My dear Scott,
It was your birthday yesterday and I thought about you all day. I still think about you everyday whether it's your birthday or not. It has been almost 7 years since you passed away and I still can't get over you. My love for you was so intense. I will never love any other man like I loved you. I never cheated on you and I know you thought that before you passed away, I just will never know why you thought that. I thought I showed you in some little way everyday that I loved you. You had so many issues at the end that you were dealing with, I just never thought your life would end. Why did you leave me like that? I have struggled everyday without you. I still need you in my life...but I will never have you again and that makes me so very sad. I love you dear....I know you don't celebrate birthdays anymore, but we always think of you on your birthday . That is Katie, Odessa for sure. Mariano doesn't remember his Papa very much because he was so little when you passed away. Doug...I going to take a guess and say that he thinks about you too. I think about you everyday so I will never miss your birthday . I love you with more than words can say. I can't even start a new life because my love for you is so strong.

Merry Christmas my dear Scott. I miss you as much today as the day that you went to heaven. I think about you every single day. I think about the things you used to say, the things you used to do and how you would make me laugh. You were the best husband to me. I will never love anyone the way I loved you. It doesn't get easier as the years pass, it is just a different year...but I miss you the same. I love you with all my heart and soul, That will never change.

My dear Scott, I am a day late writing this to you, but I had Christmas with Doug and his family yesterday. Doug is having a very hard time dealing with your passing. I did not know this until I seen him yesterday. He is not over your passing and he said he never will be. I never will be either dear. He told his kids yesterday how much you loved the kids. He loved you so much dear, we all did...I only wish you knew in your heart that so many people loved and cared about you. I still cannot deal with your death, I am so lonely without you. You were my life, we spent every day together and I miss you so much. The only thing I wish for ever is I wish I could bring you back to me. I know I can't but I want to so bad. Katie loved you so much too. Odessa still talks about you everyday almost. She talks about how you showed her stuff about birds and she will not feed the birds at her house because she told her Dad that she used to do that with "Papa" and she doesn't want to do it anymore because she is not doing it with "Papa". It has been 3 years and it still feels like it was yesterday. I love you dear with my whole heart...I always did and I always will. I miss you dear.

Happy Birthday my dear Scott. I miss you so much. I don't care how many years have passed, it seems like just yesterday that the policemen were at my door. Sometimes I still don't believe that you are gone. Some days I wish you would walk right through that door and say " Hi dear, I'm home". I do hope you have a wonderful way of going through everyday...no more suffering with pain...no more thinking back of your childhood and how you suffered then at the hands of Dave. A man you thought was your father for all those years and the abuse you suffered at the hands of that awful person. I wanted to tell you that Buddy still misses his papa, he still remembers you when I say your name. Odessa talks about you a lot and she misses her papa. I am sure you do not celebrate birthdays in heaven, but please know dear that I am thinking about you today and not just because it's your birthday, I think about you everyday. I love you dear and I always will. I just hope you are there to greet me when it's my turn to go to heaven. I hope you are at peace now and very happy! I love you with all my heary.

Happy Birthday my dear Scott. I miss you so much. I don't care how many years have passed, it seems like just yesterday that the policemen were at my door. Sometimes I still don't believe that you are gone. Some days I wish you would walk right through that door and say " Hi dear, I'm home". I do hope you have a wonderful way of going through everyday...no more suffering with pain...no more thinking back of your childhood and how you suffered then at the hands of Dave. A man you thought was your father for all those years and the abuse you suffered at the hands of that awful person. I wanted to tell you that Buddy still misses his papa, he still remembers you when I say your name. Odessa talks about you a lot and she misses her papa. I am sure you do not celebrate birthdays in heaven, but please know dear that I am thinking about you today and not just because it's your birthday, I think about you everyday. I love you dear and I always will. I just hope you are there to greet me when it's my turn to go to heaven. I hope you are at peace now and very happy! I love you with all my heary.

We all love and miss you so very much! It would have been your 56th Birthday a few days ago, it's almost gut wrenching to see how sad Mom still is with your passing. Words can never describe our heartbreak with your untimely death. Odessa talks about PaPa Scott at least every other day! With hope In my heart that you went someplace better than this shitty life, that's how I stay positive. I love you & rest peacefully!

Happy Birthday Dear.....I know I am a day late writing this to you, but I thought about you all day yesterday. I even bought a cake because that what I always did for you on your Birthday and I always made you make a wish. Well, dear I don't know if your wishes ever came true, but my wish is that you were still here with me on earth. I know it was hard to live here on earth, but we always had each other and I really don't think a lot of marriages have the love that we had for each other. I miss you so much, you not only were my husband but you were my best friend. I only had you to count on and to share this life with. It is really hard to live without you, my life is so lonely. I have never lived alone before and believe me...I do not like it! I will see you one day and I can't wait. The day we are together again will be the happiest day of my life! I love you and I always will. "Happy Birthday" my dear. Love, Ann

Happy Birthday Dear.....I know I am a day late writing this to you, but I thought about you all day yesterday. I even bought a cake because that what I always did for you on your Birthday and I always made you make a wish. Well, dear I don't know if your wishes ever came true, but my wish is that you were still here with me on earth. I know it was hard to live here on earth, but we always had each other and I really don't think a lot of marriages have the love that we had for each other. I miss you so much, you not only were my husband but you were my best friend. I only had you to count on and to share this life with. It is really hard to live without you, my life is so lonely. I have never lived alone before and believe me...I do not like it! I will see you one day and I can't wait. The day we are together again will be the happiest day of my life! I love you and I always will. "Happy Birthday" my dear. Love, Ann

My dearest Scott, today was a day that we used to celebrate the day that you were born. I wish you were still here celebrating with me, having your favorite cake, blowing out that candle and making that wish...I miss you more than words can say. Even though you are not here on earth with me, I hope you are in heaven celebrating what a better life that you have now, sometimes life on earth is so hard, but I know in my heart you are happy where you are now and that is all I ever wanted for you ...is just that you are happy. So on this special day please know that I will always celebrate this special day, the day of your birth because I love you, always have, always will, even though we are not together now, I know we will be again and until then, be happy and know that I love you with all my heart.

My Dear Scott, I sit here just another day missing you so very much...words can't even express my pain since youv'e been gone. You left me so suddenly and I just sometimes can't believe it's true until I wake yet another day without you. You are my forever love and nothing will ever change that, not even death. You knew I loved you more than anything in this world and I was there with you no matter what. I never ever expected for you to leave me this soon, I so just wanted to grow old with you so we could have made fun of each others wrinkles and helped each other when we were sick, but I don't have you anymore and I still can't get used to that. I wish I knew what happened to you on that day, but I guess your job was done on earth and that is why you were taken from me and Buddy, the kids and grandkids and others who loved you and believe me Scott, you were loved by many. I miss you and I will love you with my whole heart for eternity.

I miss you Scott and nothing is going to change it or make it feel any better. We all wish you were here to be in our lives and i know the kids miss you, i miss knowing what you would have been able to teach them about hunting, fishing, and birds. This makes me feel very sad. You were a wonderful man just misunderstood by many. I got to see the true you because we shared the same battle every day. There aren't words to express how much I love you I wish I could have told you more!