My Dad wasn't around much when I was growing up and I had a hard time forgiving him for that. I think he knew that also. I should've forgave him when 
I had the chance because Jesus wants us to forgive everyone no matter what they have done. Jesus says if you can't forgive then he won't forgive you for your sins. I let go of the anger in the end when I knew my Dad was going to pass away.I decided to forgive him when I was out of time and it was to late. I said some really mean and hurtful things to my Dad because I couldn't let go of that anger. The other reason I said those terrible things is because I wanted him to feel the pain I want through. I feel really horrible for what I said because it wasn't true. I was just really angery at the time.Now that he is in heaven it has made me realize life is to short to hold on to the past. Even though you think you can't forgive you have to find it in your heart to forgive the ones that mean the most to you because God lent them to you and Gods going to want them back someday and that someday will be to late. My Dad was a good hearted man.He would've done anything for his family. He loved to be the life of the party. He loved to be a comedian also. He loved Cheech and Chong. He could talk just like them. Some of the funny stuff he did and said would have me laughing for days. I wish I knew how sick he really was and could of made him do something about it but, he tried to hide it from us kids because he didn't want us to worry about him. He decided it was his time. He was tired of going through all the pain and suffering. He could've taken his medicine and got better but, he wanted to live his life his way because my Dad was stubborn. I supported his decision on the way he wanted to live out the time he had left. I just wish I had more time with him. I love you & miss you Dad.