A poem for my Momma....
O.K. here is a poem I wrote for my mom and dealing with her passing on to the other side. I hope it helps some people if they are going thru the same trouble. And I hope you like it. If you do I would really appreciate it if you checked the like button. It is entitled
"Sometimes".
When your soul is feeling lost in deep emotions. And it feels like your inner conscious is about to break into little pieces. Knowing inside your mind that everything that follows is gonna be bad. The adult persona inside you,won't let your true emotions come out. So now your locked in this inner battle.With your emotions in one corner and self pride in the other. Then all the sudden.Your standing there screaming,like a child that just lost there first pet. To all your family and friends it seems like its just in vain. But inside your soul you know it's a much greater pain. For now you let them know its that thing we call death. It just took your best friend"Your Mother" and it's a new kind of pain that hurts deep inside your soul.
So now you make a promise to ones self. This pain that runs deep inside your body and mind. Is leaving you feeling all empty inside. So your promise is, to keep all your feelings to yourself and not letting anyone in. All bottled up and not wanting share any kind of emotion. Not wanting to let anyone see you cry. Your soul and heart feel like there all empty and lost. Well you think to yourself,"I've never felt so alone". So you tell yourself to be stand strong and be tough. But once you get close. To where all previously passed loved ones are buried. The tears begin to fall and there is no holding back. They stream down freely on both sides of your cheeks. You stare out the window hoping no one has seen you cry. Holding them back is a terrible feet. Only when you get there and see that photo. There is no stopping them now, because there flowing like a river. So now you take your seat, and your body starts to shiver. But as you sit there you see almost everyone is in tears. You now don't feel so alone and let them fall freely.
For now your not feeling all alone, with these memory's and emotions .
This world doesn't feel like a dark cruel place. In which you once thought it was just a few minutes ago. This feeling runs through your soul giving it peace of mind. Falling to your knees inside your mind. And asking God to take care of her until I get there. Knowing inside that He has all ready done all of that. He gently lifts, this large amount of pain from your heart. He lets her talk to her one last time. She softly whispers "Don't cry for me son, I am in good hands. I want you to be happy" she says with that loving smile upon her face. She vanish's in that pail Winter's morning.
Now you tell your self,she is no longer in pain. You remember when you just seen her. She had all ten toes and fingers,which she had lost years before. When the devil tried to take her from us 3 kids. But God brought her back to us. It was a long and hard each day she was in that comma. 9 months later she came back to us. Seeing that light and not going to the other side. So knowing that in mind,body,and spirit set my soul at ease.Knowing she is with loved ones in that new place she went. A shinning light streams down from the Heavens above. Letting your soul and mind know it can smile,because she loves you. It makes your soul feel free and safe. For now giving ones self to fall upon Gods Grace. Telling yourself deep inside your soul don't be afraid of that "Bright White Light". She whispers in your ear again. Telling you, she will be here for you when it becomes your turn in flight.
Miss ya Momma,
Love ya Uriah