Happy 21st my booboo! I left a tribute for you..couldn't pass up a chance to share a bit more. Today was the day I became a Mother to a beautiful boy named Nicholas Josef Guasco! This day will always be just "our day"!!! xoxox

Happy Birthday Nicholas!  As we all will be gathering for your birthday today, I am sitting here thinking of the day you were born.  Nicholas it was just as beautiful day.  Of course, grandpa & I had the easy part we just sat in the waiting room & waited until you decided to be born.  Oh but it was a wonderful wait, our grandchild,  what a blessing, what a joy... The best gift ever is the gift of a child, the bestest (if there is such a word) is the gift of a grandchild.  We only had you for 14 years but Nicholas the memories that I have stored is what gets you through each day.  So my dear grandson, HAPPY BIRTHDAY,  you are loved & missed so much...Nicholas, do you remember how many times I have danced with you to our song "can't smile without you" you poor boy you just went along with it.  And I thank you for that!

1-4-3 Grandma 

Merry Christmas, Nicholas!

Mommy misses you every day. Most difficult time is the Holiday's.  Thanksgiving (one of your most favorite), and especially Christmas. Continue to watch over us..love you my sweet baby boy!

I can't believe it's been 6 years without you!  Went to 8:00 mass this morning for you..then set 6 balloons up to you! We went to Grandma's for a nice brunch. Mommy misses you everyday, my sweet baby boy!

Hi dear Nicholas,

Today is your 6th anniversary that you have left us & you went up to heaven.  To tell you how much you are missed each day, would take volumes & I think you know how much you were loved & are still loved.  We all gathered together for mass & then went to visit you where we release balloons.  What was so amazing, is your cousin Phoebe took the pictures of the balloons being release in the air.  There were green balloons & one red one.  While she took the pictures it was just balloons in the air, when she went to look at them there was a GREEN spot in 2 of the pictures.  You were telling us you were there.  I know how much you loved when we were all together, & you proved it again today.  I later went back to see you, I brought you some goodies that I knew you would like.   Nicholas there is so much I can write down but as I said it would take volumes, just know my dear grandson, 

YOU ARE LOVED & YOU ARE MISSED.

1-4-3

Grandma

HI Nicholas,

Today is your 20th birthday, and once again we are  all coming together for you.  We are going to mass, then off to see you & releash balloons & back to my house for lasagana, (your favorite).

You are loved so much Nicholas, we are all trying our best to make this day a bit easier to get through.  You are missed & of course Loved beyond words.  I know you are with the Lord & plently of family members to join in with your celebration of your birthday.

Gosh, I remember the day you were born, grandpa & I were waiting in the hospital from 2am, for your arrival, of course you didn't arrive until 12:30 but it was worth the wait.  I had the privilege to see you enter this world  & how your moms' doctor sung oug out "Happy Birthday" when you were born.  Of course your wanted to make your own splash in your entrance, & I know I mentioned this before but it is worth mentioning again, when the doctor held you up you decided to spray the walls.  Good for you Nicholas, you made a statement.  "I am here"  & you know you also grabbed all our hearts...

You are loved more than you will ever know Nicholas, Loved & Missed.

God Bless you on your special day &  everyday.

1-4-3

Grandma

Happy Birthday NIcholas,
Today is your 19th birthday, it is once again a very bittersweet day.  As we all come together to "celebrate" your day, we all will be missing you & our hearts will be hurting.  NIcholas  on to a lighter memory, I do remember  the day you were born.  12:30 on a beautiful Saturday morning.  Grandpa & I were there with your Dad, & Sandy to watch you entered into this world.  When you were being born, the doctor yelled out "Happy Birthday" tears of joy were just flowing down everyone faces.  It was a gorgeous day.  At that moment you stole my heart & soul, for that matter you stoled everyones heart & soul.  As I watch the nurses clean you up, you my dear, show us that you would be a force to be reckin with, you see, as you were nice & cleaned, you peed right across the room, it looked like a stream going uphill.  Didn't bother any of us, you see, you were perfect. 
You were loved more than you will ever know Nicholas & are missed just as much.
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Grandma & Grandpa

Oh my sweet baby boy - my boo boo.  Can't believe we have hit the 4 year mark since you have joined Heaven.  We had such a beautiful mass for your yesterday at church.  Monsignor Joe came in to do mass for you, baby.  The homely was based on Saint Monica - who is now one of the Saints Mommy with the praying to for you.  Monsignor mentioned your name in mass, and, of course, Mommy did my cry for the day, as I do everyday since the day your soul went to Heaven.

Julia had a very nice day (she decided she wanted to combine a bit of her 16th birthday with you).  You, I know are with her all the time.  She has become such a sweet, and loving person as she always was. 

Mommy loves you so much - and always!!  My sweet baby boy!!   

I tough time for Mommy, NIcholas.  I am seeing so many of your friends graduating high school.  So would have you.  Danny Friend asked Julia and I to go to the graduation, and, NIcky, I just couldn't go....I would have seen so many of the children you grew up with.  I went on FB, and congratuated all of them, and it kinda broke my heart.  Wanted so much to see you accomplish this...I know you are watching over all of us.  Nyle is doing great with us now, hopefully Phoebe will join us soon.

Love you so very much my sweet, baby boy...watch over Julia on Monday, as she will get her 2nd surgery on Monday....

My little Cardinal!!!   

Oh, NIcholas, I need your help....please guide Mommy with all the decisions for Phoebe and Nyle - Love you much!!!

My Boo, Boo...Had a great Easter at Grandma's....I'm sure you know all the issues that have happened recently with Grandma, Poppop, Daddy, and Ellen...it was so nice that they came to Gradmas' for Easter...a fun time was had by all.  I'm sure you had something to do with that...As you know, life is too short.  Live the best you can.  Daddy is leaving for Florida in a few days.  Doug, Julia and I just picked up some of his furniture.  Julia will be moving into your room.  Big step for her.  I think she is a bit nervous.  She got her bed from Daddy's - we'll see.  I think she is excited.  I know you will be there with her - I won't say that because I think it will make her even a bit more nervous.  Keep watching over her....she loves and misses you so very much.  Love you MY SWEET BABY BOY!!!

Dear Nicholas,
Happy Easter to you!  I know the heavens were in its glory today & you all were having a blast.   It is a glorious day for all. Jesus our Lord & Savior has risen.  And you were right there to watch & be with all the action.  
Today we celebrated Easter at my house, it was not has glorious as it was in heaven but it was really nice.  You would have been so proud & happy.  Of course I had plently of food, Yes I had Sunday macaroni, (Your favorite part of the day) & yes the family was together.  We had a lot of laughs but you were never far from our minds.  I will come by tomorrow to bring you your share of today's meal...
So Happy Easter my dear Grandson.
You are loved & missed so very much!
1-4-3
Grandma
 

Hi Nicholas,
I want to share just another one of my "greatest' memories of you.  Yesterday was my 68th birthday and I was thinking of my 50th.  You see you were just 6 days old then.  I was having some friends over to celebrate my 50th, Next thing I know I hear someone coming into the house & there you were with your mom & dad.  What a HUGE surprise to see you.   Everyone knew at that moment that I would not be there hostess after that & you know what I wans't I just held onto you & wouldn't let go until your parents took you home.  You know you look back at times & you wonder what memories stand out the most, well Nicholas that was one of them.  I was over the moon with joy to have you celebrate my birthday.
As I have said over & over to you, when you were born you took hold of my heart & soul.  
Nicholas thank you for all the memories I hold dear to my heart.
You are loved & miss so very much!
1-4-3
Grandma 

Happy Birthday dear Nicholas, 
You know the greatest gift & joy gthat I have ever received was having my children how I felt to see & hold my babies are simply unexplainable BUT Nicholas mupilty those feelings by a ZILLION & that is what it feels like to have a grandchild.  Truly no words can describe how I felt being there seeing you enter the world & right then at that very second you took hold of my heart & soul.  There is a saying that goes something like this "that God does not measure you by your toys in life but by how you loved & how much you were loved"  Nicholas you received the biggest prize by how much you loved your family & how much you were loved.  How much you taught us, how you entered everyone heart & soul.  You may not be with us here on earth but know that you are with us with ever breath we take.
So my dear grandson, Happy Birthday, it is PARTY time with you & all the Angels & family in heaven.
I know you remember this song but it is so YOU, "on the day that you were born the Angels got together & decided to make a dream come true" so they made you...
Today we will all be together to celebrate your birthday, I know you loved it when the family was together & yes lasagna is made for you.
1-4-3
Grandma
P.S. Oh I wanted to "thank you" for being with Joshua yesterday, you know you were the 3point king of basketball.  He made one, when I told him that he made a 3 point like you his response was, "Nicholas would make it from the corner" but he still made a 3 pointer.  Good going Nicholas, nice touch for your cousin. We thanked you for that!    

Happy Birthday, Baby!!!  I am sure Grandma will be texting very soon after me...we apparently text so close together.  I can't believe you would have been 18 on Sunday (2/21/16).  I remember you being born like yesterday.  You (or maybe Mommy) "delayed" your birth.  I kept taking these nice hot showers, and I think I delayed you arriving.  Finally you came...Daddy, Sandy, Grandma and PopPop - we were all there.  God how I miss you!!!  I know you will have a beautiful birthday in Heaven with so many people with you...I will see you soon, my sweet baby boy!!!  Remember, Mommy loves you specially, God loves you always!!!

It's snowing, Nicholas.  As soon as I heard we were getting snow I thought of you.  You would always anticpate the snow coming.  You were such a good boy and would shovel the driveway and June's house.  Then you would go off and "make your money".  You would never charge too much for your "regulars" - they waited for you.  You would come home with "lots of money" in your beautiful eyes - but always took care of your regulars - miss you today - every day!!! 

Today I thought after my prayers, that I have shed a tear for you every single day since you left me.  I know I always will - you left me too soon...wish I never went away that weekend - I will regret it always - you would still be here.  God had other plan for you, my sweet.  Mommy loves you always!!!

Hi Nicholas,
I realize you & Julia had been playing basketball for many years, Joshua truly just started.  You would be so proud of him.  You know how you always got a 3 point basket, you got one.  Yes he got one, just like you.  What I loved the most in watching you play basketball was the determination on your face during the game.  Your sister has that same look when she plays.  You are just focused on the game & it showed.  
I also know that you are with your sister & your cousins as I have said so many times, you were their protector.  
You are loved & missed Nicholas so very much...
1-4-3
grandma 
 

Dear Nicholas,  Never a day goes by without you being in my thoughts & prayers, yet this past week the feelings were so strong.  In speaking with your mom she mentioned she had & Doug had the same feelings.  Not sure why, I thought it could have been due to my grilfriend becoming a grandma & her grandson's name is Nicholas.  All the memories came back to the day you were born.  In speaking with her, all I thoguht about was you.  The day you entered the world what an honor to be there to watch you arrive.  When the doctor held you up in celebration of your birth, you then urinated right across the room.  We all knew right then that we were in for a ride.  Unfortunately, the ride was only for 14 years, but in those 14 years I have jam pack memories.  Your first taste of "real" food, you loved it, loved it, just loved it.  There was no stopping you from that, your first time in the pool, which of course you had to be the first one in the pool every year. The way we would sit toghether on the recliner & watch a show.  Yet when it was dnacing with stars, I covered your eyes as I didn't want you to see some of their dancing.  Your eyes were precious, & I wanted nothing to spoil them.  Oh what beautiful eyes you had, when you laughed their just glowed, & of course the way you hugged.  You were the best hugger EVER!.  But my fondest memoires of you my dear grandson, is the way you took care of Julia & Joshua.  You were their protectior, you watched over them & made sure nothing would happen to them.  Putting them to sleep you would take Joshua & I would take Julia, I remember you telling me "its okay grandma, I got him,"  You were the same with Alyssa when she was born, I have a beautiful picture of you holding her, Nicholas the look in your eyes & on your face were "priceless" you just had a special spot for young children.  I know God has you incharge of them in heaven, I Just know it.
Nicholas you are loved & missed so much...so please continue to make us all feel your presence as it does give us some peace.
1-4-3  
grandma  

Happy Thanksgiving, Baby Boy!!!  Miss you on one of your favorite Holidays - please continue to watch over all of us - Love you so very much Nicholas!!!

Oh, my NIcholas...Julia is in for a big trick....I am planning on you visiting her in her "dreams" - as Julia calls it...Big surgery for her hip...she has her picture of you, me and her at Daddy's wedding - she loves that photo...I know you are with Julia all the time...please visit her in her "dreams" on Monday...Miss you my baby - praying to you always!!! 

Love Mommy
   

Dear  Nicholas, 
I had to write this down for you, last night Joshua, Alyssa & I went to chuck e cheese, Julia had a ton of school work so she couldn't attend.  What I remember most about  this place is when Joshua was about 3 or 4 yrs old.  You were his "protector, always was a matter of fact.  Anyway when the mouse came out & the little ones dance away he would then throw loose tickets for the children to gather.  Now this becomes a free for all, children & tickets all over.  Poor Joshua that day he was just not quick enough, now you step in, you were on the floor in a second & you gathered up tickets for him.  You became his "hero" that day.  Well last night as I was watching Alyssa gathering up the tickets I was thinking so much about you & how much you enjoyed it there. We had a lot of fond memeories there.   As you got older you would sit at the rifle game & stay there all day, Joshua now sits at the basketball game all day.  I kept calling him Nicholas last night, so I knew you were with us. Thank you Nicholas for always being there for your sister & cousins & of course for our talks.  I do miss that, any time, any day you & we would chat.
I miss you Nicholas but I know you know that. 
You are loved & missed very much.
1-4-3
grandma

I can't believe it's been 3 years, Nicholas, since you went to Heaven.  Mommy misses you so very much.  It is so true when people say there is nothing like losing a SON.  My boy!  You were the best son for the short time Mommy had you.  Such a loss for so many. 


Thoughts and prayers are with you everyday, but especially today!  Thewords I speak to you every day - Mommy love you so much, so much, so much.  I miss you so much, so much, so much..... 

My dear Nicholas,
With your 3rd anniversary fast approaching, I have had so many memories coming & going in my mind.  People say that with time the pain of losing someone you love will get better, well my dear it does not.  I believe you just learn to cope with it & get through the day.  My coping with this pain is the many memories I have of you.  I am so grateful that I was given the privilege to be with you since you were born.
I remember when I gave you your first meat ball, how it was  all over your face. How much you loved it, as a matter of fact you wrote about it & I have it hanging on my wall.  When you tasted mashed potatoes for the first time.  I just put a dab of it on your high chair tray & did you enjoy that as well, all over your little face & in your little hands.  One of my fondest memories is when Julia, Joshua & you would spend the weekend with me.  Julia was a wonderful sleeper but I have to say both you & Joshua were not.  So I would put you all in the car & play the Angel tape & off we go driving the neighborhood.  Of course your sister was the first one to go to sleep, then Joshua, once home you told me, "Grandma I got it, you take Julia upstairs & I will take Joshua" you were always there for both of them, you were my "big" little man.  Thinking back on those times, you fed, changed & watch Joshua.  I have so many pictures of you holding him, giving him a bottle & watching out for Julia.  In the snow, in the pool where ever they were you were,  but then that is what familys are for, to be there for each other.  In going back to when you were about 2 yrs old you & I would sit by the window waiting for Auntie Neen to come home from work.  Once we saw her car I would take you into the kitchen to wait for her.  As soon as you saw her (I am laughin just thinking about it) you flew into her arms.  Nicholas your little feet never hit the ground.  
I could go on & on but I will end it here.  Thank you my dear Nicholas for so many happy memories we have had together.  I know you are with ALL of us, I know it & feel it.
You are loved & missed more than you will ever know.
1-4-3
Grandma 
 

Just a story that Julia thought of today 6/19/15...she said to Mommy- remember when Nicky died today...NIcholas I had to think about that one...then I remembered...when you flew over your handle bars in Conneticut at Opas house - yes, you died in the emergency room for several moments....then you were in a coma for 2 1/2 days - yes...my sweet baby....always had Mommy on the edge...God brought you back for His own reasons...How I miss you so...Julia has been thinkin' about you so very much!!! 

So proud of your sister, Nicholas...She made her Confirmation...Everyone was there, including you!!!  Doug and I had our moment in church - thinking of you....your Aunt Janine was there for Julia - she is such a great Aunt for Julia...Julia Gianna Guasco...That is what her name was for Confirmation....I missed you so that day...Doug, Julia and I went and visited you before Julia's mass.  Grandma did her "cooking" - how she loves to do that!!  That was her special gift to you and Julia.  Please be with Julia as I know you always are.  Daddy is struggling so with so many things - help Julia and Daddy make the right decisions for them...be with them and give them peace...love you so much my sweet baby boy!!!

Hi my dear,
I could not think of a "story title" as I wanted to jot down so many little memories of you.  For starters you & grandpa's lawn mower.  We are having some issues with ours at the moment but in thinking back your mom & I were talking about the times when you were a little one & how you would ride with grandpa on the lawn mower.  Of course you fell asleep on his shoulder while he went round & round.  As you got a little older & did not need to be held you would run behind the mower  with your sister & Joshua closely following.  Nicholas when you got to be a "big" boy , grandpa gave you the highest  honor ever, the thrill to drive the mower all by yourself.  Now it is grandpa running after the mower, funny how the tables turned.  You were in charge of the front & side yard, grandpa did the hills.  You looked like a warrior sitting & driving.  What a beautiful sight that was.
On another note, I have been talking about you so much with Julia's confirmation fast approaching.  How much you "hated" the thought of going to CCD.  As you know Julia will be making hers in about 3 weeks & you are right there up close with all of us.  I remember how proud you were on that day.  Your face had a shinning glow, you could not hide the joy you were experiencing, or maybe it was due to the fact that you were done with CCD. HA! I know it was all an act, because Nicholas I know you loved learning about your faith, you enjoy attending mass with me, you were just you.  Watching you walk down that aisle with Uncle John & his hand pressed a bit to hard on your shoulder is a picture that I will always remember, you both had the same expression, the same glow as if to say.  "Look I did it, I am so Proud" & you were & so were we all.
Now it is Julia's turn & I know you will be sitting with her & walking down that aisle with her as well.  Just remember we will all be there watching & yes, I will be crying... 
You are loved & miss so much Nicholas...
1-4-3
grandma    

I  love this picture of you and me, my sweet baby!!!  We were in Cape Cod in the ocean.  You loved the water - anything to do with the sea......Happy Mother's Day to Me - I love both of my babies - Nicholas and Julia - forever in my heart!!!

I  love this picture of you and me, my sweet baby!!!  We were in Cape Cod in the ocean.  You loved the water - anything to do with the sea......Happy Mother's Day to Me - I love both of my babies - Nicholas and Julia - forever in my heart!!!

Nicholas, Mommy had a dream last night that I wanted to write it down...I dreamed that I had a problem with my heart, and passed away briefly.  Guess it was briefly, because I ran into Grandpa (Grandma's daddy).  What I remember is that he was standing in front of me and he said "Hi, Pat, how are you"....he was one of the few people that called me Pat...anyway...I kept trying to look around him standing in front of me...He was kinda blocking my way...I got a bit frustrated, and he must have seen that, and he said to me..."sorry, if I let you see him you won't want to leave"..it's not time yet...and that was it.....I woke up and was crying a bit because I missed you and wanted to hold you...took a while for me to go back to sleep...gosh I miss you boo!!!

Hi my dear,

Happy Birthday to you, dear Nicholas!  17!

I can remember the day you were born as if it was yesterday, Grandpa & I were waiting since the very early morning, I walked all over the hospital waiting for your arrival, I remember telling anyone who would listen that my grandson was about to be born.  Of course your mom was doing all the work, but I was doing all the talking.  Then you came, the moment that will be forever burned in my soul, you were there, you were amazing, just beautiful, my grandson, my little Nicholas.  There are no words to describe the feeling I got when I first saw you, held you & of course just breath in your baby scent.  No words to describe the overwhemling urge to never put your down.  The greatest gift is a gift of a child.  Pictures were taken of every move every moment of your life.  You were a beautiful happy baby & now you are our beautiful happy Angel watching over all of us & you know exactly when you are needed, exactly when we are missing you so much, you show us your compassion, your helping hand.  Your hugs that only you can give.  You were the best hugger!  So Nicholas you filled my life with so many memories, I can fill volumnes, you were loved from the moment of conception that will never stop.
1-4-3 
Grandma & Grandpa 

I miss you so very much my sweet boy!  I can't believe you would have been 17 this month/year.  Driving!!!  I know you are driving your favorite Camaro in Heaven.  Julia misses you so much this year.  I think she feels your loss as the years go by and she get a bit older. 

Mommy love you so very much, Nicholas - as I say every morning, and every night...I love you so much, so much, so much...and I miss you so much, so much, so much.


Happy Birthday, baby!!!    

Dear Nicholas,
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
You are amazing do you know that.  I just wrote to you and ask if you would let us know you are with us.  My God Nicholas, you are quick.  Let me begin, I wrote about the dream I had about you, well your "auntie" Neen out did herself again this year.  She gave everyone a beautiful picture of you done on a canvas.  The picture she had made for your dad was the picture I had of you in my dream.  I had the chills, wait there is still more.  Julia received a picture & beautiful poem of how you will take care of her and how you "are always watching her" which you did, you were the very protective BIG brother & cousin.  Speaking of cousin, she had the picture of you & Joshua together, you had your very protective arm around him, once again, as you always had.  The one your mom got was just gorgeous, it was similar to the picture with you making a heart above your head. 
She made one up for Uncle John, your partner in crime, Doug was so funny he was telling us the story of when you made confirmation, how when you both were walking down the aisle you looked like two bowl heads, you both had the same head & from the back you blended into each other.  So it was only fitting that the picture of you was when you caught the fish night fishing with your uncle.  How proud you were of that fish, and how Uncle John said he taught you well as he caught nothing.  I know you know the reaction that was made once he received that picture, he was a bit "upset"  you were not only his nephew but his best friend. Okay Nicholas you were not done with us on this Christmas Eve,  this is the best, your mom gave Joshua a container of beads that held 11000 beads the container was sealed, the color reddish/orange.  In the sealed container was one GREEN bead.  Your favorite color.  TELL ME YOU WERE NOT WITH US LAST NIGHT!  I beleive it, I know, & I thank you for it.  As I have been saying, you may not be here in body, but Nicholas, you are always with us, in mind & soul.
Merry Blessed Christmas my dear grandson, I hope you enjoy your meal.  You are loved & miss more than you will ever know.
1-4-3  grandma 
    
   

Dear Nicholas,
Merry Blessed Christmas to you my dear grandson.  I know you are spending it with Jesus and all the Angels.  I have been thinking so much about you as I cooked for Christmas Eve.  Grandpa & I were talking about how much you simply just loved  food.  You enjoyed the holidays so much, well you enjoyed ALL the FOOD so much. HA!  At Thanksgiving we were talking about how much you loved that holdiay as well, but what it comes down to, you just like to eat.  God Blessed you with a wonderful taste for food.  You know on Christmas Day I will bring you a sample of everything I made.  I know people think I am over the edge over that, but you know Nicholas it just feels right.  I have so many wonderful memories of you that no matter where I turn or what I do I can find you in it.  Last night I had a beautiful dream about you,  you were so handsome.  You were standing against the wall, waiting for me to take you home from CCD.  You had a white top on & your little cheeks had some nice sun color in it, you were just standing there, I wanted to reach over to give you a HUGE HUG but I could not I couldn't get there.  You looked happy and so handsome. 
I don't have to tell you that everyone has a HUGE VOID in their heart since your passing, you were loved so much Nicholas!
So Merry Blessed Christmas, & you know you can visit any one of us whenever you want.  In a beautiful sunset or sunrise, a cardinal or simply a gently breeze, we will know it is you. 
Your Christmas lasagna has been made its new name is Nicholas' lasagna. I can still remember when you asked me to serve it on the Eve, God you were so cute with those beautiful eyes, you knew I was putty in your hands, & you knew I would say yes & to break tradition about no meat, when it came to your lasagna you GOT IT.  Love & miss you sooooooooo much!
1-4-3 Grandma    

Nicholas recently we went to the Land of Make Believe.  I cannot tell you how many memories it brought back to me about you.  All of us, Auntie Neen, Joshua, Alyssa, Julia & I went to spend the day there.  I was telling them about the first time we went.  Your mom was expecting Julia & you & I were a team when we went on the lazy river.  There I was holding you for dear life & you were laughing & laughing.  thinking it was the best.  Gosh Nicholas you were all of 2 yrs old & we should have known you were fearless, you just couldn't wait to get in that water.  We went back a few times after  Julia was born, so you see Nicholas that one place was all about you.  Every time I saw a little one holding on to their grandma I pictured you holding my finger as you "waded" in the pool.  You truly loved it there, of course as you got older you wanted the rides.  The very excitable rides.  We all recently went to Hershey's park, & though I have no memories of you there I do know you were there.  Joshua has that thrill for rollar coasters as you had, only he is a BIT more subdued.  While looking at the roller coasters & seeing the REALLY HIGH ONES, you know the ones that go upside down & flip you every way it can, the three of us said at the same time. "THAT'S NICHOLAS"  so thank you for being with us that day & for watching out for your sister & cousins.  I know you were there, you were in every ride Julia & Joshua were on. As I write down these precious memories, it does bring a smile to my lips, you were a child you truly enjoyed himself & I love when I can go back to these precious memories as I see & feel you, you may be gone in body my dear Nicholas but your spirit is always here.  You are loved & truly missed.
1-4-3 grandma