School lets out this Thursday and I thought you'd like to know that I'm going to DisneyWorld for the first time. I miss you a lot and I really hope your summer is phenomenal in Heaven! Say hi to Zoey for me!

I haven't been keeping up on this thing lately but things have been getting better. I still miss you times gazillion and I wish you were here, but it's much easier now that we've gotten closure. It still hurts, but my heart is healing. Anyways...YOU'RE FIFTEEN GIRLY! I wish you were here, it still hurts, but you're freaking fifteen years old!

Today is October 21st and we all cried so much. I didn't get out of bed until 1 o'clock today because it was too depressing. You seriously should've never went swimming that day but I don't care because I love you too much and I know that if you had a choice you wouldn't have died. We all miss you and I apologize for not going to see you today but it was too hard.

OMG you're fourteen! You would've loved today. At lunch today at school, everyone sang happy birthday to you. You're officially 14! I remember how much you wanted to be 14 and now you are! I visited you and talked to you, and I apologize that I didn't get you anything. It hurts sooo much, Sophie, that you're not here. I cried so much today and I cry every day. You were really wayyyy too young. I also went to the lake today with Ellie and Mia and we all played in the lake. We pretended you were there too.

Merry Christmas, Sophie! I'm seriously crying right now because Christmas was your favorite time of the year and you can't be here right now to celebrate with your brother, sisters, mom, and dad. I really miss and love you and even though you're not here I left a brand new phone case by your tombstone (The one you really wanted with the rhinestone leopord print). I visited you today and sang Christmas songs. I really freaking love you Sophs.

Hey Sophie, I'm leaving for my grandparents in an hour for thanksgiving dinner. I just wanted to leave a quick note saying how much I freaking love you girl and I hope you get the drumstick in Heaven. LOL I remember how much you loved the drumsticks. I'm crying just writing this but I thought you needed a reminder of how much everyone loves and misses you. I really need you right now because usually on thanksgiving we'd text while I was in the car for five hours waiting to get to my grandparents.

On the morning of October 21st, 2011, Sophie ran down with her brother for an early swim. While she was out there she must've gone to far in while her brother was on the beach because she couldn't tread water anymore and too much water was in her eyes and mouth. She sadly drowned and we miss her a lot.

Sophie was probably the most awesome girl you could ever meet. She was sweet, kind, funny, smart, beautiful, and lovable. She was also my best friend. She always had this amazing smile on her face that was so contagious you could call it the flu. She loved swimming, especially in the lake beside her house. We'd always go swimming and pretend we were stranded on an island, or that we were mermaids (Call us dorks, but it was fun). Now, I really miss those days. It's still super hard to deal with your death, Sophs, but I know that you're up there playing with all of these super cool people and swimming in Heaven's lake.