I miss you son, more than words can say. I feel alone as I 6 struggle to get through each day. I know you are no longer in the grips of addiction and are free from pain, knowing that I will see you again when my time comes keeps me alive. I always tell your nieces and nephews how wonderful you were. I love you son

Ryan here it is another heavenly birthday for you. I know you have never left my side, you always leave signs letting me know your close, this has really been a tough year for me health wise, I know you give me the strength to continue fighting. I finally fought my addiction battle and now I continue praying and I put my life in God's hands, God is great. Tell Amanda I love her, tell mom and dad I miss and love them so much. Happy Birthday my forever 29, heavenly son. I love you son. MOM

Babyboy how the time flies, but losing you time has stood still. I can remember everything about that day. I loved you so much and still do,and always will. I know you're happy and I know babygirl Amanda is right beside you and the pain and suffering of ADDICTION is gone and you bith are smiling down and telling me mom, you got this be able to find happiness ,stop dwelling in the past and dream of the day we're all together again. Ryan Addam Smith you were Born Free and getting your Second Chance.                Love always, mom

Ryan, you would be proud at how all your nieces and nephews talk about uncle Ryan. You didnt get the chance to meet them all but ,Jackie, Riley, JD, Kimmi, Ryan, Dameon and Brianna send their love to the Heaven above

I miss you each and every moment my son, I hear your favorite music and I get a tear on my cheek, I see food you enjoyed and I smile, I watch a movie we all enjoyed and remember the arguments we had about the actors. Every day there are constant reminders of you Ryan and our family isn't the same without you and so many people miss and love you

Missing you everyday. Your presence is felt. Love you bro

Can't sleep...I have these nights where I just miss u so much I can't sleep....I miss u babe!

I LOBE U! Miss u more than I can almost handle sometimes!!

I love and miss you so much babe

Bro, I love you. I think about you every day. Before work, I grab my necklace to take you with me. I put on rock music and we get our jam on before I start my long days. Through my stressful time in school after you passed I only kept on to make you proud. I love you. I cant believe you are "gone". It breaks my heart everyday. I just stay strong because I knew you hated when I cried over you. Love you and miss you deeply

Let's go back to 2009..…i was slammed at Castaways and the door swings open and in walked three young dudes I've never met! I had only been living in Astor for a half a year so I hadn't met everyone just yet! So first walked in Chris Spence smiling like he was the hottest thing in the bar B-) ,then next was Lloyd Spence just as goofy as ever and last BAM 6'4 bright blue eyes and the nicest biggest warmest smile YOU! Ya'll went to the deck and requested me! Excited I took my time getting to u boys and when I did Chris wasted no time lol a and you order a pitcher of beer and said "and mama if u want to give us free shots that's OK and it will help your tip beautiful" As I walked off I heard Chris say he was going to hit "that" tonight (ya right) After god knows how many free shots thanks to your good looks n personality y'all get up to leave and u hand me your number and tell me ur trailer isn't far from my house and that I should walk down and watch basketball sometime! So I did but soon came to learn that your heart belonged to Erin and try as I might you just didn't fall in love with me like I did u! Then only à few short months later u walked to my house! "Mama, I'm moving back to Michigan!" WHAAAAATTTTT! I was already so in love but I encourage you to chase your heart and go to her (Erin). The saying goes " if you love someone let them go and if they come back it was mmeant to be" YOU CAME BACK!!! I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU MOOSE!!