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Cydonia located on the surface of Mars

January 11, 2013

Richard,

Told me on several occassions about "Project Camelot and the Enterprise Mission", created by Richard C. Hoagland.

11:11, according to Hoagland is code for Hyperdiminssional Space Physics.

If you look at the jpg above and look into Hoaglands reaseatch. Washington DC is laid out 19.5 degrees.

Richard loved this stuff. 

Another photo

July 30, 2012

Another photo; left to right ... Rich, Bob Penn, Wev Shea in Back, and John Haldeman ... of Fremont High in Sunnyvale. Photo taken end of August 1966.

Photo 1966

July 30, 2012

Rich was a really nice guy ... we ate lunch at a bench with my friend Wev Shea every day at Fremont High School in Sunnyvale, CA.  We had a good time together ... I just found this photo with Rich at my parents house in August 1966, taken when I got home from the Air Force after basic training at Lackland AFB . As I recall Rich went directly into the US Marines out of high school in 1961 ... Wev and I went to Foothill Jr College, then to San Jose State ... then Wev to the Navy, I went in the Air Force. I am sorry I did not keep in touch with Rich ... so focused on my education and career with the Air Force ... then family. I will always remember Rich as great guy and great American. Sincerly, Bob Penn .... Fremont High School class of 1961.

Domain of the Golden Dragon

January 11, 2012

The Crossing of the International Date Line aboard the USNS Gen.Edwin D. Patrick enroute to Okinawa, Japan on May 28, 1962.

September 20, 2011

I read "The Testament to Rich" at his bedside on the day of his passing. This was written by Richards' dear friend Darrell McNabb.

Recently, I was able to record this letter on my computer, along with the music now playing in the background. However, uploading it to this site was problematic and unsuccessful. So I copied the letter and posted it here, so that, everyone else can share in its Beauty and the Love it expresses for Richard.

Thank you Darrell 

Testament to Richard

September 20, 2011

To My Friend Rich


"My friend and I are older and younger than everyone, we ride on celestial winds in a great stellar circle, we rope the stars and pull them into us"
If as men we allow ourselves to feel and to express in words our deepest sentiments for each other and we speak gently in that endearing manner from that most private and protected place which resides deep within the secret chamber of our hearts, where men often fear to go, I advance that it is with fondness that I think of you now Rich
 

From the time I found you wandering this earth, I have felt a strong spiritual connection to you - we were drawn to one other and take refuge in each other’s company, not unlike celestial bodies which are attracted and hold fast to each other in the cold dark reaches of space - eternally bonded, directed by some higher, universal authority beyond our temporal understanding, for some obscure purpose, for some destiny realized but not yet known
 

With an unquenchable thirst for knowledge and for truth we explored and examined the great marvels of the universe, the mysteries of life and death, tenaciously we chased the meaning of everything - alas our recollection of the past and the future was snatched away from us and for a time our senses are shrouded with a seamless veil of forgetfulness - there is only the now and that universal spirit with which we dance
 

I recall and recount those many late night conversations that passed between us that included all things that matter and other serious nonsense, and after a time you would reveal, "Do you realize how long we have been talking on the phone d? 2 hours d!" - I would have guessed it was but a moment in time - and of course time did not matter nor affect us as we folded time around ourselves and in the space of that precious moment we shared, eternity swirled about us like solar winds that sail endlessly through the heavens
 

As we are children of the stars, it is our shared belief that at some point on the shores of some distant galaxy we stood together and looked out upon the great expanse of the universe and made a decision to come to this place for some elevated purpose, to learn or perhaps to teach, maybe to challenge ourselves or to share our being, whatever the reason I have to wonder now my friend, if after the experience if we would have indeed chosen this time this place for a second time, a place where unseen forces of civilizations both young and old collide and struggle to exist in this, the centrifuge of evolution

Although looking back I think we may have been a bit hasty in our deliberation and would have given our decision, which was made at the time~ with the clarity of an evolved being who had all the time in the world, a little~ more thought, maybe 100 years or so - I am unsure which one of us first made the decision to descend into this cauldron of cleansing, this great enigma earth, though I have to believe that we both had a part in it and I would add only that we could not have come here save the other join him in his descent of noble design
 

When we count our true friends I have you - I have always held that my acquaintances number the stars of the sky, my friends on the other hand I can count on one hand - as we are old souls ours is a friendship which began eons ago bridging all space and time and it is as precious to me as life itself
 

It is Christmas again and I gaze at the Christmas tree standing silently, serenely in the space of my house reserved for such lofty guests -for you my friend - I marvel at the sparkling radiance of the many lights that adorn its lush and beautiful boughs of emerald green, you are one of those lights Rich
- every one of those countless lights is a soul all connected one to another, each giving off their precious brilliance, illuminating the dark places of this world and providing a lamp which burns brightly in the hearts of men and a beacon which lights their way and guides their footsteps
 

You said to me once, ''you know d, I need to write a book, " yours wasn't to write it but to inspire others by the living of your life in the same way you have inspired me -for I am charged with recording the treasured thoughts of such men, I am the chronicler of events, experiences, hopes, dreams of yesterday, today and for time to come, the responsibility for the telling of these tales now rests with me
 

Over the years I have watched you and it is my honor to write this small testament of your life and further share some of those significant contributions which you have laid before the feet of humanity, I will endeavor to capture your spirit here on these pages and for all of the laurels assigned to you and which cannot easily be counted, they are validated by the many you have touched with your kindness and generosity for they will know the truth of it


Rich, never doubt for an instant what you have meant to those of us who now stand in the light of your grace, nor in any way diminish the relevance of your being, or question your value for the life you lived and continue to live is the expression of love here on the earth - to know you is to love you my friend
 

You have given so much of yourself to all of us without regard for yourself, you have placed the welfare of others well ahead of your own needs and desires - when you were at the lowest point in your life, in the fight for your very life, your health failing you at every turn, abandoned by prosperity, at a time when a bowl of broth became a banquet for you, where every breath literally meant one more moment of life, and a small single chip of ice to cool and satiate your parched lips and tongue was your single craving, fraught with these dire circumstances you were concerned about me, about how I was doing, how I was feeling I was overwhelmed, deeply moved and left with not even the words to express my raw emotion, what I was feeling---- is this not the distinction by which we measure the nobility, goodness and decency of a man, a great man and it this very notion that is the envy of lesser men, I was saddened as I was reminded of my own failures in life to extend to others that most one most precious gift I possess, the gift of myself
 

All those selfless acts of kindness I had witnessed came rushing into my mind and the very deeds done out of love and concern for others convicted my soul - there was a time when I thought of you as generous to a fault, the fault was mine for the gauge with which I measured wealth and charity was flawed, I am sorry my friend - I have the unlimited resource of your countenance and the immeasurable wealth of your friendship, they were never the dazzling riches of this world and for that clarity I will be forever grateful     .
 

I have seen you Rich, I have watched you as you have opened the door to Calmer's heart, to Pam your trusted, faithful sister and lifelong friend who now holds you in her arms you poured out your love, to the family you have brought unity and a new beginning based on hope, love and support - your many friends and family who return to you now in this, your time of need are the product and expression of the compassion and love you openly gave to others during your life, we all return to you now following a path of your procuring, it is a spiritual path, the work of your hands, the inspiration of your heart and the vision of your soul, it is that spiritual heart of a man, it is the path that leads back to you, and is the gentle footsteps of your friends and family that you feel on the fragile folds of your heart
 

I can never forget what I consider this most noble and compassionate gesture of your life, as you wrapped up your mother, frail and infirm as she was in her later years in your strong, loving arms and brought her close into you and your loving kindness, and it was with selfless abandon that you cared for her for some years allowing her to live out her remaining days on the earth with dignity, your sacrifice deeply moved me and I will never forget the life you returned to this woman whom regrettably, I only briefly knew and wondered how she must have loved and so admired the son who would set aside his life in order to care for another
 

To the principles you held so dear all of your life, among them humility, compassion, generosity, forgiveness, benevolence, forbearance, hope, faith and charity - not only words but ideals you lived by as you endeavored to raise the level of consciousness on the planet believing with all your heart and soul 'that indeed, through the power of prayer and the manifestation of love a man could change the course of history and shape worlds, one soul at a time
 

Oh how short is our time here, and with the sunset upon us we look back and take inventory of what we have given and look upon the inheritance of those we leave and I ponder what we have left undone - you ask did I do enough, I say you did what you could you gave all that you had to give and others who come after us will take up the future - it is time we now look to the horizon
 

I neglect to speak of it yet I am compelled to now - the thought of you leaving breaks my heart and causes me to weep for my friend, but I know in my heart it is for myself that I weep, and I realize of all the things you were able to affect and for all of the strength and spiritual power you possess, you cannot repair a broken heart, alas my friend only time will heal it
 

I will find you again my friend look for me on the horizon of eternity on the day of my passing, when it is my time, may I show a crumb of the grace and dignity you display at your end - your pain is my pain and that I will carry with me until we again meet on that distant shore

Rich I need you to know that I believe in you and all that you stood for, you are the best of us and I will follow in your footsteps - you are the example, my teacher, my mentor, my friend
 

I know that soon you will again go into that celestial light from whence we came, the veil will be lifted and you will see eternity - thank you for sharing the adventure with me - I have been and will always be your friend throughout all time
 

Remember me
 

d
 
 
My promise to you my old friend, I will leave all that I touch in this life with
this one thought, mined from your profound wisdom:
 

"Love you withhold in this life will be the pain you will carry lifetime after lifetime"
 

________________________________________________________________


My Eternal Friend
 

He bears the treasures, tales, and totes

Of many lands he's trod
He shares his many gathered wares

Collected from abroad
 

He draws the drapes which shade my heart

And let's the light bleed through
And smiles at what the light reveals,
A room with wondrous views
 

While grounded to the earth beneath

That may or may not be,
But of the stuff that made the stars

And light by which we see
 

In counting down our earthbound years

A measure to this end,
I muse the countless time I'll spend

With my eternal friend
 

For we are pieces of a whole,

A grander scheme than we,
Though scattered through all time and space

He bears a piece of me
 

He well may start a masterpiece

He labors to refine,
The brush of inspiration 's shared

The final stroke is mine
 

d
 

(looking forward to eternity - see you there, my friend) written - work in progress for many years

(All Rights Reserved)               41                (Copyright © 2008 DWMcNabb)

 

February 2, 2011




                    "Recollections of Richard Mattoon"
                                         by John Thorington
                                          January 25, 2011

Very briefly, the following is a summary of my recollections of Richard as best as I can remember, considering they go back 44 years. It may have unintentional errors and omissions, which I hope to correct with time and feedback.

In June of that year I had earned my MS in engineering and moved with my wife from Michigan to California to work on satellites & missiles for Lockheed Missiles and Space Company in Sunnyvale. Shortly thereafter we divorced.

I first met Richard in the summer of 1967, when I started to attend the First Church of Christ Scientist, Sunnyvale California. Richard needed a roommate to share expenses on a two bedroom apartment in Sunnyvale. We had similar goals and saw eye to eye on many things, so we rented a two bedroom apartment together in Sunnyvale to save cash. Each night I’d come home from work and throw a steak in the oven while he fried a large piece of cheap hamburger down to a small bun size. Then we’d eat and talk, sitting across the kitchen table, me chomping down a rare cooked piece of beef, and Rich eyeing it as he slowly ate his small well cooked burger! Rich’s friendship helped me thru the bumpy personal life I lead that summer. I convinced him to take college courses at that time and get a degree. With a degree he could afford steak too!

After a couple of months I threw in with our mutual friend Al Stout, whom we both knew from church. Al’s half brother Earl from Louisiana and a friend of Al’s Mike Nohelty from Massachusetts. Al and I all rented a two bedroom apartment with large rooms. I continued my dinnertime cooking habits and later, when I married, the guys made me come back and clean off the quarter inch of baked on grease in the oven. We each worked for different companies and came and went, simply sharing the apartment expenses. We all knew and were friends with Richard at this time. He frequently visited our place and associated with us.

In early August, Rich and Al invited me to drive up to Oakland with them one Sunday to visit their friends, three young ladies who worked as teachers and shared an apartment there. Rich had dated Pat, and Sandy and Liz were also his friends. They were all Christian Scientists so we all shared similar views.

Shortly thereafter, Pat met and became engaged to another man. I dated Liz, and five months later we married. Rich was my best man and helped me quite a bit during that time.

I recall that, after I was married, I once used my pickup truck and utility trailer to help Rich move his entire apartment's furnishings from a place in the East Bay to Sunnyvale in one trip. The details elude me.

I saw Richard less frequently after I married that December. Liz and I bought a home in Walnut Creek and I worked engineering on light tanks and troop carriers in San Jose. Rich continued working in Silicon Valley and became engaged once as I recall, but it didn't result in marriage.

One thing Richard and I shared after my marriage was a business relationship in Amway. Rich was very enthusiastic about it and sponsored me as a distributor, but I'm not a salesman. A couple of times he quit the Amway business with unsold inventory, but he bounced back and kept moving ahead.

Richard and I had lots in common, but we also had our differences. One of those was politics, which was very important to him. He had served in the USMC in peacetime in Okinawa and very much supported the Viet Nam war effort. I supported our military but I thought the Viet Nam war was a mistake for our country. You can imagine the discussions we had. But through all the years of that war, Rich and I remained friends who could, for the most part, calmly discuss the politics of the era. We each loved our country. We remained friends until his passing in 2011.

I shall miss his friendship.

 

 


Prayer from Memorial Read by Koree

February 1, 2011
Barry Manilow - I Write The Songs

For my Uncle Richard,

May today you find peace within.

May you trust your higher power

that you are exactly where you are meant to be.

May you not forget the infinite possibilites that are born of faith.

May you use the gits that you have recieved, and pass on the love that has

been given to you. May you be content knowing you are a child of God.May

this presence settle into your bones,and allow your soul the freedom to

sing,dance,praise and love.

Let nothing upset you, let nothing startle you

.All things pass;

Yet God does not change.

Patience wins all that it seeks.

Whoever has God lacks nothing:

God alone is enough.

Amen,.

January 27, 2011

This picture was taken in front of Darrell and Brenda McNabbs, home here in Oregon. (from left to right: Calmer, Grace and Richard)

 

January 26, 2011

Now, when I look upon this picture, I see my Big Brother Richard in the fullness of his Joy at 19mos. old!


Big Brother and Little Zoro

January 26, 2011

Richard is 16 years old and I am 5 years .

I remember wanting to be the Walt Disney character Zoro, who was played by Guy Williams. 

Silver Falls State Park

January 26, 2011

This photo was taken the last time Richard came to visit us in Oregon in 2009. Grace and I took Richard to Silver Falls State Park, because he so wanted to see the trees and be in the forest. We took him on the trail that lead to one of ten falls, which was the most dramatic. We took him to see the South Falls and we got to walk underneath it and then on down to the basin.

Everywhere we went, while we were there, he was so much in awe of all the trees. He was so elated by being in the midst of the forest, because he missed living in a higher elevation climate, since he now was living in the Greater Phoenix Arizona desert.

The Dream

January 21, 2011

Rich and I met in Woodside, California around 1991. We became engaged in a project that we anticipated would result in the answer to all our dreams. We didn't make very much money from that project, but we made something more important...a friendship that lasted all these years.

We both left Calif. around the same time. Rich headed to AZ, and I wound up in CO. But we never missed a day of communication via internet or phone in  20 years. We grew through many learning experiences together, sharing the ups and downs life offered us with understanding, sympathy, and without judgement. We always knew we were family....maybe not this earth one, but family nonetheless.

I was honored to spend considerable time talking to Rich over the phone when he learned of his condition. Being with someone who is preparing to cross is a great gift. It allows you the opportunity to feel the nearness of other dimensions. As a result, Rich contacted me shortly after crossing. He said: "Thank Pam for me....she is the best sister in the world. Thank Calmer....I waited for him"! Now I will assist you all, in any way I can....just talk to me"!

We all love you....always,

Mariah Adams 

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