Dear Daddy,
I want you to know that Ithink about you everyday and have so many regrets. I hate that the last conversation we had was an ugly fight. I wish I could go backand take back everythingI said to you in that last conversation.
You were the best Dad ever and I am truly blessed to have had a man like you for my dad. I love you so much and I willnever be ableto tell you that.
Well as you already probably know, I think that the time has come for ma tocome join you. Its really scary dad. I really wish that you could here to help me navigate this and to help me be strong for Quaya and Tt. You know that me & ma just can't seem to get along for one reason or another but this is really tearing me up. She honestly thinks that I don't love her and I do. I keep trying to tell her but she just isn't open to it.
She was in an accident and it freaked me out. Ma drove her car into CVS and miracously is alright. I couldn't believe it, she could have died. That was what woke me up. I remembered how fast you were taken from us. I want you know that it has not been the saame since you passed away.
Dad I dont know what to do about my kids and could really use some advice. I thnk that I may be causing Quaya more harm than good by enabling her to stay dependent on me but I dont know how to saay no to her. I love her so much and I want to see her succeed so badly. I have done all i can financially and I am spent myself emotionally.
I have been in treatment for 6 years now andsometimes it seems that I am getting better than bam,, i diigress. Its so hard everyday with all the noise in my head and most of it is just garbage. I ish that there was something or someone to turn it off cuz t keeps getting louder and louder lately.
