Red Sweet Love,

     I miss you!! I love you so much!! I am having a baby! Anthony is good to me. I feel a spark of hope in my life today. Although I still think of us I have to remember that is gone as far as this human life. Ed Sheeran is a singer and the first time I saw him I dropped to my knees bc you i saw that day. I guess my heart just misses you that much. I wonder what you are up to and how it is there haha I wonder if you know I still think of you every day!!!! What i wouldn't give to feel your warm embrace. I love you just as I always have and missing you is a pain i still feel. Let me know your still with me my love. I love you FOREVER!!!!
                  
                      Love Always,
                          Your Trenna

Red,

  I been thinking about you today. Kind of a hard moment. Really wish you could hug me, my heart is heavy. I wanna change so many things and I can't FUCK!! Wish I could just walk away from it all and from everything!!!! I just feel like nothing is gonna ever be ok and I accept that the pain of life is just the card I was given, Heart ache and struggle, Lostness and emptiness!!! My memories of you give me some sort of comfort and I will be up to see you next year ok!! Think of me then and leave me a sign I'LL be looking for you!
    
        I LOVE YOU I MISS YOU IT HURTS!!
                  Love Your Trenna

Here I am....Its been so many years!!! I am better these days, still miss you though!!! I'd like to think there is such thing as moving forward, but all I really can say is I can catch my breath a little easier and the bad moments aren't as crippling......I'd like to believe I am healed, but what that description would be may be only mine.....I've had to get it together cause really I still have to be here.....I love you Red still as much and more as I always have and will!!! Your mom thanks me for creating this for you and to hear from her I felt was a sign from you that you are still with me. She is sweet and has the picture of you that I took last as her profile pic, made me feel good she has it of you, def such a good pic...I will write more soon just wanted to talk, I miss you so much still and I love you more then you could understand......<3 love your Trenna

Red,
  Hey it's your Trenna had to tell you I Love You it's rough right now and you are sorely missed!!!

         Love Always,

        Your Trenna Forever

i miss you so fucking much i cant stand it!

Red sweetheart, words could never speak my truth in what you mean to me!!! It's hard because I'll never be the same! I'm still angry and your death is not real to me. I know this is not healthy but it's honest. I keep you alive with me in this world forever my love for your love for me consumes my soul and it will live beyond this world into the after life as it is before this human life that I loved you! Let me know your with me plz love I need you to. Love Trenna