July 5, 2023
July 5, 2023
love and miss you "P" xoxo
“This body is not me; I am not caught in this body, I am life without boundaries, I have never been born and I have never died. Over there the wide ocean and the sky with many galaxies All manifests from the basis of consciousness. Since beginningless time I have always been free. Birth and death are only a door through which we go in and out. Birth and death are only a game of hide-and-seek. So smile to me and take my hand and wave good-bye. Tomorrow we shall meet again or even before. We shall always be meeting again at the true source, Always meeting again on the myriad paths of life.”
― Thích Nhất Hạnh, No Death, No Fear
Hit the Sound button at the top for music. This memorial website was created in memory of our loved one, Paula. We will remember her forever.
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June 30, 2023
June 30, 2023
8 is a lucky number. Wondering what you are experiencing and miss sharing stories with you. Send me some input I’ll be open.
Always appreciated your insights & the way you listened & understood me. Love you always ❤️
Always appreciated your insights & the way you listened & understood me. Love you always ❤️
June 30, 2023
June 30, 2023
These past 8 years have passed in a flash. I often look at pictures of you and I can hear you voice so clearly sometimes! Whenever I do something well and exclaim "I'm a genius" - a line I stole from you - I have to say it with the same intonation that you always used! It makes me smile! Thanks for all the positive memories. Love you
Misha (aka Michele)
Misha (aka Michele)
June 29, 2023
June 29, 2023
I'm sitting in a hotel in Istanbul thinking about Paula and I sharing an adventure in Bra, Italy attending a Slow Food 400 Vendor Cheese Festival. Only Paula could find these foodie events and motivate me to have an adventure. Miss you so much!
June 29, 2023
June 29, 2023
Will always remember you for your insightful views and approach to life
I share Kathleen name it is a lasting connection
I share Kathleen name it is a lasting connection
June 29, 2023
June 29, 2023
Dearest Paula,
I couldn't write yesterday. Even though it's 8 years, it sometimes feels raw, like this all happened yesterday. Of course, that is a testament to the amazing friend that you were. Had a tough few months this year. But you were there, crying with us, guiding us. Your wisdom was way beyond the few years, you were given on this Earth. Missing you and cherishing your memory.
I couldn't write yesterday. Even though it's 8 years, it sometimes feels raw, like this all happened yesterday. Of course, that is a testament to the amazing friend that you were. Had a tough few months this year. But you were there, crying with us, guiding us. Your wisdom was way beyond the few years, you were given on this Earth. Missing you and cherishing your memory.
June 28, 2023
June 28, 2023
My candle is lit for you, wherever you are, 8 years, and I will always miss you. Made my first sourdough starter and baked a loaf of bread (not a breadmaker), but I thought of you. XXX
June 28, 2023
June 28, 2023
Paula, even though we never met, I am a beloved friend of your sister Kathleen. I therefore feel a strong connection to you over these last 8 years of your passing. Help guide us all on our journey with the promise to meet again. RIP
June 30, 2022
June 30, 2022
We will never forget you and will love you always, little sister.
Note: Please check out "Gallery" as I couldn't post a photo and narrative on Tributes.
Note: Please check out "Gallery" as I couldn't post a photo and narrative on Tributes.
June 30, 2022
June 30, 2022
I look at photos of you often as I have a gallery of shots on my phone for special people and events that have made an impact in my life! But you already know the impact you had on Bud and me.
I was thinking about the last time I saw you when I stayed for a few days in that Bangkok apartment whilst you were having treatment. It was a tough time but I am so happy to have spent those days with you talking about 'life, the universe and everything! Damn it - we both miss you so much. Misha
I was thinking about the last time I saw you when I stayed for a few days in that Bangkok apartment whilst you were having treatment. It was a tough time but I am so happy to have spent those days with you talking about 'life, the universe and everything! Damn it - we both miss you so much. Misha
June 28, 2022
June 28, 2022
Can't believe it's 7 years since you left us.
Thank you for keeping a watchful eye over us.
Have a drink with my mum up there xxx
Thank you for keeping a watchful eye over us.
Have a drink with my mum up there xxx
June 28, 2022
June 28, 2022
Hey girl. Miss you. If you are ever near the rainbow bridge can you give Narak a hug from me and today a new angel has joined you - one of the gentlest giants I have ever met - in Phuket too. His name is Jeff- Look out for him- he’s new.
June 28, 2022
June 28, 2022
Hey Paula,
We miss you so much! I always keep your thoughts in my prayers.
We miss you so much! I always keep your thoughts in my prayers.
June 28, 2022
June 28, 2022
Hey Sista,
Have been thinking about you lately. Must be my soul sensing your nearness. Watched a monarch butterfly hatch in our garden ...
Thanks for your presence in our lives. Keep an eye out for us Love you !!
Have been thinking about you lately. Must be my soul sensing your nearness. Watched a monarch butterfly hatch in our garden ...
Thanks for your presence in our lives. Keep an eye out for us Love you !!
July 2, 2021
July 2, 2021
Well my dear,
Your anniversary of passing this year, was especially hard, as we had lost Mum. I just couldn't write anything for a while.
You both got on so beautifully in life, so I know she is up there with you!
Life is throwing a lot of challenges at the moment and I wish you were here to give out some of your wise advice.
Looking out for some of your signs.
Miss you xx
Your anniversary of passing this year, was especially hard, as we had lost Mum. I just couldn't write anything for a while.
You both got on so beautifully in life, so I know she is up there with you!
Life is throwing a lot of challenges at the moment and I wish you were here to give out some of your wise advice.
Looking out for some of your signs.
Miss you xx
June 28, 2021
June 28, 2021
Hey Mizz Paula, Just wanted to say, thinking of you today - 6/28/2021
April 5, 2021
April 5, 2021
Well my dear- another year, wow! Can only imagine what you would make of it all. But I had a lovely moment on your birthday when my neighbour made me a belated birthday cake as we were allowed two families in one garden for the first time in a long while- so my neighbour n I doubled up and had two families over each- set up a bar and barbecued over the fence for a belated celebration- and she made a carrot cake! On your birthday for my birthday- felt your presence n Input there. Thanks angel hope you are flying free and causing mischief! Btw- I cooked roast lamb on Easter Sunday and thankfully no one put salad dressing on their dinner
April 4, 2021
April 4, 2021
Another year has passed and you would have turned 57. I guess I'm glad you didn't have to suffer through the Covid-19 pandemic, shelter in place for over a year, and on the positive side the relief of getting vaccinated and a new president. Whenever I have a memory of you I have to smile and declare how sweet (sometimes) and beautiful you were in heart and body. Where ever you are now your family and friends are thinking of you and we will never forget your memory. (I posted some new photos)
August 11, 2020
August 11, 2020
Was given sourdough starter so went to find your muffin recipe. I always remember those muffins . I brought them back in my
luggage on return to Cape Town. Never did get them to succeed but prepared to try again. Thanks to you for the cookbook
luggage on return to Cape Town. Never did get them to succeed but prepared to try again. Thanks to you for the cookbook
August 7, 2020
August 7, 2020
dear paula,
i had really been missing you and didn't know what to write.
then i read all the wonderful stories and the many different ways
that you touched people. you were such a bright light and that is
something to celebrate. we all got to spend time with you, learn
from you, even get teased by you & that is a precious gift.
love you friend!! xoxo
i had really been missing you and didn't know what to write.
then i read all the wonderful stories and the many different ways
that you touched people. you were such a bright light and that is
something to celebrate. we all got to spend time with you, learn
from you, even get teased by you & that is a precious gift.
love you friend!! xoxo
July 7, 2020
July 7, 2020
Miss Aries ♈️ your creativity & Ambition dominates your personality.. best match for Aries..Aquarius= US. You are forever etched in my heart and memory. When I listen to Kenny Loggins, I remember the music room, long talks, the fish tanks and the Yorkies. Send me a new song...let’s have a glass of wine together and unravel the world. Let’s time travel back to Valley High and dream together like we use to. Let’s take the VW to the beach and let our hair fly in the wind. Freedom & empowerment
dedicating a song to you
Bob Seger
“ Roll me away”
dedicating a song to you
Bob Seger
“ Roll me away”
June 30, 2020
June 30, 2020
Wow, 5 years missed...
Wish I could see your smile and sardonic wit :-) Miss you more than you could know, but life goes on...
Send me your smile and good wishes... hope that you are learning lots of new things in your new world. Send me a sign I'll be looking for it ;-0
Wish I could see your smile and sardonic wit :-) Miss you more than you could know, but life goes on...
Send me your smile and good wishes... hope that you are learning lots of new things in your new world. Send me a sign I'll be looking for it ;-0
June 29, 2020
June 29, 2020
Dear Paula, are you walking the Camino or the Great Ocean Walk? I was always in awe of your athletic skills that I could never accomplish. However, I did the very shortened Camino walk, 62 miles, from Sarria to Santiago de Campostela, in your honor, and sprinkled your ashes in a beautiful, little river before entering Santiago. You are free now, without a care in the world, and without pain or sickness. I miss you and send my love wherever you are through time and space.
June 29, 2020
June 29, 2020
Well it's Bud's (ie Andy's, aka stud muffin's) birthday here in New Zealand - the 29th of June. Although it's the day after you passed away in the US some 5 years ago, with the time differences around the world, it works out to be the 29th here - and so we can never forget you - just the way you would have wanted it!
Thank goodness you don't have to be in the middle of this crazy world right now. We are hugely fortunate to live in New Zealand where we have eliminated the virus in this global pandemic although the flood of returning Kiwis daily, many with the virus, are being kept at the border in quarantine hotels but still pose a threat as the system isn't perfect. However not many other countries have this pandemic under control and no one would want to be in a hospital currently (esp the US, UK etc). You were here for the good stuff - and that's great. You left the global party perhaps a tad too early but at least you didn't stay until things deteriorated. Your timing was always pretty good - you were always a little ahead of the curve!
Miss you - a lot! Have tears in my eyes writing this just thinking about you. Damn you girl - how did you get under my skin so much. You were belligerent, way too independent, stubborn...shall I go on? But you were also the most fiercely loyal and caring person I knew. You connected with people at a level that few do.
Hugs, hugs and more hugs - and cuddles from the doggies too ...and of course also from stud muffin.
Love you
Michele/Misha/Bitch....and whatever else you called me!
Thank goodness you don't have to be in the middle of this crazy world right now. We are hugely fortunate to live in New Zealand where we have eliminated the virus in this global pandemic although the flood of returning Kiwis daily, many with the virus, are being kept at the border in quarantine hotels but still pose a threat as the system isn't perfect. However not many other countries have this pandemic under control and no one would want to be in a hospital currently (esp the US, UK etc). You were here for the good stuff - and that's great. You left the global party perhaps a tad too early but at least you didn't stay until things deteriorated. Your timing was always pretty good - you were always a little ahead of the curve!
Miss you - a lot! Have tears in my eyes writing this just thinking about you. Damn you girl - how did you get under my skin so much. You were belligerent, way too independent, stubborn...shall I go on? But you were also the most fiercely loyal and caring person I knew. You connected with people at a level that few do.
Hugs, hugs and more hugs - and cuddles from the doggies too ...and of course also from stud muffin.
Love you
Michele/Misha/Bitch....and whatever else you called me!
June 29, 2020
June 29, 2020
Missed every day my friend. Xo
June 28, 2020
June 28, 2020
Forever missed. ❤️
June 28, 2020
June 28, 2020
Wow, 5 years! And I now have a 5 year old! She is strong, independent, funny and caring- and very wilful- just like her auntie Paula. We talk about you often and Esme loves her cashmere cuddly rabbit hand delivered by Mary with love. I wonder what you would have to say about about the state of things in the world right now. What I would do for one of ‘those’ chats right now! Forever loved and missed my friend. Teddy. Xx Ps Narak- that dare you challenged me with and talked me into after a few glasses of champagne at the White Party - is now 15 years old- good job my friend x
June 28, 2020
June 28, 2020
Today is Sunday, 5 yrs to the day.
I hope you're figuring things out without a body, since flesh and 'what-all' just gets in the way.
And you know, it was never supposed to happen this way, you were not supposed to go first.
But, I still miss you. XXX
I hope you're figuring things out without a body, since flesh and 'what-all' just gets in the way.
And you know, it was never supposed to happen this way, you were not supposed to go first.
But, I still miss you. XXX
June 28, 2020
June 28, 2020
Paula, Thinking of you today.
June 28, 2020
June 28, 2020
I did not know you but I feel that I do because of your sister Kathleen. You are missed Paula by all those who knew and loved you. RIP
April 6, 2020
April 6, 2020
Living in difficult times we are aware of those who no longer share our space. You are one who is missed. Peace and love be yours
April 5, 2020
April 5, 2020
No a day goes by you are not missed. It’s like you are still here but we haven’t caught up in a while. Forever loved. Forever Missed.
April 3, 2020
April 3, 2020
Happy BD Sista!
Well, what a state we are all in... Hope you are raining down positive energy to all of us on this earth plane. It's a time of growth and I hope that all of us are growing deep spiritual ties and are strengthening ourselves for the change that is surrounding us. I believe that this shifts us towards positive moves as we create a better world around us !!
I hope that your BD is a peaceful one and know that you are sending us your blessings from above. Miss you and all my love !!
Well, what a state we are all in... Hope you are raining down positive energy to all of us on this earth plane. It's a time of growth and I hope that all of us are growing deep spiritual ties and are strengthening ourselves for the change that is surrounding us. I believe that this shifts us towards positive moves as we create a better world around us !!
I hope that your BD is a peaceful one and know that you are sending us your blessings from above. Miss you and all my love !!
July 30, 2019
July 30, 2019
Hey Paula,
Leaving for Spain today. Going to walk part of the El Camino Trail. Something we'd talked about doing. Look forward to sharing it with you in spirit.
Miss you, my friend,
Lori
Leaving for Spain today. Going to walk part of the El Camino Trail. Something we'd talked about doing. Look forward to sharing it with you in spirit.
Miss you, my friend,
Lori
July 3, 2019
July 3, 2019
Another year without our dear Paula.
Kids still talk about you and we have created so many beautiful dinner parties with your favourite roasting pan ... smile!
Miss your laugh, strength, friendship and wise words.
We know you are shining down on us all and are at peace.
❤️
Kids still talk about you and we have created so many beautiful dinner parties with your favourite roasting pan ... smile!
Miss your laugh, strength, friendship and wise words.
We know you are shining down on us all and are at peace.
❤️
July 1, 2019
July 1, 2019
Hey P:
Well, my love & thoughts are being sent your way. Wondering what you are up to, would love to see a sign from you. I'm sure that you are exploring and discovering and setting new horizons, as is your wont...
Miss you tons and will be looking for your signs !!
All my love
T
Well, my love & thoughts are being sent your way. Wondering what you are up to, would love to see a sign from you. I'm sure that you are exploring and discovering and setting new horizons, as is your wont...
Miss you tons and will be looking for your signs !!
All my love
T
June 29, 2019
June 29, 2019
dear paula,
i miss your sarcasm, your teasing,your wit,your wisdom, and most of all your friendship. i really hope we meet up again someday. we all miss you terribly.
i miss your sarcasm, your teasing,your wit,your wisdom, and most of all your friendship. i really hope we meet up again someday. we all miss you terribly.
June 29, 2019
June 29, 2019
Remembering your ready smile, great interest in so many things and your gentle approach to life
June 28, 2019
June 28, 2019
Never forgotten, forever missed my friend.
June 28, 2019
June 28, 2019
Someone asked me when you died. I admit I had forgotten the year and not the date. I brought you home from Bangkok to be with your beloved family with the kind help of your friends to numerous to be mentioned. We all move on when someone we loved has entered another realm. What will never be erased are the memories, happy times visiting Phuket, eating at posh restaurants, long distance Skype calls, and shopping for matching costume jewelry. Miss you and think about you, my baby sister. You will forever be in my heart and mind.
October 9, 2018
October 9, 2018
I just heard through the network - it was quite a shock to me to see this!
Knew her from my early days at Dell in Penang. A few things I remembered well of her - one, she was frequently craving for 'roti' aka 'roti chanai' and two, she bought my artist/drafting table from me when she moved to Penang. That time she was staying at E Park Condos on the Island, not far from the Dell site in Penang.
Often interacted with her together with many ex-colleagues for pricing, playbook, configs... those were the days.
She'll be missed but not forgotten.
Knew her from my early days at Dell in Penang. A few things I remembered well of her - one, she was frequently craving for 'roti' aka 'roti chanai' and two, she bought my artist/drafting table from me when she moved to Penang. That time she was staying at E Park Condos on the Island, not far from the Dell site in Penang.
Often interacted with her together with many ex-colleagues for pricing, playbook, configs... those were the days.
She'll be missed but not forgotten.
June 29, 2018
June 29, 2018
Was it three years ago that she left us, yet I can remember her so well. She managed to do so many things, very well. She was, without doubt, a fine and lovely lady, a happy person. She was taken away far too early in life, not her fault surely? But there you go, it happens, I know Unfortunately, I lost my Son the same way. Unhappiness is part of life.
June 29, 2018
June 29, 2018
Well Miss....your gorgeous face and that knowing smile stays vivid in my memory of you. Everytime I think I've done something good in the office I proclaim "I'm a genius" -- an expression you used to use. When I say it I can hear exactly how you said it - and both Andy and I smile and think of you.
The picture on the top of this tribute page was taken at Mt Difficulty winery at Bannockburn, in Central Otago New Zealand! I remember the day well! We miss your visits here in New Zealand - I especially miss the Mexican food when you decided to cook up a storm for us at home! And by the way, you were definitely the best 'picker' we had during that harvest you did with us.
Having just come back from Singapore on a business trip, I thought about you a lot whilst there. We loved having you as the next door neighbour and convincing you to move from Penang to Singapore was the best thing - for me anyway!! :) By the way, apologies for all those times we banged on the wall between our bedrooms in Niven Road, when we were trying to wake you up to come to the gym at some ungodly hour - I know you hated early mornings!!
I don't understand why you aren't around anymore - it's not right. At least you didn't spend your life slaving away at Dell and you were smart enough to take the money and run and leave the corporate world and have a more relaxed life. In Phuket you found a way to tap into your creativity - making artisan bread and running a cafe then I can't believe you decided to become an 'iron woman' - although you always had an iron will! :)
Damn it I miss you girl. Forever my best buddy.
Love you
Michele (aka Misha)
The picture on the top of this tribute page was taken at Mt Difficulty winery at Bannockburn, in Central Otago New Zealand! I remember the day well! We miss your visits here in New Zealand - I especially miss the Mexican food when you decided to cook up a storm for us at home! And by the way, you were definitely the best 'picker' we had during that harvest you did with us.
Having just come back from Singapore on a business trip, I thought about you a lot whilst there. We loved having you as the next door neighbour and convincing you to move from Penang to Singapore was the best thing - for me anyway!! :) By the way, apologies for all those times we banged on the wall between our bedrooms in Niven Road, when we were trying to wake you up to come to the gym at some ungodly hour - I know you hated early mornings!!
I don't understand why you aren't around anymore - it's not right. At least you didn't spend your life slaving away at Dell and you were smart enough to take the money and run and leave the corporate world and have a more relaxed life. In Phuket you found a way to tap into your creativity - making artisan bread and running a cafe then I can't believe you decided to become an 'iron woman' - although you always had an iron will! :)
Damn it I miss you girl. Forever my best buddy.
Love you
Michele (aka Misha)
June 29, 2018
June 29, 2018
Dear P
What a legacy to be remembered & loved by such dear friends & family! You had a life well lived :-)
In my heart I released your body 3 years ago (has it been that long?) and I feel your presence all the time - Smiling at us all :)) - I miss our talks ...
Love you tons !! T
What a legacy to be remembered & loved by such dear friends & family! You had a life well lived :-)
In my heart I released your body 3 years ago (has it been that long?) and I feel your presence all the time - Smiling at us all :)) - I miss our talks ...
Love you tons !! T
June 29, 2018
June 29, 2018
Forever missed never forgotten. Your spirit lives in my soul, your counsel in my head, your love in my heart and your absence in the missing piece of my day.
June 28, 2018
June 28, 2018
Has it been 3 years? We are here and you are gone from this earth but never from our hearts, minds, and souls. I am going to walk the Camino de Santiago with my stepdaughter in September 2018 to fulfill a dream/vow that we talked about and planned with Paula, Larry, and I to do this trip together. Of course, Paula and Larry wanted to do the 500 miles! I will attempt the minimum of 62 miles. I will proudly carry Paula, Larry, and my mom's ashes with me and will commemorate their wishes. Love you, Paula.
June 28, 2018
June 28, 2018
So many times still go by when I wish I could just reach for the phone and catch up. So much has happened hat you would have been a part of.
We still feel you when a butterfly flutters past but still our heart aches. We miss you sweet heart. Xxx
We still feel you when a butterfly flutters past but still our heart aches. We miss you sweet heart. Xxx
June 29, 2017
June 29, 2017
Did you have to go so soon? It seems like yesterday you were here and today you're not. K
June 28, 2017
June 28, 2017
Paula, we had such fun. We didn't have enough time. I miss your laugh.
Thinking about you today and everyday. ❤️BS
Thinking about you today and everyday. ❤️BS
June 28, 2017
June 28, 2017
Hey girl. What's up? I miss you. I think about you lots.So many things make me think of you. Every time in the office I proclaim "I'm a genius" I think about you - you taught me that expression...well rather I stole that from you...you know if the cap fits etc. In fact the way I say it is the way you used to say it - it makes me smile. It's the small things that I remember about you that make me smile.
We still talk about that time we lived next door to each other in Singapore and Bud would bang on the wall of our house - in fact the wall of our bedroom which adjoined yours) to get you out of bed and go to the gym with us at 6.30am. I would look at you in the car on the way there and you would glare at me (you're not a morning person) and if I went to say something you'd just hold you hand in front of me as if to say "don't you dare speak". You were a princess alright!
I miss your food - great Mexican food although you never learned to cook the right amount - you always cooked for hoardes!
But most of all I miss our chats. Never had anyone that I could bare my soul with like you. We had real conversations about life. I hope you can hear the conversations I have in my head these days!
Love you lots
M
We still talk about that time we lived next door to each other in Singapore and Bud would bang on the wall of our house - in fact the wall of our bedroom which adjoined yours) to get you out of bed and go to the gym with us at 6.30am. I would look at you in the car on the way there and you would glare at me (you're not a morning person) and if I went to say something you'd just hold you hand in front of me as if to say "don't you dare speak". You were a princess alright!
I miss your food - great Mexican food although you never learned to cook the right amount - you always cooked for hoardes!
But most of all I miss our chats. Never had anyone that I could bare my soul with like you. We had real conversations about life. I hope you can hear the conversations I have in my head these days!
Love you lots
M
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July 5, 2023
July 5, 2023
love and miss you "P" xoxo
June 30, 2023
June 30, 2023
8 is a lucky number. Wondering what you are experiencing and miss sharing stories with you. Send me some input I’ll be open.
Always appreciated your insights & the way you listened & understood me. Love you always ❤️
Always appreciated your insights & the way you listened & understood me. Love you always ❤️
June 30, 2023
June 30, 2023
These past 8 years have passed in a flash. I often look at pictures of you and I can hear you voice so clearly sometimes! Whenever I do something well and exclaim "I'm a genius" - a line I stole from you - I have to say it with the same intonation that you always used! It makes me smile! Thanks for all the positive memories. Love you
Misha (aka Michele)
Misha (aka Michele)
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The Japanese Cherry I planted in our garden for Paula in the year she died, has at last flowered....
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Those were the days my friend...
September 29, 2020
So many adventures, so many memories
We jumped out of a perfectly good airplane. And I almost died from a tangled chute.
Parasailing 500’ above the boat not strapped in. I still remember the boat captain laughing at us.
Our first 100’ dive off cayman and Feeding the stingrays.
Hanging upside down for a shot of tequila at the giggling marlin (I think Therese did this too)
Riding scooters around koh samui
Being left alone with a 5’ shark diving off Tioman island
Actually standing on the Taj Mahal
Almost crash landing in Calcutta on our way to Darjeeling
Crashing on your futon in Hong Kong after riding the Iron rooster alone.
Those were the days my friend...
We jumped out of a perfectly good airplane. And I almost died from a tangled chute.
Parasailing 500’ above the boat not strapped in. I still remember the boat captain laughing at us.
Our first 100’ dive off cayman and Feeding the stingrays.
Hanging upside down for a shot of tequila at the giggling marlin (I think Therese did this too)
Riding scooters around koh samui
Being left alone with a 5’ shark diving off Tioman island
Actually standing on the Taj Mahal
Almost crash landing in Calcutta on our way to Darjeeling
Crashing on your futon in Hong Kong after riding the Iron rooster alone.
Those were the days my friend...
June 28, 2019
by beth kelley
Ok, I’m not gonna lie.. I’m pissed!! The only reason I got on FB was to find you!! And I saw your page butthought, this can’t be her.. I saw your house in Thailand but no face... shit!! It WAS YOU.. when I went back to friend you, I was a year late. You were gone! I feel you sweet Gypsy Girl, I’ve cried and thought.. ok, she’s gone and that makes me really sad but rummaging through your pictures makes me remember your sarcastic funny way, your soulful energy and wisdom! When we meet again let’s Rule the Kingdom.. blasting 70s tunes eating salami and cheese and drinking troughs of Margaritas!! We didn’t get enough time down here, but your energy is eternal.. I feel your presence!! I just wished we could have 1 more marathon chat session!! We will. GET READY GIRL, I got a lot of questions!! Love you ♥️ Lizzy
June 18, 2015
July 10, 2015
From: Chantal Fernandes <chantal.fernandes@gmail.com>
Subject: My dearest Friend
Date: 18 June 2015 00:49:17 GMT+7
To: Paula Ahtye <p_ahtye@hotmail.com>
To my dearest friend, Paula,
From this hotel bed in Sri Lanka, where do I start ...
Well we started on my husband’s birthday down on Laem Sing Beach.
It was March, 23, 2003, because it was his 30th birthday and you brought him a present. It was such a strange present. So weird, but the next day, it was a taste of heaven.
You baked bread.
That wonderful fresh smell permeated your kitchen, making if feel so comforting, each time we stepped inside.
It was like a haven from all the craziness of work and people and life.
We stepped into your kitchen and were treated to so many wonderful breakfasts, lunches, dinners and sleepovers.
Warmth and laughter, gossiping and crying, chopping and stirring.
Our tradition .. Roast Lamb, creamed spinach and not forgetting those roast potatoes and gravy.
We did it all .. with a quick toke just to keep things mellow.
Remember your mum and my mum and I couldn’t smoke in front of them. Seriously!
Last year, you nursed me back to life ... making me your green shake and we would walk and talk and .. walk and talk ... up and down the hills.
Our trips to the Hotsprings, Phang Nga ... North Sulawsei - diving.
Your invaluable advice about my love, my kids, my work, my life.
Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Year’s.
Every kids birthday, helping out, then laughing with a few glasses of sparkling at the bar counter.
I want to scream and shout and demand that this is NOT FAIR.
But instead, there has to be acceptance and most of all, thanks.
Thanks .. that you stepped into our lives with that loaf of bread.
That you are such an amazing, brave, beautiful woman, an inspiration and most of all .. a wonderful friend.
That you are a part of our family.
My dearest friend, Paula, I miss you so very much.
I love you, more than words can say.
Know that we are always thinking of you and most of all, you are always in our hearts.
Chantal XXxx
Subject: My dearest Friend
Date: 18 June 2015 00:49:17 GMT+7
To: Paula Ahtye <p_ahtye@hotmail.com>
To my dearest friend, Paula,
From this hotel bed in Sri Lanka, where do I start ...
Well we started on my husband’s birthday down on Laem Sing Beach.
It was March, 23, 2003, because it was his 30th birthday and you brought him a present. It was such a strange present. So weird, but the next day, it was a taste of heaven.
You baked bread.
That wonderful fresh smell permeated your kitchen, making if feel so comforting, each time we stepped inside.
It was like a haven from all the craziness of work and people and life.
We stepped into your kitchen and were treated to so many wonderful breakfasts, lunches, dinners and sleepovers.
Warmth and laughter, gossiping and crying, chopping and stirring.
Our tradition .. Roast Lamb, creamed spinach and not forgetting those roast potatoes and gravy.
We did it all .. with a quick toke just to keep things mellow.
Remember your mum and my mum and I couldn’t smoke in front of them. Seriously!
Last year, you nursed me back to life ... making me your green shake and we would walk and talk and .. walk and talk ... up and down the hills.
Our trips to the Hotsprings, Phang Nga ... North Sulawsei - diving.
Your invaluable advice about my love, my kids, my work, my life.
Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Year’s.
Every kids birthday, helping out, then laughing with a few glasses of sparkling at the bar counter.
I want to scream and shout and demand that this is NOT FAIR.
But instead, there has to be acceptance and most of all, thanks.
Thanks .. that you stepped into our lives with that loaf of bread.
That you are such an amazing, brave, beautiful woman, an inspiration and most of all .. a wonderful friend.
That you are a part of our family.
My dearest friend, Paula, I miss you so very much.
I love you, more than words can say.
Know that we are always thinking of you and most of all, you are always in our hearts.
Chantal XXxx