“If God brought you to it, God will bring you through it.”
I found this written by my mother on the back of a small, thick stock paper bookmark. The marketing on the front was from a Catholic bookshop in Seattle. These brief scribbles of insight are something I have come to discover in a number of places among her things. She seemingly wrote down many aphorisms and thoughts on anything she could find as if she had to jot it down before she lost the thought. She scribbled inside notebooks, on the back of receipts, on torn pieces of paper, and among the days of her yearly calendars.
It’s funny to think because this is something I do as well. At times, we hear something that just strikes a chord with us and can be experienced in a visceral way. Don’t you feel that sometimes when you hear a phrase a song that just resonates deeply? For some if us, there can be a feeling that these are insights from God and I know for my mother, she believed it was.
To simply express that she was a happy-go–lucky person would be to deny her of the very characteristics which made her so unique. I know that we seek to remember the good times because it gives us strength to move forward and to find a sense of healing. In many of the cases, many of those who have passed on did experience great happiness. My mother was undoubtedly the incarnation of happiness to so many of us. But she also took her life and therefore, warrants an exploration of numerous dynamics. Ironically, this tragedy has the power to teach us even more about the human heart because it forces us to consider new ideas that we might otherwise turn away from. But the reality is that
As of 2011, the Center for Disease Control revealed that 1 out of 10 people reports experiencing depression while the National Institute of Mental Health reports that depression is “one of the most common mental disorders in the United States.”
http://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/statistics/prevalence/major-depression-among-adults.shtml
Here in the United Kingdom where I currently live, “suicide remains the most common cause of death in men under age 35” according to the Mental Health Foundation.
http://www.mentalhealth.org.uk/help-information/mental-health-statistics/suicide/
Depression and suicide strike through all demographics of society however, it wasn’t until recently that we finally began to recognise it as something that was actually a social issue and not a criminal one. In fact, it was decriminalised in a seemingly modern nation like the United Kingdom with the Suicide Act of 1961. Even in regions like the US it was considered illegal although enforcement of this law was not regularly enforced.
My point? People have suffered in silence for far too long because of the consequences of how society view their behaviour. Depression and suicide were often family secrets quietly swept under the rug of their history and not to be spoken about. But my mother would never want me to be silent because she herself was rarely silent about anything that was true and more importantly, that was hurting so many in our society.
Therefore, we begin the journey to share more about who she was and to honor her for that. But just as our honest memories of those we love are not solely happy ones, they are not solely sad ones either and so hope to find the right balance which brings not only a greater understanding and reverence for life but also celebrates it for all that it truly is – a combination of sunshine and scars.