Dear 
I had to sit down and write and let you know what is on my heart,

I last told you about robin I was mistaken but i love her just the same. I thank God for her and her conviction on Marriage Vows and I am proud of her on her stand. but she is still my daughter and I will always need her

Dear I am hurting really bad by being hurt by Peggy I have never been hurt this bad in my whole life The hurt goes very deep and I at one point thought about taken my life (and the thought is still in my mind) I can't go on like I am going I hurt to bad I can't take my mind off of her everywhere I look she is always there wheather it on the computer, The phone, or just staring out into space I see her face, even in my dreams.

People will tell me i am crazy and maybe so. That I should go on a dating service and find someone else, I don't even have a heart to do that. It brings back to much memories of her, I hurt to the point that I stay in my bedroom in bed and just cry my heart out and just stare out into space and my mind on Peggy when Renee or the others come around I put on a good face and try not to let them know how hurt I am. I don't eat much or drink enough fluids, I am so hurt I don't want to.

Dear this is going to sound crazy even to you, I don't care how much I was hurt or what Dear I am still in love with Peggy I love her so much and I wish that God could work a miracle and bring her back, she probily doesn't  even no how much that I am hurt even to the point that I had to be place in the hospital for 2 weeks. I love her and it hurts right now talking about her I want to cry and cry till there is no more tears. Since she has block me out I wish someone could convey to her just how much I love her and care for her.

I wish people could understand what I am feeling down deep in my heart and why I am hurting so bad? I am not happy and not enjoying life as I should I hear songs and that brings back memories. She is probly having fun and not thinking about me or the love we had together, and wished I was dead, that is alright, I will go on loving her and wishing we were together again

I will go on living a life of lonelyness and crying for you to come back. PEGGY I LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS WILL ONLY YOU CAN MAKE ME HAPPY AGAIN. Until then I will go on hurting with pains and being Heartbroken and crying No body understands what I am going through and the pain that I am having lnside. I tell people that I am alright when I am not

Dear if you happen to see a woman wondering around and needs love send her my way, I want to be happy again and have fun, but right now I don't for see it. Dear if you can will you tell Peggy I am still in love with her.

I am praying for a miracle that I find some one to love, Please Help me Dear God to find that special woman that I can love and give my heart to.

I love you dear. I'll talk to you again

Ps; I told Robin she could read this. 

My Darling Syble I want to talk to you cause you are the only one I can talk to and you will listen and not think that I am crazy.


It is so lonely without you. Here goes I have found another person she is like you in so many ways and I fell in love with her. She is so very Beautiful on the outside and inside and she is gorgious, wonderful, precious and she is everything I would want in a wife. Plus she would make a Beautiful wife, someone I could adore and appreicate someone I would sat up on a pedestal and worship the ground she walks on, and would want to take care for the rest of my life.Dear she is so wonderful and I love her with all my heart,

 Dear you would love her. Dear there is so much I would like to tell her about what is really in my heart and how I really feel about her but I am afraid she would reject me and not want to talk to me again. But dear i want her so bad I don't care about our age diffrence. I want her for my wife, to hold and to cherish in sickness and in health for better or worse Dear I love her so much that tears began to flow and my heart is broken cause we can't be together where I can hold her in my arms. My heart aches for her and I want to be with her to see her lovely face and to kiss it. I want to feel her hands in mine. I want to tell her all of this but Im afraid she doesn't feel the same about me and i just lay in bed and cry, i love her, want her and need her to make my life complete, and have the woman of my dreams.


Dear I wish you could speak a few words to Robin and tell her how I really feel about  her. SHE IS THE LOVE OF MY LIFE and i will wait for her for as long as it takes I want her as my wife. Please Robin want you married me and let me take care of you. You could make me the happiest man on this earth when you say " I Do " Oh Darling I love you so much and I think God for you. God works in mysterious way to bring two people together that loves each other


Dear she is so precious and beautful both outside and inside as I said you would love her to death and make great friendsn, she is so much like you and I know if we were to get married you would bless the marriage.  My heart belongs to her. Dear I pray that one day she will make me very happy 

 

On Nov 28 we went to view my Wife body, my Daughter Renee, her husband , my other daughter Tammy, April Brown and her daughter Laci. Grand daughter Crystal and Grand son Daniel, Myself and two Minister.


I sat in front of my wife holding her hand and tears running down my face the others were talking. As the tears ran down my face I thought about the good times we had together traveling to the Carribbean Island, Taking Cuises through the Carribbean, going to Barbados, the Bahamas and a trip that meant the best to us both and that was a 10 day trip to The Holy Land were it made the Bible come alive.


We had our ups and down but we would always would work through our prolems and would never go to bed mad at each other we were always consderate  of each other and we done for each other, I never call her by her name, I always would call her "DEAR" We look after one another adwe would never complain about anything other that she was cold and I was hot wanna guess who won?


We got marry on April 5, 1962, in six months we had only dated 3 times cause of the way we work, She was a Nurse and I drove a ambulance, when she was going to work I was getting off and when I went to work she was getting off, we might have one day together each week.


On may 3rd of 1963 She gave me a sweet 5.4 oz beautiful baby daughter and if you wasn't careful you could lose her. I did several times in the crib. we had to use doll dresses to dess her, handifrice for diapers. On October 3rd 1964  God bless us with our 2nd daughter who turn out to be our smartest daghter and later in life would take care of her mother and me .  and on August 28, 1968 we were bless with our 3rd daughter, she was a wonderful daughter and would do anything to help anybody, today she helps look after me


On November 26, 2012 My wife passed away from Breast Cancer and I miss her dearly, She meant the world to me and was so      beautiful. I will miss her


I LOVE YOU DARLING                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       

Heaven's Golden Sand (1080p HD) by Stephen Meara-Blount      http://youtu.be/0gM6zo6L7I0

And emotions inside
That fills and empties me,
Like a fast rolling tide

There are moments of pain
Of sorrow and hate
Leaving me to ponder.
Many hours of late

I love you honey.
It’s your presence I miss.
And I terribly long
For that one last kiss

But the greatest pain of all
That hurts me so deep,
Is after giving you my love
I can’t have yours to keep

To have you by my side
Always longing for more,
And have you feel the same,
To mutually adore

Source: One Last Kiss, Wife Death Poem http://www.familyfriendpoems.com/poem/one-last-kiss-2#ixzz2T0a4fD5R 

Please Don't Forget Me          by Stephen Meara-Blount      http://youtu.be/kNSv1u26ZPk


Her  Journey's  Just  Begun

Don't think of her as gone away

Her  Journey's  Just  Begun

Life holds so many face's

This earth is only one

Just think of her as resting

From the sorrow's and tears

In a place of warmth and comfort

Where there are no days and years

Think how she must be wishing

That we could know today

How nothing but our sadness

can really pass away

And think of her as living

In the hearts she has touched

For nothing loved is ever lost

And she was loved so much

On September 16 my wife and I re-did our 50 year Marriage Vows. 
By clicken below you can see the video

https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=282632775172250


Two Months later My Wife passed away on 11/26/2012

Jimmy Swaggart-He Touched Me      http://youtu.be/nJFVOGyvgXY

He Touched Me

Shackled by a heavy burden
Neath a load of guilt and shame
Then the hand of jesus touched me
And now I am no longer the same

He touched me, oh he touched me
And oh the joy that floods my soul
Something happened and now I know
He touched me and made me whole

Since I met this blessed Savioursavior
Since he cleansed and made me whole
I will never cease to praise him
Ill shout it while eternity rolls

He touched me oh he touched me
And oh the joy that floods my soul
Something happened and now I know
He touched me and made me whole

God sent His son, they called Him Jesus
He came to love, heal, and forgive.
He lived and died to buy my pardon,
An empty grave is there to prove my Savior lives.


Because He lives, I can face tomorrow.
Because He lives, All fear is gone.
Because I know He holds the future,
And life is worth the living just because He lives.


How sweet to hold a newborn baby,
And feel the pride and joy he gives.
But greater still the calm assurance,
This child can face uncertain days because He lives.


Because He lives, I can face tomorrow.
Because He lives, All fear is gone.
Because I know He holds the future,
And life is worth the living just because He lives.


And then one day I'll cross the river,
I'll fight life's final war with pain.
And then as death gives way to victory,
I'll see the lights of glory and I'll know He lives.


Because He lives, I can face tomorrow.
Because He lives, All fear is gone!
Because I know He holds the future
And life is worth the living just because He lives!

Words: Bill & Gloria Gaither

The LORD is a stronghold for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble.” Psalms 9:9

“And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Helper, to be with you forever, even the Spirit of truth, whom the world cannot receive, because it neither sees him nor knows him. You know him, for he dwells with you and will be in you. “I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you…”" John 14:16-18

“God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.” Psalms 46:1                        

“But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, he will teach you all things and bring to your remembrance all that I have said to you. Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.” John 14:26-27

“So also you have sorrow now, but I will see you again, and your hearts will rejoice, and no one will take your joy from you.” John 16:22

“For the Lord will not  cast off forever, but, though he cause grief, he will have compassion according to the abundance of his steadfast love; for he does not willingly afflict or grieve the children of men.” Lamentations 3:31-32

“One thing have I asked of the LORD, that will I seek after: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to inquire in his temple. For he will hide me in his shelter in the day of trouble; he will conceal me under the cover of his tent; he will lift me high upon a rock.” Psalms 27:4-5

“You who have made me see many troubles and calamities will revive me again; from the depths of the earth you will bring me up again. You will increase my greatness and comfort me again.” Psalms 71:20-21

“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.” 2 Corinthians 5:17

“Do not be afraid, for I have redeemed you: I have called you by your name, you are mine. Should you pass through the sea, I will be there with you; or through rivers, they will not swallow you up. Should you walk through fire, you will not be scorched and the flames will not burn you… Do not be afraid, for I am with you.” Isaiah 43

My Darling as I sit outside on the porch

and see the beauty of the tree in bloom and as

I look into the heavens watch the clouds float

gently by and I know that only God could do these things.

I feel the wind blowing gentle around me

and I like to think that the wind is a kiss

from you and your arms around you and when

the Sun comes out from the clouds and it shine

bright I like to believe that it is your face

shinny down at me

I cant live If living is without you 
I can’t live I can’t give anymore 
Well, I can’t forget that day
Or your face as you laid there in pain

You always smile while hiding your psins

But in your eyes your sorrow shows 

The sky is cloudy and it looks like rain and

If it rain it will be your tears of joy because

You’re now home with the glory of God

And with the love ones that went before

I cried the day you left

Not a kiss or a goodby

The pain still hurts within

And my heart still cries out for you

While I am gone release me, let me go,

 I have so many things to see and do.         

You mustn't tie yourself to me with tears,

Be happy that we had so many beautiful years.

I gave to you my love. You can guess.

How much you gave to me in happiness, 

I thank you for the love you have shown.
But now it's time I traveled on alone.

So grive for me awhile if grive you must.

Then let your grief be comforted by trust.

It's only a while that we must part,            

So bless the memories within you heart.

 I want be far away, for life goes on.

So if you need me, call and I will come,

though you can't see or touch me.

 I'll be near and if you listen with your heart,

you'll hear my love around you soft and clear
And then when you must come this way alone,

I'll greet you with a smile and say
" WELCOME HOME "

You never said that you was leaving

You never said goodbye or gave a goodbye kiss

You were gone before I knew it.

I don’t why you had to leave

I guess God had a reason for taking you of which

We’re not to question

There is not a day that I don’t need you

And shed tears by the million and cry

Myself to sleep and wake up with a soaking pillow

If love along could have saved you

You never would have died

In life I love you with all my heart

In death I love you still and

My love for you grew stronger day by day

And it will grow even stronger as the days goes by

Today there is a empty spot within my heart

That only you can fill cause our

Love is never ending and until the day we meet again

I will go on missing you and crying myself to sleep

Darling my life goes on without you        

And nothing is the same since you left me

I have to hide my heartache and tears

When someone speaks your name

Sadden is my heart that loves you and

Silent are the tears that fall

My life without you is the hardest part of all

You did so many thing for me

Your heart was so kind and true

And when I needed someone

I could always count on you

The special years that we had together

Can never be redeem

But the love that is in my heart

Keeps growing day by day

And you will walk with me forever

They said time would ease the pain
Every day I still feel the same
I wake every morning reaching for you
My pillow soaked with my tears like the morning dew

We were so sure this was something we could beat
Knowing it would be no small feat
The ribbons of pink now mean much more
Just never thought this would come knocking on our door

We fought for more time together
Thinking every day you were getting better
Every day rain or shine seemed to be lined with gold
We still talked of our future plans of growing old

We heard of so many that had survived this
I still remember our last kiss
We thought we could win for sure
Now for others I can only hope for a cure.

Source: Poem About Wife Dying From Breast Cancer, Pink Ribbon http://www.familyfriendpoems.com/poem/poem-about-wife-dying-from-breast-cancer-pink-ribbon#ixzz2T0h2k8nl 
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By Rev Daniel Thrower      

My Darling, little did I know that morning 

Of 11/26/2012 that
God would call you home
 In life I loved you dearly, 
in death we do the same.
It broke my hearts to lose you,
And my heart cries from within

You did not go alone. For
The angels of Heaven walked beside you
To show you the way.
To that city of Gold
With loves one waiting to greet you
And say WELCOME HOME

 God says that two shall become one,
And 50 years we had a wonderful life together
And God called you home and
 part of me went with you

The day God called you home.
You left me beautiful memories,
Your love is still my guide,
And though I cannot see you,
I can feel your touch on my shoulder

You are always at my side.
But my heart is broken, and sadden
and nothing seems the same,
But when God calls me home

We will meet again on that beautiful shore