. He is now 31. At last count he has been hospitalized 30 times and the latest was just last week. It is so true that without the meds, it is a pure living hell. My son has been on and off his meds for too many times that I care to count. The voices and hallucinations are vicious.  Everyday is a roller coaster not knowing when the severe depression will set in. I hope Natalie is at peace now. She is truly beautiful."

This tribute was added by Sarah Gregory on 23rd April 2015

"I have never met nor heard of Natalie until reading the article her mother wrote in the Washington Post. I sit here now feeling an overwhelming sense of hope that flourishes from Natalie's strength. I pray that she now is at peace with God and that her family will forever cherish the memory of such an amazing person."

This tribute was added by Amanda Bub on 23rd April 2015

"Suffering from the same diagnosis I empathize and sympathize with the struggle Natalie went through. Having the strength to walk through life with this affliction is one of the scariest, heartbreaking things a person and their families will go through.  Natalie, your bravery for giving us a voice in your short time here has inspired me to continue my journey no matter how difficult it may become. I believe your watching over the world to continue your efforts in educating and supporting those with this mental illness. Thank you and god bless"

This tribute was added by M Killackey on 22nd April 2015

"Thank you for your story in the Washington Post.  My brother died from this disease in November 2012--the last 6 months of his life a mystery- and while i suppose i thought it might happen, it came as such a shock when i heard.  Thank you for reminding us that this is a life long, chronic disease that they have to manage everyday--it is heroic.  I'm so sorry for your loss."

This tribute was added by Teri Morris on 22nd April 2015

"I am so sorry for your loss. I read the Washington Post article with a heavy heart. My daughter is going through something similar right now and your story hit me like a bulldozer. I'm usually very good at being able to fix things but, with this, I feel completely helpless. I admire the work that you are doing to help others, and I wish you comfort, blessings and many happy memories."

This tribute was added by Deb Hawkins on 22nd April 2015

"My heart sank a bit when I rec'd the notice from my online email with the W.P. article you wrote. My daughter too, from Baltimore born in Sinai hospital, died when she was 31 via suicide. I empathize with your devastation. The story of Natalie sounds a bit like my Jessica's story. I wrote it all on a Kindle eBook, as it was a coping tool for me to do so. I so wish that the mental health people in this country, the doctors who saw Jess, the ones who administered the pills would take more care then they currently do. So sad for you and your extended family. Jessica's story is here, no doubt will be repeated again and again until something concrete is done to recognize the psychosis and treat it properly.
  http://www.amazon.com/Daughters-Tragic-Descent-Mental-Illness-ebook/dp/B00G9FNNP4/ref=asap_bc?ie=UTF8"

This tribute was added by minnie tay on 22nd April 2015

"Dear Natalie

Read about your story in the Washington Post. You are a really brave soul. I have the same illness too. It really takes a lot of effort to stay on and grab hold to reality so you were remarkable for trying so hard always. You will be missed."

This tribute was added by Jill M on 21st April 2015

"I recently read of Natalie in a Washington Post article.  Mental illness (and particularly psychoses) are profoundly misunderstood.  The person with the illness is suffering beyond our imaginations.  I am saddened by a widespread lack of compassion.  If you've ever had a bad trip or been terrified and confused, this is what is happening inside the sufferer's head.  I'm so sorry for loss but happy that you had this wonderful person for the time you did have her."

This tribute was added by Christopher Hall on 21st April 2015

"I'm so very very sorry for your loss. Her film short was enlightening and she will be greatly missed."

This tribute was added by shanon stringfellow on 18th April 2015

"I miss u so much Natalie. And I wish you were here so we could celebrate your day. Rest in paradise until we meet again. I love you from shanon with "1" N."

This tribute was added by sue marasciulo on 17th April 2015

"To the Fuller Family,
Even though I don't know you or Natalie, I feel some sort of connection, as I have a 30 year old son  with schizophrenia and I have visited the Treatment Advocacy site for several years.  TAC helped me tremendously and of course Doris did too.  I will forever be thankful for that help.  May you find peace and know that you did all that you could do.  One of my favorite comments that you shared should help us all...don't allow yourself to go to the "what ifs".   Happy Birthday sweet Natalie.  Hugs to all of you."

This tribute was added by Joseph M. Bowers on 17th April 2015

"Natalie,

We only exchanged a couple of letters. I can't say that I knew you well, but I know something of the metaphorical demons you battled. May those of us who survive celebrate your life by renewing our efforts to bring about real, positive change."

This tribute was added by Donna Pitts on 17th April 2015

"Dearest Natalie,

Today, I wish from afar that your light and energy, the gift that was you, feels the warmth from all around the United States of America as we honor you and this, the marking of the day of your birth.  We grieve but cannot mourn your passing, which takes our breath away and begs us harden our hearts to the extraordinary pain that marks your death.  We will always grieve, but we must walk on, toward the light, which you have always been a part of: that magnificent glimmer in your eyes, and the tenderness of your spirit.  Happy Birthday, Sweet Angel.  #JusticeForNatalieFuller"

This tribute was added by Linda Stalters on 17th April 2015

"No words can erase the pain and what-ifs are without resolve and hold no truth.  Natalie was blessed with the best care and love that could be provided, yet as with other terminal illnesses, her time physically on earth was cut much too short.  Today is a celebration of the beauty she brought."

This tribute was added by Janell Ludwig on 1st April 2015

"Natalie coming to Rawhide was always such a bright spot for all of us. I loved it when she and Greg came to camp. I am praying for Greg and the whole family. May God be with you and bring you comfort and peace."

This tribute was added by dylan leary on 30th March 2015

"We’ve known lots of pleasure,
At times endured pain,
We’ve lived in the sunshine
And walked in the rain.

But now we’re separated
And for a time apart,
But I am not alone-
You’re forever in my heart.
            I'm going to miss you so much Natalie. I love you baby."

This tribute was added by kelly deshields on 30th March 2015

"My heart is broken. My sons heart is broken. My grandchildren miss their" aunt Natalie".  She was in our lives for a short period of time but made a huge impact. Her love for everyone her compassion; her outgoing spirit; her beauty her talent and love will shine forever.  Much love to her forever! My condolences to all her family. Know that she was loved by all she touched. Shine bright in heaven. You are truly missed!"

This tribute was added by Debbie Neighbor on 26th March 2015

"My condolences go out to the family and friends of Natalie.  From reading about her I know she is missed and loved by many.  No matter what, it can truly be said that death is an enemy and soon it will be brought to nothing (1Cor. 15:26).  I have found much comfort in the Bible promise of a resurrection hope of our loved ones at John 5:28, 29 and hope you will too.  Death was never a part of Gods original purpose, in fact he yearns to soon bring an end to it and the suffering it causes your family and friends.  Revelation 21:4 states: "And he will wipe out every tear from their eyes, and death will be no more, neither will mourning nor outcry nor pain be anymore. The former things have passed away."  I did not know Natalie, but I read her obituary and I hope these scriptures will help to bring some comfort knowing that others care.  If you would like to learn more about the Bibles promises and the hope it brings, please feel free to contact me."

This tribute was added by Traci Fuller on 26th March 2015

"So beautiful and so talented!

Betty Hill Burton"

This tribute was added by Traci Fuller on 26th March 2015

"After hearing about Natalie, I found myself thinking back to our time together. I felt compelled to look up a blog entry I wrote about our time together. Tonight and for many nights to come, I'll reflect on what she taught me about beauty and the essential.


.Wendy Erman Harvey



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This tribute was added by Traci Fuller on 26th March 2015

"We will celebrate Natalie's spirit and beauty this summer. ------- we lit a candle for her in Notre Dame and then sat and listened to a beautiful vespers service. We are thinking of you and sending our best wishes to you and everyone who loved Natalie.

Amy Craven




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This tribute was added by Kris Laverty on 26th March 2015

"Dearest Natalie...thanks for your thoughts, dreams and passions, in spite of your struggles you were so alive."

This tribute was added by Karen Eckland on 23rd March 2015

"Natalie, I love ya sweet girl......I loved you then, and love ya now. You were one special woman. Miss you always....."

This tribute was added by Greg Fuller on 23rd March 2015

"I'll always miss the little girl she was -- even back when she liked pounding my skull with wooden alphabet blocks and I wasn't allowed to fight back... because she was the baby."

This tribute was added by Browce Hickman on 22nd March 2015

"We are so very sad.  Natalie was such a good and supportive friend to Whitney and she was a beautiful spirit.  Her smiling face was always a pleasure, greeting me each morning when I arrived at work to build her Sandpoint home."

This tribute was added by Alex Fuller on 21st March 2015

"You were so compassionate to me when I had cancer always smiling and making me feel good amongst my pain. I am going to miss your smiling face so much! Glad you were in my life nothing but good memories around you!!

- Molly Klein"

This tribute was added by Alex Fuller on 21st March 2015

"My girls will forever be thankful. You may be gone but you are still touching many lives. You will always have a very special place in my heart. I can’t believe that I will never talk to you again. I am at a loss for thoughts. I will always keep you with me. Love you Natalie Fuller, our Natty Boh!!!!

- Brandy Apple"

This tribute was added by Alex Fuller on 21st March 2015

"I am so sorry for your struggle Natalie. For years we sat as close as we could get to each other in Spanish class. I miss you and send all my love to your family and friends. Mi Primavera, You were just like the springtime, warm and lovely. I am heartbroken, but I take some comfort in knowing that you are free from pain. I am so lucky to have had you in my life. Your smile will live on in my memories forever.
Careños,
Mariposa

- Janessa Lebow"

This tribute was added by Alex Fuller on 21st March 2015

"Rest in peace, Nat. We love you and miss you.

- Eddie Behringer"

This tribute was added by Alex Fuller on 21st March 2015

"Missing you Natalie Fuller. Love you sweet sweet girl. You will definitely be missed. I know we always loved having you every time at camp.

- Karen Eckland"

This tribute was added by Alex Fuller on 21st March 2015

"Natalie was my welcoming committee at a time and in a place when I needed it the most. I've never known anyone who loved like Natalie. She gave all of herself. I feel so lost knowing she's not just a phone call away anymore. I wake up every morning praying that it was all a dream. Then I'm crushed all over again. I wish I could be with her one last time, just to know she's alright. I love you Natty!!! I'll miss you forever!!! We knew her when she was at her best. We saw her worst. We loved her unconditionally. And that's what she's taking with her. Nicki said to me last night that Natty was taking a little piece of all of us with her, and that's so true. But the important thing to remember is that she left a little piece of herself in all of us. We will carry Natalie with us every day. We will never forget. We will be her legacy. I love you dear.

- Jessica Rae Guy"

This tribute was added by Alex Fuller on 21st March 2015

"My military life has led me on many adventures, heartbreaks and life experience, but in my life prior to the AF, I worked on a sweet little Ranch Camp nestled away in the hills of Bonsall. I used to say that IT was in fact the happiest place on Earth. I love to keep in touch with all the camp kids I watched grow up in my time there and I'm so amazed and inspired by the incredible people they have become. It was with heavy heart that I learned of Natalie's passing. She was a sweet, gorgeous and good hearted girl. I know she will be sorely missed in this life, I pray for her family and for her everlasting peace.

- Shiloh Bell"

This tribute was added by Alex Fuller on 21st March 2015

"I haven't seen you since high school Natalie, but I will always remember how kind you were to everyone and your impressive barrel race performance for junior miss. You and your family are in my thoughts.

- Jodi Zygar"

This tribute was added by Alex Fuller on 21st March 2015

"Natalie, I will always remember our time at U of I...during dark hours you were the best of friends and brought joy into my life and I cannot thank you enough for that. I wish I could have helped you as you helped me. You are a bright light and the world will remember you for it. You will be missed!

- Brad Ferguson"

This tribute was added by Alex Fuller on 21st March 2015

"Natalie Fuller, R.I.P. The world is a little less bright today without you in it.

- Cierra Fuller"

This tribute was added by Alex Fuller on 21st March 2015

"My beloved friend. I love you Natalie Fuller. Rest peacefully now.

- Nicki Shumway"

This tribute was added by Alex Fuller on 21st March 2015

"You always had a smile and a wave for me. Your kindness and spirit will be greatly missed.

- Elizabeth Greener"

This tribute was added by Alex Fuller on 21st March 2015

"You came into town like a storm, and stole my 14-year-old heart. Never one to compromise yourself to appease others, I am truly grateful that I had such a strong force to guide me in my youth and as a young adult. My memories will always be filled with you, and the amazing times we shared. And, although we will not be able to escape the old folk's home together, you will be beside me in spirit when I finally do. Until we meet again.

- Zibby Keaton"

This tribute was added by Alex Fuller on 21st March 2015

"RIP Natalie you were an incredible soul and I cherish all the memories I have with you.

- Shannon Maggard"

This tribute was added by Alex Fuller on 21st March 2015

"It is with a heavy heart that I bid farewell to my old friend. How I wish we were able to keep in touch over the years, and how I will keep the memories we made close to my heart. My deepest condolences to the family.

- Natasha Leah Zenhari"

This tribute was added by Alex Fuller on 21st March 2015

"We will all miss you so much. I will never forget the amazing memories I have with you.

- Brian Kelly"

This tribute was added by Alex Fuller on 21st March 2015

"My heart is heavy. You will be missed, Natalie. I'll hold onto memories of us all watching Moulin Rouge and sneaking beers out of your parents' cellar. You were a beautiful person. Rest peacefully, Nat.

- Lauren Lockwood"

This tribute was added by Alex Fuller on 21st March 2015

"Rest in peace Natalie - so sad to hear of your passing. May you find comfort in God's embrace and peace of heart and mind. Our love and prayers go out to you and those you left behind. Fare thee well my friend.

- Liam Orton"

This tribute was added by Alex Fuller on 21st March 2015

"The only good thing I can think of is that you are no longer struggling or in pain. You will always be the cool aunt (even though we are the same age, but that's part of what was so cool.) I wish we could have planned that trip to the Fuller compound like we had talked about.

- Jessica Fuller"

This tribute was added by Alex Fuller on 21st March 2015

"Such a vibrant girl. I just loved keeping up with you on fb since you moved. You made middle school so fun. I drive by your house when I drop Feini off for school and she often reminds me of how "my friend used to live down that road". I'm so sorry for your pain. May you rest in peace sweet Natalie.

- Schume Navarro"

This tribute was added by Alex Fuller on 21st March 2015

"I will miss you Nat. My heart is heavy.

- Madison Smith"

This tribute was added by Alex Fuller on 21st March 2015

"My heart is heavy. Terribly sad hearing this news today. Natalie was amazingly talented! I have great memories doing shows together and hanging out in Sandpoint. She will be missed dearly. Rest in Peace Natalie! I know you're in a much better place.

- Daniel Kedish"

This tribute was added by Alex Fuller on 21st March 2015

"This news breaks my heart. I am so sorry. To all of your friends and family and everyone who had the opportunity to meet you. You were such a beautiful person with a smile that could light up someone's day, even just from seeing it on Facebook. I haven't seen you in years but I hope you are at peace now. I hope your family and friends find peace as well. You will never be forgotten, rest in peace.

- Meg Turner"

This tribute was added by Alex Fuller on 21st March 2015

"In memory of my fellow lady footballer. May your soul be at peace my dear. RIP.

- Klarissa Hall"

This tribute was added by Alex Fuller on 21st March 2015

"Today my heart hurts, Natalie Fuller you just popped back into my life and now you are gone. I will always remember all the good times we shared and now I know how fortunate I was to see you at my graduation party back in 09 and how wonderful it was to have that last lunch with you at bennihanna! I love you and I will miss you forever rest in peace.

- Jamie Boswell"

This tribute was added by Alex Fuller on 21st March 2015

"Nat, you touched so many people’s lives and are loved by so many people. I know you are finally now at peace.

- Alex Lett"

This tribute was added by Alex Fuller on 21st March 2015

"My heart is heavy today. You will be greatly missed, Natalie Fuller. So many great memories of you.

- Colista Rodriguez"

This tribute was added by Alex Fuller on 21st March 2015

"I loved her with nothing less than all of my heart, and for a time, wanted nothing more or less in or from life. Last words were not enough. They pale in comparison to the many we had, in the moments we shared. I have never known this kind of loss. To let go is the greatest challenge, and the most important lesson of this life. I will learn to eventually, but not on this day, in this moment. In this moment my heart aches as I am beside myself looking in, upon the misunderstanding, the grief and the powerlessness of becoming the witness, of a life let go of, far too soon. Your memory lives in my heart and mind...where it remains, forever tangible.

- Aaron James Norton"

This tribute was added by Alex Fuller on 21st March 2015

"She was a beautiful person. My heart is broken.

- Angie Klein"

This tribute was added by Alex Fuller on 21st March 2015

"I hope you are at peace sweet girl. You're an angel fly high and watch over all of us that need you. You are a beautiful person and you were always smiling I'll never forget that. You touched a lot of lives sweet girl.

- Heather Smith"

This tribute was added by Alex Fuller on 21st March 2015

"May you rest in peace. You were always such an upbeat sweetheart at school.

- Amber Johnson"

This tribute was added by Nancy Mccanlies on 20th March 2015

"I remember going to the book signing here in Sandpoint and thinking about how smart and composed Natalie was and how proud Doris was of her. I bought her book and gave it to my daughter's to give to their kids.  She will be missed by many people.  Rest in Peace, Natalie."

This tribute was added by Martha Schinagle on 20th March 2015

"Dear Natalie, There was so much LIFE in you!!!   It is hard to grasp that you are gone.  But thank you for sharing your bold presence, your insights, and your kind heart with me and the Hopewell Community during your stay with us.  You will be remembered fondly."

This tribute was added by Molly Galli on 19th March 2015

"Natalie will be forever missed by her Rawhide family.  She was always such a fun and happy girl at camp.  I loved the weeks when I got to be with her and Greg at camp."

This tribute was added by Linda Grant on 19th March 2015

"Natalie, the world weeps when a beautiful and gifted young woman feels despair so profound that her only alternative is to walk in front a train.  You leave behind you so many broken hearts.  We can only imagine how dreadfully sad you must have felt.  Rest peacefully, dear girl, for you brought great joy to your family and friends."

This tribute was added by Linda Gillett on 19th March 2015

"To Natalie, one beautiful, bright, strong and talented gal, just like your dear momma....who loved you with all her heart.  You will be deeply missed."

This tribute was added by Autumn Canfield on 19th March 2015

"Rip sweet Natalie! I will always remember your smile and sweet personality! My most favorite weeks at Rawhide were the weeks you and Greg were there! I'm so glad I had the privilege of knowing you! I pray that God surrounds your family with so much love during this hard time!"

This tribute was added by dylan leary on 19th March 2015

"I'll miss you so much Natalie, you will always be my silver lining"

This tribute was added by chris behrens on 19th March 2015

"The world surrendered yet another beautiful and amazing human, what seems to be far before their time. I very much enjoyed catching up with you a few weeks ago, as we hadn't really talked since college. I know that your struggle is over, and you are at peace now. My thoughts and well wishes go out to you and all those whose lives you have touched."

This tribute was added by shanon stringfellow on 19th March 2015

"Natty boh u will be missed.  U have taught me things to get me though sone tough times. I love ur sense of humor and I will forever cherish the memories, good conversation and words of wisdom.  
Love shanon with 1 "n""

This tribute was added by Julie Reister-Keaton on 18th March 2015

"You were so bright, so beautiful, and refreshingly blunt. I loved your sculptures, I loved your awe of cupcakes. I will always remember the night we watched the Northern Lights. You'll always be a spark in my heart."

This tribute was added by Louis DeGuise on 18th March 2015

"My dear Natalie, I wish I could have met you during your best years.
There are so many friends who are reaching .  If only you knew how many cared and loved you.  You are a great lost to your mum.  She always said that you were her best friend.  You always told me that mum is your best friend .  You will always be in our lives.
Je T'aime ton bon ami - Louis"

This tribute was added by Doris Fuller on 18th March 2015

"Thank you all for making me laugh and cry. She was almost sold by her brothers to the Turkish mafia??? Who knew....

I look forward to more."

This tribute was added by Alex Fuller on 18th March 2015

"I will always treasure your memory. I miss you."

This tribute was added by Deb Whitefield on 18th March 2015

"Even as my 5-year-old flower girl, you had a special spark that I so admired. You lit up the world for so many people and I will treasure your memory forever."

This tribute was added by Jeannette DeWyze on 18th March 2015

"I was so looking forward to buying Natalie's first novel, having one of her award-winning paintings hang on my wall, learning from her insights into mental disorder. We've all lost so much, with her departure."

This tribute was added by Joe Richard on 18th March 2015

"I remember the first time I met you on Halloween, for obvious reasons we didn't get along so great at first and we frequently argued and bickered!  But as the years went on and we spent more time together as a family we bonded and formed a wonderful relationship as brother and sister that I will never forget.  You will be missed dearly and I will cherish the memories we have, especially the time we almost sold you to the Turkish mafia guy for a ride home in London!! I'm sad that inwill never be able to talk to you again and see your beautiful smile but I am also relieved that you are not suffering anymore too.  Rest in peace Natty."

This tribute was added by Amanda wilmes on 18th March 2015

"Natty,
U have always been my role model since I was a kid. The connection and understanding u had with me was unreal. I was always able to come to u about everything and anything . I'll never forget that time u were babysitting my sisters & I , and u made up this game called "black car" ha u played that game with us for hours upon hours. I'll never forget singing dr jones with u over & over& over till I think we actually broke our Aqua cd . Lol . This will be the first year I won't get to hear your sweet sounding voice wishing me a happy birthday on Sunday. :(
I will miss u more then u will ever know . I love you so much pretty girl. Paint me a picture for when I see u again . I love u nat!"

This tribute was added by Andrea Odinov Fuller on 18th March 2015

"Sending you so much love, Natty. May that love reach you wherever, whenever you are. Thank you for touching the hearts of so many in your brief time here. I hope you are having the most beautiful, peaceful adventure. Until we meet again~"

This tribute was added by Anna Everett on 18th March 2015

"Miss you already. I love you so much!"

This tribute was added by DJ Fuller on 18th March 2015

"Natalie means "Christmas Day," which is perfect because you were a gift to the world. Thank you for the birdhouse. It's sitting on my kitchen windowsill, and I'll treasure it forever."

This tribute was added by Stephanie Sanger on 18th March 2015

"Your spirit was so kind"

This tribute was added by Ken Sanger on 18th March 2015

"You were so beautiful and now you are missed."

This tribute was added by Zibby Keaton on 17th March 2015

"You were always the best Disney princess!"


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