When you you born
I miss you.....
One month from today I lost the love of my life my best friend of many many years and my husband. I miss you so much that words can not explain. My heart is tourn in two and I do not know how to go on without you by my side everyday. I was used to talking to you at night laying in the bed watching our shows together. You would call me on all your breaks from work. What I would give for my phone to ring just to hear you say "I love you babe and I will see you in a little while". It breaks my heart to know that I can not hold you or kiss you or talk to you whenever I want to. You were the person that I could talk to about problems that I was having or if I had a bad day at work or if I could not figure my homework out you would sit down and try to help me and now I do not have that anylonger. I know that you are in a better place and happy and at piece now but I needed you here with me to raise our son together and to grow old with me. I just wish I could have had more time with you. I love you more than anything I have ever loved before. I miss you so dearly that sometimes I feel like I can not breath and I can not go on but then I think to myself that you told me to take care of our son and I know you want me to be strong but sometimes I do not want to be but I will for you and him, I have to be. I just know that everything that I am going to experience in life, you were suppose to experience with me. I do not know how I will feel the first day Ricky goes to school or gets his first girlfriend you were suppose to be here for things like that. I pray that you will be mine and our sons guardian angel from now on and watch over us and protect us and help our son make good decisions throughout his life. I pray that when I am sad and crying on days that are to hard for me to bare you will let me know you are with me and make me feel as if it will be ok my love. I wish you could wipe the tears from my eyes like you used to when I would cry at home in bed with you but you can't. I will try to be the best mother I can be to make you proud Daddy! I love you........you are and will always have my heart.......you will always be my husband.....rest in piece my sweet guardian angel..........~Momma Bear~