Dearest friend, first off you should know I haven't forgotten you and I miss you and wish you weren't dead. Second I feel like I can only let out my deepest thoughts and feelings only to you here. Rob, I'm so fucking tired , I'm fucking tired to death of going through nothing but hurt mistreatment and pain in my heart and I'm sick to death of crying. Just when I think I finally found true happiness and love , I'm only taken on a short ride and eventually that ride stops moving. I come to the same place where I started. Fuck Rob when the fuck will I catch a break. Sometimes I feel like I should be where you are. Atleast I'll be in peace.i gotta go until next time . I love u Rob .

It one of those days when Im stressed and overwhelmed and no one around I can trust or be comfortable enough to vent to.i can't think of anyone in my life I can express my feelings and thoughts to without the fear of being judged . Your the only person I've ever known that I can confide in always. So that being said, here goes... Rob , why is it so hard for a man to love a woman ? Why do men love you one minute, then decide they dont the next? If you were here with me I know I'd get an honest answer no sugar coating it. But sadly your in heaven. So here I'm in Oklahoma got my own place with my husband , working a real job, moved in my brother in law for a few months then he moved out, and same day he moved out, I move my father in law in with us. I've given unconditional love not only to my husband, but his family, loyal to an devoted to my husband, yet still, it's still never enough...2 years ago we can out here an both decided to better ourselves forget our past and let go of our bad habits if you know what I mean. My husband was so excited to start a new life , and I still remember his exact words that being tears in my eyes... He said Maria it took me finding true love in a woman that gave me the want and strength to quit and do good. That's how deeply I'm in love w u. Love conquers all. . Today I feel like my heart is hurting it feels like I'm slowly getting closer and closer to my heart breaking again, because I can't help but feel like my husband is no longer in love with me, and I know I'm not tripping because here we are and im all alone fighting to get him to get his head straight and get back on track and love me right just like he once did before. I'm sorry Rob I'll have to end this I'm getting upset I just feel dejavu just hit me, and this my friend is what I feared when he asked me to trust him with my heart because he would never let me hurt again like Chris did. Ugghghh

Dearest friend, I can't sleep tonight, and as I'm laying here in bed with my hubby Alex, I started to think and I realized I haven't wrote on your memorial page for a while now. Well friend I'm finally happy. Not only did I get off the streets and out of that bridge, but I have a good man that lives me and I love him. Real love rob not that tweaker love. I know I have a good husband and I plan to live happily ever after, just one thing friend. I know you're in heaven so do me a favor, tell Crystal she should be proud her boy has grown up into a real man he's working here has his own home and he's with his wife and taking care of his dad. Until next time. I love u friend.

Hi rob it's me once again. I miss you so much friend . I miss you and wish you were here to talk to like the old days.
Im scared rob I'm scared I'm loosing my husband . I hope my minds messing w me but I fear that Alex will hurt me the same way Chris did. I'm scared that one day my husband will tell me he doesn't care about me anymore or love me or like me. I'm scared of being neglected by the one person I give my all to. I'm scared of getting chewed up and spit out and thrown in the trash and forgotten about . I guess what I'm really getting at is that Ive lived that before and I felt that before with Chris which I'm over it thank God, but rob, I really fucking love my husband way too much and not that tweaker love but truly love too much to have that same repeat from him. I don't even want to imagine the pain I would feel. Anyhoo, until next time tty later. Sleep w the angels. Love u friend

Hi friend just wanted to say I miss you .

I miss you friend. Everyone in my life i come across end up turning out to be someone who hurts me . Bullshit lies about how their different than everyone else but eventually they end up in the same boat . I'm so tired Rob. I'm mentally spiritually physically tired. I'm begging to understand why some other women don't get in relationships, it just hurts rob . I'm tired of getting my heart broken. I miss you friend

Ps. I've lost contact with your brother since I left California, but he's doing well too and your family misses u too. You will never be forgotten.love u friend until next time I'll write to u again

Hi friend, I miss you. Once again when I feel like I have no one to be myself around, no one to go to talk to about my problems in life, I think to myself who can I go to? So here I am . The only friend that's really a true loyal friend in my life isnt even alive and here with me in the physical world. Anyway here goes. Rob , I feel like my marriage is falling apart. I question whether my husband truly loves me anymore. I know he did once apon atime but I can't help but feel like his attention is somewhere else outside our home. I don't know what to do Rob. I love my husband so much . He makes me happy. My life feels complete with him. I wake up every morning with a smile in my face because I finally found someone to share my life with and have so much plans for the future with, but now I'm scared that I'm being played for a fool again. I don't know what to do. It's driving me crazy not knowing what to do. Should I go save myself from a breakej heart, or stay and take the risk. I gotta go I love you Rob, please watch over me my guardian angel.my one n only bff forever.ttyl

Dear Rob,
I started a new life with a new man. After the heartache and damage from Chris, i thought I'd never fall in love again, but I did and I am so in love happily married and smiling again. Only thing is I'm scared rob scared for the day to come when my husband tells me he doesn't want me.scared of being cheated on getting neglected forgotten and left with a broken heart again. I wish you would be alive and here in my life to give me your advice and thoughts, you know like how you used to. I miss you friend wish me luck.gotta go.

My dear friend. I'm so upset and hurt most of all tired. Tired of it all. I just want to scream and break things and cry at the same time. I'm so frustrated rob. It seems like when Im with a man in a relationship past or present, I seem to be the only one that loves and loves hard. I gave 100 to my partner loyalty commitment passionate loving caring unconditional love and all the respect. I put my partners needs before mine and for what ? The same shit happens to me . Mistreated disrespected unappreciated and in the end left broken hearted. Here's why I'm upset right now rob. My husband who I'm in love with so much that I left California to start a new life with 1000 miles away new state new everything. I love him so fucking much that I've sacrificed it all, but yet it's never enough . Why rob? I just want to know why doesn't he love me enough to want or have the power to want to quit doing shit and be a good husband and love me right? I guess I'm not worth that much.i hate love I hate my life. I wish I could be where u are. Anything is better than this toxic world.ttyl later

Hello friend . Again I feel the need to vent to someone and since these days there's no one in my life I could vent to, I feel like writing on your memorial page is the only way to go about it. I don't know maybe I am crazy maybe not all I know is I feel better when I write to u. So here goes....
Rob I feel like I'm living a rerun of my last failed relationship . Chris was perfect the first 2 years. Kind loving respectful Mr right. But not long after like a light switch he became cold . Treated me like I was a total stranger and eventually I became his enemy the one he hated couldn't stand being around me, started disrespecting me calling me names.communication was gone. Interest in me gone all good feelings nthoughts towards me gone. I stayed in this relationship for 5 long yrs rob hoping waiting patiently for him to snap out of it and realize his wrongdoings but in the end he got tired of coliving with me so he turned the coldest he could get .one day he got up and said he's leaving and leaving me ..he left me got on his feet and left me under a freeway alone by myself . Chris broke my spirit tore my heart in peaces and emotionally messed me up. Those memories haunt me to this day. Now here I am married not even a full year rob I'm reliving the past .dejavu is real. More importantly friend it hurts more now.way more. I don't know if I am strong enough to take another heartbreak. I'm hurting torob

Hi friend. Ive been listening to this one song called jealous by labrynth . Itmade me think of you and how much I miss you rob. Thismightsound crazy but I envy you. Although you gone really sucks, atleast your at peace. Me , I can't say the same . Rob , I thought I was finally getting out of that rut I was in depressed neglected heartbroken, used mistreated , I thought that life of misery and sadness was behind me. I was so sure prince charming came and swept me off my feet took me away from the big bad wolf Chris and showed me all the love and care a girl could ask for .to top it off I got married rob .I still can't believe it. I thought I found my happiness and true love and you know what rob, for the first time in a long time I was really happy. I got my happily ever after. ...but this marriage turned out to hurt my sole worse than the last heartless monster did to me. I don't know what's worse getting heartbroken mistreated for years only to get thrown away like a broken toy tear my sole to nothing but sadness emotionally scarred and left with a broken heart, or to meet someone that seems so perfect and gives me all the
love affection care and make a girl feel like she's a princess . He brought me out of my darkness and showed me light and made me believe in love again . Everything was so wonderful rob but as usual I have bad luck .my husband started to turn into my ex Chris. So here I am my eyes are puffy and red from crying all day . I'm emotionally drained .mentally exhausted. Mistreated . Disrespected , feeling once again like Alex my husband is no different than Chris. They both sucked the life out of me . And in the end after all the unconditional love care and everything I could do to please my mate, what do I get, a slap in the face . unappreciated and total cruel hateful words thrown at me. Today I felt the same pain I felt in my stomach and my heart I felt 2 years of when I was neglected left broken alone under a freeway. Today I felt the same sorrow in my soul and today I cried all day till night, and you know what rob , I think I'm hurting 100 times more with Alex. I feel like my husband my best friend my partner , my hubby, chewed me up and threw me in the trash . I feel so alone right now. N rob. My heart hurts. I know this is stupid to say but I can't help but wonder if one can die from a broken heart. ..I mean how much more can my heart take of hurting ...I can't catch a break friend . I miss u I wish I were alive next to me to talk and cheer me up. Anyway I'm done venting until next time rob. Sleep with the angels. Goodnight friend. P.s if god does exist , please tell him to have my back a little. I need something someone cus I'm all out of hope for a better tomorrow.love u rob

Dear Rob,
I have nothing to say except I'm done with men . Time to focus on me . I've come to realize I'm happier without a guy in my life. Untill next time love ya

Dear rob,
I thought I finally found my happiness. I was sure I finally found someone who loved me for me . Someone who would make me smile . Someone who would heal all my scars . I was wrong again friend. Who am I kidding rob, God obviously doesn't want me to have my happiness. God just wants me to be this broken lonely soul. I can't catch a break rob. I keep telling myself that things will get better but no things are always worse. I don't know what else I have to go through. How many times am I gonna get my heart broken. My dreams shattered and left in tears. I wish you were alive and next to me so that I can vent and cry and express what I'm going through. But your not . Your gone. I miss you friend.

Dear Rob,
Just when I thought life was worth living and just when I thought I finally found happiness, again it was bullshit. I miss you Rob. I wish you were here so I can vent to you. I miss you , I miss my baby , and just I miss the person I once was.i wish I was with you.one day I will be . When my time comes.love u friend

Dear rob,
I miss you friend. I wish you were alive . These days there's no such thing as real friends.

Dear rob,
Here I am again wishing my good friend was alive and near me. I got married. Of course Im sure you already know. I finally found someone that made me happy and loved me. Unfortunately this too did not last. Anyway I thought I'd vent .I miss you friend everyday. Sleep w the angels

Happy belated birthday my right hand. I miss you and think of you everyday Rob. Sleep with the angels friend

Soon..friend soon .fuck everyone

Dear rob,
Today it's one of those days where i remember you and the friendship i had with you. I miss you everyday friend. Rob if you can somehow help me can you please help me get out of this life im in? I gave up on life. I have nothing left. The only thing that can make me feel happy now is for me to be where you are. Hope with luck i see you soon.

Dear Rob,
Emptiness is all I'm feeling and nothing is what's on my mind. All I can say is I'm tired .I'm tired of this meaningless life. Nothing is left Rob nothing.whats there to look forward to what's left to keep hope or faith in a better life . I hope where u are it's better than where in at

Dear Rob,
Emptiness is all I'm feeling and nothing is what's on my mind

Dearest Rob,
I don't know where to begin. My heart is broken and in pain. My soul is dark and empty inside. Everything I thought I knew so very well turned out to be something else. I thought he loved me once soon a t time but I'm starving to believe that maybe it was all a lie. How could someone spend 5 years with a girl have baby with her, share his everyday with her even moving out of state with her, just like a light switch turn his feelings, his memories and her off completely wipe her out of his heart out of his life. It's as if he erased me out of his memory. Rob, I'm so confused don't know what to do or not do. Only thing I knew is that my heart hurts. And I'm empty inside.i wish you were alive to talk to me, and make me feel better and give me advice. Give me hug and sit here while I cried. But ur dead . So what do I do who do I talk to? I guess what I'm saying is .I'm in peaces n wish u were alive to help pick me up. I miss u so much rob.so much

Dear Rob, I miss u like crazy friend.

Dear Rob,
I wish you weren't dead. I feel so alone, empty, and sad. These are the times I miss u the most friend. Everytime I feel alone and sad I miss u like crazy because I can't help but reminisce the days when u were there to listen to me and my problems. You never judged me and I miss how u made me feel better.i don't know how much longer I can take this. Hopefully ,one day I'll be wherever u are and I'll be happy with u . Love u friend . Untill next time .sleep w the angels rob

There's nothing left Rob, nothing. No reason to smile no reason to have goals or plans for the future. Nothing to look forward to. My days are dreadful, I hate when I wake up in the morning and look around n realize I've lost everything and everyone I love. You, babies, Chris, my home, everything's gone. How do I keep a smile on my face when there's nothing to make me smile no reason. I could only cry from the intense sadness of grief and heartbreak. Murdered friend dead baby taken baby neglected by my boyfriend and thrown away like a worthless unwanted peace of nothing. I have no reason to smile or have faith that things will get better for me.they won't they only get worse and I only loose more n more as the time goes by. There's nothing left rob.nothing I wish u were here.till next time love ya

Rob, I've never felt so empty inside and so alone in this world. I feel like I've been thrown away unwanted and worthless. I've lost alot in these few years. You got murdered , my baby died , my other baby was taken from me by DCFS, and last but not least Chris threw me away as if I'm trash. I have no home no baby no family no friend and life. Nothing to look forward to .I wish u were alive I know if u were alive today, you would be here to make me feel better. I miss u Rob.everyday until next time .love ya

I miss you friend .days like this I wish u were alive .rest in peace rob

DEAREST ROB,
ANOTHER DREADFUL DAY HERE IN THIS WORLD. IT WOULDN'T BE SO DREADFUL IF YOU ARE ALIVE. GOOD I MISS YOU FRIEND. NO ONE I'VE MET CAN MEASURE UP TO THE TRUE FRIEND I HAD IN YOU.EVERYONES FAKE AROUND ME. NO ONES REAL OR LOYAL OR EVEN KNOW WHAT A REAL FRIEND IS THESE DAYS LET ALONE A LOYAL TRUSTED FRIEND. YOU WERE ONE OF A KIND.I HOPE EHEN MY TIME COMES WHEN I LEAVE THIS WORLD , I END UP WHEREVER YOU ARE,CUZ I MISS THAT COMFORT AND FEELING OF KNOWING IM NOT ALONE AND IM AROUND SOMEONE THAT TRULY CARES FOR ME. UNTIL THEN REST IN PEACE ROB.

I'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired Rob. I'm tired of stressing tired of crying tired of headaches tired of disappointment tired of being angry tired of being sad tired of feeling alone tired of being neglected backstabbed betrayed tired of being lost tired of drama tired of fighting tired of being depressed. Most of all I'm tired of living with this broken heart and broken soul.so what do I do when there's no one to turn to to make life feel ok.ur gone everyone I love I'd gone.nothi gs left.just emptyness.i need you friend.i really need you

Dearest Rob,
Time. Time is a trippy thing. Time can be long and at the same time short. It's been a long time since I've last laughed. I mean really laughed. Or been truly happy. Time is short now a days because it almost feels like nothing lasts long enough for me to reach my happiness. I don't think I'll get there . I'm pretty sure my psychic was right .. I'm cursed to have bad luck all my life. Everything I and everyone I love either have died or left me or given up loving me. Your dead, baby Kathryn's dead my dad's dead my baby Heather is gone and away to God knows where. Chris is not chris anymore.hes practically dead and so is his love for me. I've lost my home my family doesn't trust me, and I failed to build my own family. Time.......time is a motherfucker it's caused me dispair and heartache and tears and left me w a broken heart and a fucked up head. I just wish you were alive , at least I'd have you to run to and talk to when I feel alone and broken. But ur not .your dead.i wish I was too .I miss u Rob .sleep w the angels friend

Dearest Rob, sometimes I wonder if it's worth waiting around to see if life's gonna get better for me. Sometimes I feel like I'm really cursed with bad luck. Sometimes I get anxious and curious to know maybe where you're at wherever it is, would be better than where I'm at now
.only time.e will tell.i miss you friend.till next time.bye

Dear Rob, I miss you friend . I wish you were alive today cuz I've never felt so alone in this world .imiss u so much

Dear friend,
My mind is so messed up right now, I can't even find the words to express the way I'm feeling. One thing I can say is this is unbearing for me.im living in hell. I miss you rob.your the only guy I've ever met that never judged me.never changed on me.never turned on me.always treated me like a human being.its hard to trust anyone these days specially with my thoughts and personal feelings. I'd always have u to run to and vent . Now your dead , and I'm all alone. For a while I thought I found someone I can be myself with, but I guess I was wrong. He judges me, makes fun of me , talks behind my back, and I can't trust him.hes broken the trust.worst of all he never has my back.he belittles me with the people I'm fighting with and takes their side. I've never felt so worthless unwanted and unloved. That being said, I miss you friend.u we're one of a kind .r.i.p

DEAR ROB, I KEEP TELLING MY SELF ONE DAY ANY DAY NOW, I'LL MEET A FRIEND THAT S JUST LIKE YOU. LOYAL CARING ALWAYS THERE. IN ALL HONESTY NO ONE CAN COMPARE TO THE FRIENDSHIP I HAD WITH YOU.I MISS YOU FRIEND EVERYDAY I THINK OF YOU.

Dear friend, I miss you and think of you everyday Rob. I really do. Specially when I feel so alone. And sad. I'm starting to give up on my life .give up on hope. Give up on faith and give up trying to gain happyness fulfillment and no longer desire to wake up another day and have to live this dreadful life. I have nothing to look forward to and no longer have anyone to enjoy my days with. No one to talk to and no one to grow with. No one and nothing to have to myself and give me just an inch of hope of ever being happy .so now what friend? I wish you were alive today so you can sit and tell me everything will get better and that I'm not alone. Instead I keep writing on your memorial I made in memory of you. Everyday in hopes that writing out my thoughts and feelings here will somehow make me feel better but the truth is nothing helps the only thing that would help is impossible to have cuz your dead. Your dead and I'm alone.

DEAR FRIEND, I WISH YOU WERE STILL ALIVE AND HERE ON EARTH WITH ME. BECAUSE IM VERY MUCH ALONE RIGHT NOW. NOW MORE THAN EVER. I HAVE NO ONE TO TALK TO AND NO ONE THAT LISTENS. NO WHERE TO GO AND NO WHERE TO BE . NO ONE TO RUN TO AND EXPRESS MY SADNESS AND DISTRESS.NO OTHER WORDS I COULD EXPRESS. I WISH MY LIFE WASNT SO HORRIBLE AND UNBEARABLE , MAYBE ITS MY FAULT MY LIFE IS THE WAY IT IS TODAY. WHO KNOWS. SOMETIMES I FEEL I WAS BORN WITH A CURSE TO HAVE BAD LUCK MY ENTIRE LIFE. IVE LOST MY FAMILY, THEY DIDNT WANT ME AROUND BECAUSE I WAS EMBARRASSING. MY BEST FRIEND WAS SHOT AND KILLED . MY FIRST BABY WAS BORN ONLY TO DIE SHORTLY AFTER. MY FIANCE BROKE UP WITH ME AND DISAPEARED. AND YOUR DEAD TOO NOW. I SWEAR I FEEL LIKE IM CURSED TO STRUGGLE MY WHOLE LIFE NO FAMILY NO BABY NO HOME NO FRIEND.NOTHING NO ONE NO WHERE. ALL I HAVE IS THIS MONEY I GOT FROM UNEMPLOYMENT . BUT IM NOT HAPPY. I HAVE NO ONE TO SHARE MY MONEY WITH NO ONE TO ENJOY IT WITH AND NOTHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO. SOMETIMES I WISH I DIED INSTEAD OF YOU . BECAUSE YOU HAD EVERYTHING TO LIVE FOR.I CANT NAME ONE THING I CAN SAY I HAVE REASON OF LIVING FOR .NO HOPE NO FAITH NO MEANING.NOTHING LEFT. JUST AN EMPTY LONELY BROKEN SOUL. I MISS TALKING TO U AND VENTING.I GUESS WRITING MY THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS ON YOUR MEMORIAL PAGE HELPS A LITTLE.STILL I WOULD PREFER YOU BE ALIVE TO TALK TO ME AND MAKE ME FEEL BETTER. R.I.P ROB

I miss you and remember you every day friend.

Hi friend,
I don't know where to start. So I won't. My mind body n soul is tired. Miss u bye friend. Soon .

Dear Rob,
I miss you friend. There's no one left to talk to when I need to pour my dramatic life to. Sleep w the angels. Love you rob

It's my time

Soon I'll finally be happy and be there w u

Dear Rob, I watched your memorial video today. I miss you friend. I wish you were here

Dear Rob,
I miss you friend everyday I think of you and remember the days when I run to you for help wether someone said something or did something or even feeling down, you made it all better .you had my back. Who's got my back now? No one .I miss you dearly friend .

Hi.hey don't let no one get u down .keep your head up girl

Dear Rob,
It's gotta be better where you are cuz this life sucks. I miss you.always

DEAR ROB, SOMETIMES I WONDER WHERE YOU ARE , AND IF YOUR OK. ARE YOU AT PEACE? ARE YOUR RESTING? I MISS YOU FRIEND SO VERY MUCH. IT SUCKS NOT HAVING SOMEONE TO BE MYSELF AND TALK ABOUT ANYTHING I WANNA TALK ABOUT. IM NOT REALLY SURE WHAT ELSE TO SAY BUT IM MISSING YOU TODAY.

I remember that one song we used to do kareoke at Joe Vasquez house. Remember? Suzie q please play our love song. I miss you so much friend .I dont have anyone to talk to anymore. Miss u like crwzy

Dear friend, sometimes I wonder how it is like where ur at. I bet it's better than here. Anyway I miss you Rob.

Dear Rob,
Im impatiently waiting to be with you and finally find my happiness. Fuck this world Rob, it's empty . Nothing here for me. No reason to stay. Soon we will reunite my right hand friend .soon