I was really dreading my brothers funeral, but I shouldn't have, although it was obviously a very sad occasion the sheer volume of family and friends that attended was overwhelming.
I hope I did my brother proud, it was very difficult to pick the right songs for him, but I know I made the right choices, nobody would have known that it was a council funeral, he had the very best funeral parlour, a lovely coffin, the only thing missing was hymns, and that didn't matter he didn't like them anyway.
There were some lovely floral tributes and cards, and I dont think there was more than 5 empty chairs the church was filled to the brim.
The majority of Roys friends also attended his wake, filling out the local pub that is usually pretty empty, again this is testimony to the impact he had to all those around him that loved him.
I don't think it has hit me yet though, not really, you have left behind a lot of family and friends that will always miss you, and still not knowing how you died is a crippling feeling.
I hope that you are with Mum and Dad now and little Mckenzie bless his little heart, Danielle dreamt of him last night and somebody was telling her he was alright she saw him playing with a dog.
I am coming to see a medium, I think I will wait until your birthday, and for you to gain strength in spirit, I really truelly hope you are at peace now, which is something you found hard here. Love you lots hun xxxx
