- 49 years old
- Date of birth: Jun 29, 1963
- Date of passing: Oct 23, 2012
|Let the memory of paulie be with us forever|
"Out of the Darkness - walk Oct 22, 2016. It's only taken 4 years to shed some light on the thought of you not here! A work related associate was going to walk for her fiance' David, who took his life at 57 years old. She is now a S.O.S going on three months. I haven't been able to walk, talk , write or sing about Suicide Prevention/Depression or support anyone but our own, until now. Honestly, "who supported who?" on Saturday is unknown, but I did not feel alone and made the best of your upcoming anniversary Oct 23. It was a bright, sunny, windy day... your kind of weather. Colored beads made a difference Saturday! (much more symbol than a good time) I wore orange for sibling, purple for family, Charlie and Aunt Marion and blue for support. I was surprised by so many wearing white, for children. All together, we stood strong, even though all were sad. It does not matter how long its been or will be.....You are missed, loved and thought of by all who knew you, little Paul, Potlicka, Paulie, Paul Vincent, Uncle Paul, brother, son, husband, friend, and there are still a lot of tears! We will continue to be strong in your memory. I will carry on each year and walk til I can't walk anymore... Love you, Sis (NJ)"
"wow 4 years the 23rd. to me it was yesterday. at least 30 min. of an hour you are on my mind. can't get over it. I know you thought it would be better to go ahead of me, sooo not true. as I said before butterflys don't hug me like you did and they don't call me. RIP Paulie, love mom."
"wow I sure have carried my sorrow of you gone far beneath the surface of my soul alone.my heart still does not belleve you are gone. only speaking about with someone dear to you this week did I really understand what it meant for you to love and could not beat the demons
May you have peace my son, love Mom."
"Easter is early this year, but you know that. what can we talk about that seems kind. I see the butterflies but they don't hug. I'm selfish cause I miss you with every breat I take. keep me on the bright side I just can't seem to stay there on my own. I miss you and love you Paulie, Love Mom"
"In your memory I went out this morning and waited in the dark for the miracle of the sunrise.... it was beautiful!. I miss you everyday! I feel your spirit with me. Your in my head and in my heart daily. Love you lil brother!"
"Happy Birthday Paulie,
Boy if I think back when we were always together and our birthdays came mine the 16th and yours today. We sure could stir some stuff up. As a matter of fact I think we always stirred stuff up weather in school or running the roads. The best times were at my townhouse though. I know you are watching over all of us. So until we meet again my friend Happy Birthday.
"Happpy Birthday Paulie, Today is your day! We misss you every day- and nver does June 29th come and go without celebrating you, the Simple Man, we love so much! Happy birthday lil brother. Love Sis!"
"Happy New Year Paulie it's 2015 and we have learned to go on without you, but you're still missed the same, if not more!
Your Cowboys would make you a proud fan! Watched the game last night with Mama in memory of your die hard, life long, loyalty to your Dallas Cowboys! you know damn well, I found it hard to route for them. But even though you werent on the couch cheering, I could still hear ya!
Your SC girls are doing fine! Justyne, Mom and I have shared so many laughs, it's hard not to pee our pants! Mama looks fabulous! and she actually feels good most of the time. (or she is good at hiding it). Justyne has come a loooong way! You'd be proud. Me, I just keeping dreaming big and making it happen. Thankful everyday that God is keeping us together, happy and healthy. Love you brother, Miss you too!
"2 years today and it's as if you just left! you're still with me on my morning beach walks, waiting for that miraculous sunrise! on a clear starry night I feel you looking down on me, telling me "This too shall pass" when I feel overwhelmed. You would be filled with joy to know mama is out of the city and here with Justyne and I.( So are you! ).Mama reallly has lit up and has some pep in her step these days. It just feels right having us together in a place sunny and bright! "Somewhere over the rainbow" I guess you coud say! I love you and miss you so much. Oh brother, where art thou! Til we meet again! Love Sis."
"Hey Buddy just sitting around today in one of those moods where all you do is think about things and wanted to let you know that you are on my mind today. Miss knowing you are just a phone call away. Also
HOW BOUT THEM COWBOYS THIS YEAR!!!!!!!!
"as page says You are forever missed,Love Mom"
"today my birthday is sooo not happy. missing you consumes my day. you are Resting High ON THE MOUNTAIN. A fitting tribute Sung by Vince Gill. Your work here is done. You felt my heartbeat from inside me. I hope you are at peace. love Mom"
"Dear son, I took few months off from your memorial page, but not from your memories. took a little trip so to have a very peaceful service for you as you "REST HIGH ON THE MOUNTAIN" October is no longer a day for my birthday but a month to celebrate you. You still brighten my days and I miss you so much. love forever in my heart, MOM"
"Eric Clapton......no more tears in heaven!"
"Happy birthday brother. 51 today. Wish you were here instead of there. You are missed and loved by many!! Love you, sis! Xoxoxo."
"Paulie your sister misses you very much and her milestone is 49 on March 15th. send her some love so she can enjoy her day without you.love mom"
"Well I'm getting ready to turn the age, that you were, when you left us. Feeling really strange about it? I'm sure everyone thinks I'm worried about getting older (nope, no problem with that). You should still be here, we should have celebrated your 50th together, then mine. So to celebrate without you, I'm going to do something you loved (gambling in Atlantic City - Remember when we all went ;) ) Maybe you can slide me some luck ;) Thinking about you like crazy...Love Ya Bunches and Miss you More1! Your Lil' Brother ;)"
"yes its another day love mom"
"my darling son this s my 2nd Christmas not hearing your voice "hi mom this Paulie' my heart is so swelled with sorrow and I just can't get together. are you sleeping or walking the nights trying to get back to us? I need answers Is aunt marion ok? rikky doing ok. why have they me here? you know I don't want to be here. just saying"
"The days and months since you passed one year ago have not been easy for the loved ones you left behind!. We all miss you so deeply! There is a hole in each of our hearts where our Paulie used to be. I can still hear your sweet words of wisdom, "this too shall pass" or "I'm glad that was yesterday" help me get through it all.. I love you and miss you Paulie!"
"Paulie the last day we spoke was my birthday last year 2012. what a terrible way to make Oct 5th such a sad memory. squirrel season will come in again and each one I see I think of you. sometimes I smile or get real teary. never know the reaction. I love you dearly and won't wait for your call this year. but its ok love mom"
"Happy Birthday to my old friend. Just want you to know you are in my thoughts today!!!!!!!!!
"today you would have turned 50. Paulie how did you get to the edge of no return. If the deceased can get a message I hoped to hear. you didn't get that far by yourself. who did't help you come back, that's what I want to know. bulling comes so many different ways. but mind you they will answer. they probably don't sleep to well. I love and miss you, mom"
"Paulie, 20 days from now is your 50th birthday,I can remember your birth as if it was yesterday. You came fast and you left this world fast.I really wish that I would have taken you far away so no sadness could have become such a part of your being. your struggles mounted as you did not get the praise you so deserved. I will bet my last breath on this. love mom"
"Ihave been preparing for your 50th birthday, eric Clapton,chuckberry, a little bluegrass. crabs, beer a stripper your sisters, nieces, nephew, cousins especially George,haven't decided where yet but will do so soon, please send sign to its ok love mom"
"7 months now, summer time is beginning.your time of the year. your absence is larger than any ful moon or sun.. I can't complete a day without so many memories invading always regretting , never feeling as if I had done enough. I know you spent the last years of your life defending me. for that I am so sorry love mom"
"ok big guy MOTHERS DAY CELEBRATION has ended. missed you and Buck otherwise it was one great big love all around. visited with cusin Diane and Ray and the babies had free run with the horses. oh my god Paulie I miss you so much. rest in peace son, love mom"
"omg its MOTHER,S DAY Paulie without you.The girls made it a wonderful day, son, but you were in all our thoughts. the grandbabies are growing so fast. Justyne is a young lady for sure, Rikki is trying to find her way slowly. when I got to my apt and got out my car,"thus a penny from heaven" was at my feet. I had to giggle out loud just knowing you had helped me thru the day. love and kiss"
"yes its 6 months my son today and 10 months for little Charlie. to big for me to digest. as I keep try to put the pieces together the puzzle is
far from being done. more confusing.charlie and betty ann's birthday was on the 10th.hopefully you will know every day I miss and love you very love mom"
"you know I visit often, sometimes just can't put the words together. today is a good day, Paulie, I just wished it could have had "hi mom, this Paulie" this is when it gets bad, the crying starts and I just come unglued. No it gets no better Paulie. I have you close to me in your little shrine. Shine on for me my baby boy, love mom"
"I had wished you a Happy Easter but somehow it didn't post. today I purchased a beautiful Blessed Mother statue and a plant to shade you from the sun at your memorial in my room. Just had to do something so it would be my place to talk with you, love mom"
"today March 23rd, 5 months since you went for your walk, never to return.it took 9 months give you birth,I could touch and kiss you, 9 days to find you, could not touch or kiss you good bye. I think not being able to do this is far more sad than anyone knows,the cobble stones of your path to your destination is a burden for me to carry, love mom"
"today is you little sister's birthday- #48. Not a day goes by we dont think of you . " You are always on our mind"..... love you!"
"Uncle Paulie not a day goes by that I dont think of you and your beautiful smile that would brighten anyones worse day. The days dont so much get easier but when I think about you watching over the kids and I, I get a little bit of peace. Sami Allen and I miss you whole heartedly. I know you are up there lighting up Heaven with your one of a kind heart, your kindness and laughter. I love u"
"Paulie,Paulie dear you hear pretty song being sang for you by your favorite birds or smell the pretty fall flowers as you walked on the cobble stones to the great sea above, your baby steps grew so you COULD TAKE YOUR JOUNEY.
SOMETIMES SILENCE SAYS IT ALL "BLUEGRASS SONG""
"3 months since you walk away never to return son. I can't believe that your baby steps on cobble stone path would lead you so far that I ,can't hug you, see you,or just call your name for none would be answered. forever and ever this is my hell on earth, "nobody answer when I call your name" by vince gill "so go rest high on that mountain your work is thru" by vince gill love mom"
"another month gone by.... I think of you and lil Charlie and how you two were our little family rebels. Both of you were so determined to do things the opposite of the way it should be done. Neither of you would adhere to set boundaries, always living on the edge. it's sad the family we have lost and left us all SOS: Aunt Ollie, Marion, Uncle Johnny, you and Buck. I miss you all! XOXO"
"90 days +.. Justyne said Ive been counting all wrong. there was 31 days in Dec, & Jan.(small stuff) Sunday the 10th. was Transfiguration Sunday. It made me think hard. Have you been climbing that stairway to heaven these past few months and now you are "there" and have your angel wings? Were you the "field trip leader for the 20 babies from CT? I know how much you adored children."
"90 days again--- earthly body found on Nov. 1. sometimes Im not sure what day to stop counting. February 9th will be 90 days since we all gathered to celebrate your peace. Miss you so much.... your leaky oil stains are still on coldwater circle.lol. I hope they never fade away. Your "choice "has left such a hole in my heart. Dont know how to mend it. love sis."
"oh Paulie I visit this page and your story page and just can't get into words what I want to say, you knew that feeling well. yes it's been 3 months as your sister N J said. I hope the whipper wills have sang for you, at this time I just think how beautiful you were as a baby.As years go by all mothers can do do is love their child and send prayers to God to keep watch for thier children,"
"Good morning lil brother! Oh how you are missed!90 days today! I will say I am looking pretty good today in one of your sweaters. You were always a sharped dressed man. I loved that about you. I was very proud of your good looks. The good girls in your life truly loved everything bout you. Justyne wasnt going to wear a coat today. It was 19* here this morning.She left in your camoflauge."
"Paulie I come hear to put into words my grief and I can't. it seems fruitless. but you knew when you took your walk on such a beautiful day and such a beautiful path you did take, that your mother and sisters would grieve. you would never have left us unless you saw no other way.god knows I wished I could hold you and make all the demons go away, a mother would do this, love mom"
"Happy New Year Dear Little Brother. where art thou now? I keep thinking of the tough life you chose to live & wonder WHY? You were the best man I've ever known. If we (your family and true friends) could have had a stronger influence on you, those people, places and other demons that you chose would have never been in your life and you would still be here. Miss ya so much it hurts daily!"
"to the most handsome guy I have ever known, Son you are so missed. I still and always will feel like you didn't need to be so sad, all the trials that were sent your way was to better you as a young man. what happened Son to you that such a tragic end seemed to be the only way.God bless and keep you,love mom"
"two months ago you went on a forever lasting walk, I don't know what was on your mind or when you decided not to come back, maybe it was it was your destiny, the path you took had to be sad, I knew in my heart the day after you had stepped into eternity, you had decided the end. rest in peace Paulie, mom misses you"
"the newtown conn.massacare of 20 baby children and 6 teachers and his mother has caused such sorrow.no one will ever have wakeing momnet for the rest of their life that they won't want to hold or dress the child for school you my son were far nfrom school age bbbuuuttt I still wish do something you, Ilove you and miss you Paulie mom"
"Paulie as you used to lay on, my leg to watch tv, sucking your thumb and rubbing my leg , you and me, I never wanted the show to be over because you were such a lovin child to me, and to your grand ma Knobel she always loved the little Paulie oh yaya she said I can.t remember when you stop sucking your thumb but it is very impotant to me now love mom"
"Paulie if there is an afterlife, God needs a lot of help with the precious little children who died Friday, also lets not forget the Teachers who died doing what they loved. they will love to help you with your reading, you may be a scholar by the time I will get there.I will my hair dark brown my nails will preety and longso u will who I am love you so much love mom"
"The angels have been crying terribly since Fri.12-14. Nothing but sadness here on earth. I miss you, but I know that you are definitely in a much better place. I keep your smile in my heart and your laghter in my head to get through a day. I feel your spirit, but I would love to hear your voice amd one of your many phrases of wisdom. This will never pass!"
"Paulie i started writing on here last night but had to much to say so i had to leave it as a story. Believe me one day i am going to sit down and write a story about some of the stuff we did. I will always hold your memories close.Our friendship meant alot to me.I am hoping you are at peace finally. You will be thought of and missed greatly. Shawn"
""will the circle be unbroken, by and by" as The Carter Family sang with Johnny cash, Lord by and by. our circle will never be broken son, love mom"
"frank makel has passed as you did my son, he thought the world of my dad"ben" and my mother Helen and you, Sam and Marion and of course me. that the worlds of my childhood would be a testimonial for you to hear and hold dear in your life Paulie and for this I will be eternally grateful for Franks friendship for you to enjoy, love mom"
"baby its cold outside but i quess you know that already. gosh I hope you are free from anquish, love mom"
"60 seconds of anger costs us 1 minute of happiness, this to shall pass you have said on many messages, I pray you are correct, love mom"
"to the main man in my life, i try to post everyday, but tribute doesn.t seem to post it, but you and I know, i have so many things to say and I wonder so much how your last miles were like and your thoughts, and what despair took you there, the pain you carried with you, I so love you my son, love mom"
"It's been over a month now...and it still hurts :( Love you and think of you all the time. Thanksgiving was nice and Christmas will be here soon. Just not the same, but, Sami and Allen, they help so much with bringing the smiles out. Got to figure out who is going to bring the Old Ham this year, yours was always sooo good. Oh, and I guess you know, Redskins beat Dallas on Thanksgiving..."
"I mourn for all the compassion you had for everyone, but never could have the love you so desired love mom"
"1 yr ago today I knew I would miss you for 1 yr. Oh how I wish I had that year back. love mom"
"It's a beautiful day! Paulie definitely "colored our world". Ive never seen more color during Autumn as I have since Oct 25.You filled the church on Friday Nov 9 and your spirit created a lot of love and peace that day. Peace at last my little brother.NJ"
"I just can't sleep Paulie, spent the day with Jaci, Norma Jean and Justyne"
"you are resting now where I belive you would want most dearly. you are safe, my son. It was all a mother could want,is her child to be carefully taken care of.I have put aside the thunder that rolled in my heart for years and I will praticed your wishes to be kind to everyone, they to will miss you, love mom"
"With Heartfelt Sympathy. Deeply Sorry About Your Loss. There Is No Greater Loss Than The Loss Of A Precious Love One. Peace Be With You and Family."
"Brenda & Family , "I know how hard an unexpected loss is. Please accept my heartfelt sympathy at this tragic time." I haven't seen Paulie in a number of years , But the times that I did see him he was always fun to be around.I know he will be missed by many..."
"Oh, Brenda how sorry for your lose. I understand Paulie was a good person and made many people laugh and smile and was a good friend to all. May God take him in his arms and protect him forever. God Bless you and your family. I am sorry I never got to know Paulie. Please call me some time and lets talk. (240-318-3335) Peace be with you always."
"you have arrived in the promised land paulie where there is only peace .god bless, till we meet again."
"Oh Brother Where Art Thou? You have made it to the peaceful, serene everlasting life you longed for.Handsome,lovable, unselfish,thoughtful,caring,funnyand humble.Folks loved to be around you.Your positive energy inspired everyone.Your smile and laughter was infectious.You knew no strangers.I will miss hearing you say "This too shall Pass". Love Sis and Justyne"
"my heart goes out to brenda, jaci,nj & all who loved him, what i remember about paulie was a gentle kindness, laughter & once a friend always a friend. he was special to all who knew him.i havent seen him in years but my memories are like today, rip paule. we all have you as our special angel watching overall you loved."
"I HAVE ONLY MET PAULIE A FEW TIMES BUT EACH TIME WAS A PLEASURE. I KNOW THERE ARE WONDERFUL MEMORIES FOR A MOM AND SISTERS WHO LOVED HIM SO MUCH. REST IN PEACE PAULIE AND CONDOLENCES TO BRENDA, JACI AND NJ. LOVE CATHY"
"Paulie you were one of a kind, with a heart of gold. I will miss you dearly, but will have fond memories of us growing up together and the fun we all had. Love You and Rest In Peace."
"Words cannot describe the how much I will miss my big brother! Your laughter, I will always hear. Precious memoies of you I will forever hold dear.Your kind heartedness, is why the list of those who loved you is endless. I know you will never read a word of this, it is for those who shed the tears, Paulie, you will surely be missed. Love You Forever... your little brother, Jaci"
"God gave me you to brighten my days. This you accomplished. I have only the memories of a child grown into a man that had compassion and love for everyone you met. Your struggles in life where huge, now may you rest in peace and shine as bright as the full moon over your family and friends. I will miss you with every breath I breathe each day for the rest of my life Mom"
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