hi my baby boy , you have been doing your rounds alot lately we all love seeing you and hearing the songs you keep putting in our heads lol i saw fatman today he said that him and amanda miss you loads and that you have been to theres ,hope you have popped in on big ben cuz hes waiting nanny sed she thinks you were with her last night cuz she fell out of the bed but woke up b4 she hit the floor so she thinks you were there to catch her , we are all in a mess samuel and i know its not what you want from us but ts so hard to get anywere cuz we miss you so much , bet u know that x we say we are cumin to see your beautiful garden now cuz we know that you are around us all he time  and that dose gve us some comfort to know that , dont forget u have darts tonight with your dad make sure you kick his butt lol rite better let you go if not i will be giving you earache but i love you samuel 4eva and eva p.s hope you have a lovely new girl up there cuz you deserve it xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

hi my baby boy ,omg i dont know where to start ,the tears are falling so much as i write this to you, i want the time to go bk 12 weeks so i can have you bk here with me samuel i cant go on with out you my baby life isnt the same and never will be when you moved on you took part of me with you and that can never be replaced if i only had the chance to hold you in my arms once more so i could tell you that i love you so much ,i should of been able to protect you from everything but i let you down and i cant cope with that im your mum im ment to be there always and ment to go b4 u  its not ment to be this way plz forgive me my beautifull angel , when you left you left so many broken hearts , but i know that you are happy now as you have told us yourself so i have to let you be and move on with your new life just always remember i love you with all my heart samuel and that will never,never,ever change xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx your loving mum xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I remember the day i found out i was havin you auntie diana done the test and there it was you were comin, we loved you from that day on,all the sickness that came with it was worth it ,cuz on the 29th april 1991 you entered our world our baby boy the first grandson ,nephew,great grandson born on your great grandads birthday ,you were also born to a big sister nabby as u call her she loved you wanted to do everything for you ,as you grew together the bond got stronger,stronger people used to say you would think that they were twins how close they are that never changed it just got stronger .Then came school which when you was little you liked it as dad would take you both and put u over the wall as we only lived across the rd ,then came big school thats when you both started not going lol well telling me you were going but never did you were  like 2 ps in a pod ,them days went you left school and started going around with all your friends you both had different ones but also you had friends together which you would all hang about with dad and me were so proud of you 2 you are both so loving and carin . Then when you was 18 you met lilz who you loved with all your heart in the august then in the november nabby and micky got together bit of help from lilz and a push from me lol u were so happy nabby and micky gave you 2 beautifull nephews Harley,Henley. this was 2years later thou lol you loved them boys and they loved there uncle samuel ,But then things started going wrong for you with lilz and this year on the 24th may 2013 you deicided it was time to move on and thats what you did cuz you know you always had and got  what you wanted ,but it wasnt what we wanted for you my boyo , but i know you r happy now and thats all that matters ,but just remember we loved you b4 u were born and we will keep on lovin you , my angle in the skys xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxmumxxxxxdad xxxxxxxx