In my dreams, you are alive and well

Precious child, precious child

In my mind, I see you clear as a bell

Precious child, precious child

In my soul, there is a hole

That can never be filled

But in my heart, there is hope

'Cause you are with me still

In my heart, you live on

Always there never gone

Precious child, you left too soon

Tho' it may be true that we're apart

You will live forever... in my heart

In my plans, I was the first to leave

Precious child, precious child

But in this world, I was left here to grieve

Precious child, my precious child

In my soul, there is a hole

That can never be filled

But in my heart there is hope

And you are with me still

In my heart you live on

Always there, never gone

Precious child, you left too soon,

Tho' it may be true that we're apart

You will live forever... in my heart

God knows I want to hold you,

See you, touch you

And maybe there's a heaven

And someday I will again

Please know you are not forgotten until then

In my heart you live on

Always there never gone

Precious child, you left too soon

Tho' it may be true that we're apart

You will live forever... in my heart

You would take and go through the cabinets and take all the cans out and take the labels off and when you passed I didnt know what food was what we put those up.  Your first birthdy your nana and pa got you a pink cake and it stained your face and I got so mad because I could not get it off your face.  You were the light of my life and gone way to soon.  You were my twin and went to heaven.  You loved your brothers to death as they love you unconditional.  The day that you went to Heaven I think it was just so unreal it was like a big dream.  Mama tryed everything she had to keep you with me I did not want to let you go and I never thought for a second that would be your last time at home with us.  It was a nightmare something I will never get over.  When we went to the hospital things did not go as I planned because I was expecting you to come home with us and they would not let you, you looked like an angel laying in the bed at the hospital and it was angels all around you and us.  I didnt know at the time you were lended to me and I didnt know for how long or why God would let that happen and God has made me realize I am very thankful for the 22 months I got to love you and hold you and kiss you and just be the best mother I could be to you.  I am thankful I got to have you as my daughter you were such an amazing beautiful little girl. You may be gone from us but you always in my heart and on my mind I dont leave you out in anything I do I always get stuff in memory of you or has your name or keep your stuff out.  I would love to have you here but I will see you again and I dont know when.  I love you and miss you til death.  Mommy loves your for eternity RIP SKYLAR MARIE WILKINS 7-20-2009- 05-25-2011

When I found out I was pregnant I was so excited and scared at the same time.  The more I waited the more excited I got.  You were a angel before you got here the day I had my ultrasound done and they told me the sex of you.  I told them please if its another boy please dont tell me lol and the Nurse said no you are having a Girl and I was so Happy.  I started crying I had your 2 wonderful brothers but God knew I wanted a girl so bad.  I started shopping for you the moment I left the ultrasound because you were the only girl I had and I could buy you the cutest stuff.  The day we went into the hospital to have you I was scared because the doctors told me that you were going to have Down Syndrome and if you did I would have delt with it but when you got here all the doctors said you were a healthy baby girl with no complications.  I could not stop holding you in my arms you slept with me in the hospital bed you were just the spitting image of mommy and daddy.  You got to go to so many places the first place you went was walmart which was a place you loved the older you got.  You got to go to the lake, beach, lots of shopping, the motel to swim a little bit of everywhere.  I miss those trips with you so much.  You know mama had started letting you get on the toilet and you looked at me and bb one day and took the toilet paper and said mine and we died laughing because we were not expecting you to say that it was so funny.  I remember the day that you looked at your daddy so sweet and innocent and twidle your fingers and took the biggest candle we had and threw it upside his head oh you were a trip you looked at him with mama look alike eyes and baterd them at him like I didnt do anything.  You would throw your ba ba at everyone.  I remember when you started throwing your temper tantrums oh they were horrible but funny because you would beat your head on the floor look at everyone to see if they were watching you and if we were you would stop.  I got you to start dancing and you danced so good and you would drop it to the floor and shake your booty.  I miss you so bad.  You would take and look at me and hit me on my butt and say mama big butt then look at yours.  You were always ready to go somewhere you would have your shoes on and be at the door to go.