Mommy, today is the day that I would have brought you five or six packs of gum for your birthday. If you were still here I would have gotten you 72 packs since you would be that special age.  I wish you were here to help celebrate mine as well.  You know we both were born this month and I know you would have seen to it that I had the very best birthday I could have. But anyway, since you couldnt be here with me, I went on and had a few drinks and now i feel so empty without you along side me.  I know you are resting in the arms of JESUS, and I know you are watching over me as my guardian angel.  I think you so much and I appreciate the love you gave me for so many years.  I wouldnt change a thing.  I just want you to know that I wouldnt have no god mother, step mother, any other mother there is other than you.  As, I sit here on your birthday, writing all of this to you, now I understand why I tell my kids to give me my flowers while Im alive.  But I know you know just whats going on in my life because lately Ive been having these recurring dreams with you. again, I say HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

I want to take out the time to just say happy birthday to you.  I miss you and today, is a very special day in my heart missing you.  I will always forwever treasure the special times we shared.  I really fell like you are in a better place.  I want you to know from this world, you havent missed anything.  The world is still in its sinful state full of evil and people are killing, robbing, and i dont have to worry about you being a victim.  So, Happy Happy Birthday To You! I would bring you some bullet grapes, but you cant have them.  I want you to be good today OK.  Continue to sing your songs by....I cant remember the artist name.   But I remember the songs in my head!.

Mommy, I remember when I would come to your apartment and you had it so hot in there and I would tell you, I cant come in here its toooo hot, I couldnt breath. so i would tell you i will clean up for you, if i could throw away, some of that junk in this place.  boy you, would get mad as heck. DONT CALL MY STUFF JUNK!. OH, GOSH MOMMY, I MISS THOSE DAYS!...I WOULD CLEAN YOUR APARTMENT NOW AND WOULDN'T CALL YOUR STUFF JUNK, I PROMISE YOU....i would do it in a heart beat.  i want to tell you how much, i valued the love you gave me.  I want to tell you.  I will tell you again.  I want you to understaznd how much I love and need you in my life.  I want to let you know, mommy, I miss you on your birthday.  I hope and pray that I will have to share those special times with you again.  Mommy, I want to clean your apartment.  

Hey, mommy, I remember when you would call me to take you to the grocery store and once we got there you only spent two or three dollars on candy and gum, and i would be so mad, you got me out of my bed for some dawn candy and gum.  You would sit in that front seat and give me this look like i better shut up and let you have your candy, then I would tell you, ok, Im not taking you to that store anymore to buy some dang on candy and junk, knowing the doctor told you not to eat that.  but the very next time , here we go again to get more.  oh, how i missed that time with you.  Mommy, you were my angel then and I know youre my angel now.  Oh, i love and miss you.

Mommy, I remember the times when you would call me and tell me to take you to Robert house to pick up some money, of course, you would share your winning with me. If you could see the smile on my face right this very minute, you would say I knew it.  Oh, mommy, you just dont know how much i missed those days.  Im so glad to have spent that time with you, even thou sometimes, mommy, I didnt want to get out of that bed.

Mommy, I remember the times when you would call me and say you want to go to TJMax, and I would say, mommy, I dont have any money, and you would always be ready to give me money just to go with you.  Oh, how I miss those times and yes that money, I know you say, I always spent your money, and we would laugh and go on up that expressway. Money, you were the best.  This is why, I dont have many friends, because i hung with my mommy. I will get to do that again.  How wonder you were to give me and spoil me to have the finer things out of life.