Hey Granny!
Well, here we are again a year later. Looking back on my tributes to you the last few years, I set the bar quite high for myself haha, so I am under pressure to deliver something beautiful again!
How is it going in heaven? What exactly do you do all day?
Remember that time when I fell asleep at the wheel when driving next to a cliff in Yosemite? I am sure you do. Maybe that was you who woke me up. Thanks for that. It’s nice to be alive still, although I am certainly not opposed to seeing you again soon.
When I think of you Granny, I think of love, warmth, hospitality, generosity, humor, selflessness, massages, tuna melts, canned pears, baseball, tennis, fish n’ chips, ramen, fried chicken, soy sauce, rice cookers, wax hands, piano recitals, Star Spangled Banner, laughter, Christmas, and so much more.
It’s funny…sometimes I have dreams about you. And sometimes we get to have conversations. Honestly, I can’t remember what those dreams were about. But it’s nice to wake up feeling like I got to hang out with you again. It’s a weird thing that I can get the feeling of being with you through a dream. That’s the best I can consciously get right now, so I will take it.
Tonight I watched a wrestling show. Thanks for letting me watch wrestling, even though my parents never allowed it.
Granny…thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
Guess what I will do this week? Make eggs and rice. You knew that. Heck, I may even make a tuna melt. And put eggs and rice inside of it. And then put it all in a bowl of ramen. And add some pears. And put fish n’ chips on top. No, that’d be excessive.
Alright Granny, clearly I am beginning to lose my mind. So…I am going to wrap this up.
Granny, will you please continue to stay close by my side as I walk this planet as Connor? Will you give me a gentle knock upside the head when I am going astray? Will you deliver those curious clues when I am on the right path? Will you please guide me to becoming wise, to doing all the work my soul came here to do this time around? Can you please ask God if you can be my grandmother again? I’d really like that. Can you please help me orchestrate a beautiful life? I need your help, I need your love, I need your care, I need your presence…still. And I always will.
Granny, when I pass, I hope people are able to say that I loved them as much as you did. I hope my love makes a timeless impact in the heart of other human beings, like your love did. I hit the frickin’ grandmother jackpot with you.
I would say “I want you to know…” but you already told me that you know. Nevertheless, I want you to know that I love you. I love you Granny. I absolutely love you. I love you. I love you. I love you.
I can genuinely say that my life has been beautiful, and you are a huge huge reason why. Grow up jaded I did not. Grew up spoiled I did haha. Thank you for that. I seriously owe you one.
I am lucky. Blessed. Beyond all comprehension.
Granny, let’s play baseball in heaven. Let’s eat ramen and watch tennis. Let’s sing the Star Spangled Banner. Let’s make stupid jokes together. Let’s ask everyone in heaven about the stories of their human lives. Let’s make everyone a steaming hot pot of rice. Let’s team up as angels and help guide other humans through the planet.
I don’t know how the universe works. And I don’t know why we ended up in each other’s life. But god damn, I am not complaining. I had it real good with you.
I think I have a few big prayers that I need your help with. Please Granny, help me make the absolute most of this life that I have been gifted. Help me live up to my potential. Just help me to carry out my unique role in the universe. And help me love. Help me love as big as you did. Help me radiate a palpable warmth to every human that stumbles into my life. Service and love, Granny. That’s all. That’s what you did for me, and that’s what I am asking your help with as I move into my 32nd year of life and beyond. Can you believe that I turn 32 years in 2 months? I am almost as old as you now!!! Haha just kidding.
Known by some as Suzuko Nakai Alves. Granny Sue. Big Sue. Boss.
Known to me as Granny. The one, the only Granny. The best frickin' Granny that ever walked this Earth.
I love you.
Here’s to our continued journey together, in this life and our next lives.
- Connor