- 33 years old
- Date of birth: Jan 28, 1981
- Date of passing: Sep 20, 2014
|Let the memory of Roy be with us forever|
"We will always miss u Roy today we celebrate my nanas bday were meeting up here at Golden coral and my grandma told me I remember when Roy proposed to Antoinette on my day I told her Roy is watching all of us and smiling down like my prima his wife said his cancer free and we will all see each other again"
"1yr ago today September 20th, I felt one of the worse wounds to my heart, as I awoke today, the realization seem all to real agian , and for an instant I had forgotten that Roy was gone my mind wondered off thinking Roy was just on a long vacation with his parents, however seeing my husbands remains , sadly brought me back to that moment and realization that he would never physically be with us, but no matter how long time passes by , every were I turn there is a sense of his presence , Images start to flash before my eyes at unexpected moments. , and its almost as I began to suffer (post-traumatic stress disorder, over the last few days knowing this day would come and more then ever i began to weep, when I pass roys chemo or oncologist or walking into an emergency room , I would shudder and lose my breath and look away quickly, When it came time to pick up Roys ashes, I felt anxious and panicked. As I drove to pick up Roys ashes I was in a state of suspended disbelief over what I was doing. When the container holding his ashes was placed in my arms , a sense of calm came over me because I was taking my husband home. I couldn't believe that these ashes contained my husband remains, but I was relieved that I could hold him again , as I did moments before and after his passing , I have been scared to face today, I feel sense of dagavou, every hour that passes by , brings back memories of things that were being done, things that were being said, family, friends gathering at our home, to see him once again , now 1 yr later, my sense of lost has become all to real again, the heartache is worse then before, I know in my heart that he is physically gone , but his soul ,his heart , his memories, his unconditional love is forever with me and our children, Roy was such a loving , caring person , who loved beyond anyone I knew, he was a fighter and never let his sickness change who he was , one in a million, and now a Very Precious Angel, good night my sweet husband, its time we let you rest in peace, I love ❤ you so very much miss you more then ever, till we meet agian , Papi chulo n Chula against the world!!!!"
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