Being the proud mother of 2 beautiful young girls, i never thought i'd have a little boy, and when i cought pregnant for a third time, all i could do was hope for a little boy, and on the 19th of march 1992 my prayers were answered, when i gave birth to a beautiful baby boy, my perfect blue eyed boy ryan joseph turner. He was always a mommy's boy, always making sure i was happy and never alone, he'd stay in on a friday night and spend time with his mom, but on the 29th of december 2010, my worst nightmare came to life, being a mom of 4 now, my youngest, amy and oldest, gemma came running in to my bedroom screaming, trying to wake my Husband Steve, and I saying 'ryan's not breathing!!!', then panic set in, and steve ran to ryans side, trying to ressusitate him while we was waiting for the ambulance, they was here within 9 just minutes, and it took 15 minutes, before they came to me and told me that they have a pulse, the relief we felt was unreal, he might just be okay. at 4.45 am on the morning of the 29th of december, we arrived at the hospital, my youngest daughter and I, shortly after steve arrived.
at 05.30 am, a nurse came to tell us that there was a bleed to the brain, but to what extent they didnt know, they were keeping him under sedation and he was in the critical care unit, and she showed us the way to critical care, all of ryans friends gathered in the corridoors waiting for some news, and at 2.15pm on the 29th the news we had been dreading was told ' the bleed was to severe, there is nothing we can do' everyone fell silent, then there was the screams, the crying of his name, the tears, not a dry eye in sight, all we could do was wait, so we did, everybody said their goodbyes and their last words, and we stayed over night, me, my husband, my eldest and my youngest amy, my other daughter had to leave to be with her own children, they both didnt yet understand,and two of ryans close friends stayed too, kieren and luke, although people dropped in throughout the night, the next morning ryans other sister lisa arrived to say goodbye, the nurses and doctors carried out 2 more brain stem tests, but there was nothing, no activity, ryan was gone, so at 2.14pm on the 30th of december 2010 the life support machine was turned off, but ryan, being mommy's little soldier, battled on and got to 100 heartbeats all by hismelf, we all said goodbye as the beats decreased, and at 2.16pm ryan was gone, and all we had left were the memories he left behind. We all love and miss him,and would do anything to bring him back, but he is with us always. Reast Easy In Paradise Ryan Joseph Turner, I Love You Son. xxxxxx