- 20 years old
- Date of birth: Sep 21, 1992
- Place of birth:
Theodore, Alabama, United States
- Date of passing: Oct 2, 2012
- Place of passing:
Theodore, Alabama, United States
|Let the memory of T.J AND JUDY, be with us forever SUSAN, BERNA, AND TIM MISS YOU|
This memorial website was created in memory of our loved one, T.J Milton, 20, born on September 21, 1992 and passed away on October 2, 2012. We will remember him
forever. He was shot in the head on September 30, 2012. In my mind T.J. you died September 30, 2012. Too soon! Imagine his pain!
T.J. your Mother (Berna) died on September 30, 2012.
Almost twelve years ago you got killed trying to get to me. All the years I said we live too far apart, something will happen. Well, it happened.
"I hate this new life
"Happy Birthday you and Justin are forever missed.
"T. J . Life is horrible, I don't want no one to tell me again they are sorry about your death.
Dam I am the sorry!"
"Only Twenty Years
Miss Ethelstine ... you only had this much time to mother your girl, after burying your Charletta (may her name not be forgotten), and your wisdom and guidance carried her through, somehow ...
Thinking of you today, another birthday that you don't know your beautiful grandson, T.J., and his precious baby girl Mariyah, and T.J. never knew his Grandmother Ethelstine ...
Side by side under slabs of stone, gunned down and taken from dear Berna, how can it be?
Only Twenty Years ...
So wrong. So cruel. We are bitter, but we honor you today and all days, and say your name Ethelstine (Of Blessed Memory).
In the name of my sister Judith Ann Feinberg (Of Blessed Memory), and Susan Beth Feinberg"
"This situation is sad! I live everyday to die for tomorrow! My life ended September 20, 2012.
"JUDY.....SUSAN YOUR SISTER LOVE YOU....GIVE HER HOPE PLEASE JUDY"
"MISS YOU T.J."
"I asked God to give you T.J. To give you one more chance.
I get No answer!
"To Our niece and nephew GOD gave you all a young king on earth that was needed more in heaven than on earth. Receive GOD Goodness we to love TJ and miss him. Yet GOD left a witness in his place love and protect the witness. Love always and forever"
"On your head stone
You died today
You died in our mind September 30th 2012."
"2015 will NEVER BE THE SAME"
"Crying with no Tears!"
"Happy Birthday "Dear Mama"
You daddy told me that he was sorry for the word fight yesterday. He said, "I miss T.J. and I want him here to help me paint, put down this carpet and cut grass." When I look at you (Bonnie) I know you in pain and doing all this stuff while hurting. Then, you ask other men to help you around the house while I am out cutting grass to bring in extra money, until you (Bonnie) get the Administration Leave stuff behind us. Tim (your daddy) is mad at Jennifer and Babro. Jennifer said, your daddy never done nothing for her. He heard her. Babro call your daddy a MF bitch. Tim called the police. They think I called, actually Tim called because he felt they would wait until he (your daddy) not here and come for your Mama (Me). He told Babro to not come back on this property. Babro was drinking as usual everyday. Beer in his pant pockets and vodka in his top pocket. Hot beer!
T. J. your daddy said he was mad at you today! Because he told you not to go to Charly house, and you went anyway. Now, look at me and your Mama out here working all alone. He said, "I need my son's help."
I feel his pain, and when Tim said, I look at you Bonnie, and it makes me feel worst! I asked him why?
He said he felt like he let me down, by not stopping you from going to Charly house and not being at home to help out and having to hire "crackheads to do odd jobs, cause he can not do it alone.
Well, we just miss you and express it with bad words T.J.
You remember, our words..potty mouth
...but,,,we figured it out, now...we can not fix this one .
Our only son!
"Small Steps T.J.
As I sit her thinking of you, I block you out of my mind to keep from crying. I keep busy. Daycare License here and now open! I need your help with the small stuff, like helping me replace the carpet in our cottage you grew up in Jennifer gone.
Wow, she has been there 5 years. It feels different not seeing her everyday. But, I don't see you everyday. So, no one can hurt me no more. I don't care about telling them NO now! Hell broke loss! They want to borrow this, take this, take that, no respect, yelling, wanting to fight, no phone calls unless they want something. I just said No More.
I am so mistreated by my love ones. If you were here, as these tears roll down my face, you would be crying too. I love you T.J.
Sold the gray car Tim'mesha was driving today. I shut off her phone. Your sister is so mean to me. She is only nice and not yelling when she is spending my money.
I help Mary get her car out of the Title Pawn. T.J. this is too much to bare.
I can not find myself.
Your Daddy yells just like Tim'mesha unless he is spending money I work like "Sweety the Jackass". He support her Tim'mesha's behavior. I am tired of this horrible life.
I can not even read my online grief site lately because I am in so much pain and stressed out.
I had my MRI today T.J. My legs are so swollen, they feel numb but the pain is so unbearable, I took 1/2 of the medicine to ease and forget the pain since I fell down the steps March 29, 2015.
Here is my safe place to talk to you. I had to remove some family from this site and my life.
They gone just like you gone T.J.
I am treating Tim'mesha, Jennifer, Babro like Tan mother treated her. She walked away and never looked back. When Tan's mother did look back, she tore her (Tan) down again. Tan is struggling with her own issues like we all are. Some drink, smoke, pills. Some do it all.
Your Aunt Jennifer and Jeffery, They wished I was Dead! They want to put me next to you. T.J. I been next to you since September 30, 2012.They so blind and into their selfish self, they never took the time to ask me how I felt.
If they only knew how much this life has mistreated me, and I too want to give up. I am to scared to died and too scare to live again.
They don't have to wish for me to kill myself. I died September 30, 2012.
Well, another day with keeping busy. Sometimes I have to sit and put my head down and cry, in the truck, in the bathroom, in my room alone, in your room, at the red light while driving.
It is hard to think you will never walk into a room and hug me again, call my name or even say "don't nobody want to hear that".
! never though I would walk behind your casket. I always thought you would walk behind my casket.
I show the cottage today to 2 different people. I am going to re-carpet it tomorrow, because Jennifer had that dog, and fleas (additional $500.00) to change the carpet.
Jennifer mailed me the keys instead of giving me the keys. She told Brandy, she was going me make me sign a letter like I send certified letters to evict her after she attempted to assault me.
Well, she was wrong. She want to be me, but when a person rent/buy a house or apartment and pay their money, they get the keys.
They don't mail the keys. That just to let me know she is trying to be me. If I was Jennifer, I would not want to be me BMilt.
Walk 1 mile in my shoes, and the pain will take your life and breathe away.
I want Jennifer to be herself. She does not know the law. But no more family renting. I just am feed up.
As my uncle Jr. would say..May..May..May...
It is 1:00 am here Saturday morning and I am tired, shopping for carpet, registering my license with daycare's and the MRI.
Keeping busy is okay but I just want to give up, but I have to work in order to survive in this horrible world.
See you tomorrow T.J."
"Sometimes helping members of my family according to Jennifer and Babro...I will always be the bad guy. I did the best I could T.J. I understand via email today T.J. that I should have never taken my sister and brother away from their Daddy. T.J. who take on the responsibility of 2 additional children at the age of 21. I was asked by my beloved (step-father) to prepare his children because he worked for Ingalls Ship Building. Jeffery Lee J. Sr. asked me to get the children (Jeff Jr. & Jennifer) every day and he would help me when I worked on weekends.
Instead, he (Jeffery Sr.) never showed up on weekends and married the evil woman Marie James and They call DHR on weekend when I went to work. They Jennifer the number at the age of 9 or 10. Every time I left the house T.J. Jennifer called DHR. Jennifer did not know who she was calling . Jennifer was doing what Marie James instructed her to do.
Now, today, I received an email, I am an slum lord and low down and dirty and tired of me reminding Jennifer of how much suffice I did to raise my sister and brother. At the age of 21 until Jennifer threw that glass at me on Item Avenue. Tim and I put her in the custody of her father at the age of 14. I explained to my Step-Daddy, that I did not know what I am doing at such a young age and Jennifer was out of control. I placed her in the Youth Center and her Daddy and Evil Step Mother picked her up the next day.
T.J. this is been hard and I am today still reminding my sister and babro that I am still helping them. Well, guess what T.J. I am still helping your Aunt. The same Aunt that called (A Horrible Child) while washing down her home.
I am being punished for loving and helping my sister (everyday) but, what has the REAL DADDY AND REAL STEP-MOTHER BEING PUNISHED FOR?
NOW I LEARN, T.J. THEY HATE ME AN WISHED I HAD LEFT THEM WITH THEIR DADDY, I DID NOT ASK THEIR DADDY FOR THEM, I ACCEPTED THE RESPONSIBLITY AT THE AGE OF 21 AND DID THE BEST, ONLY TO LEARN THEY ARE TIRED OF ME REMAINDING THEM WHAT I DID.
T.J. I THOUGH THEY WOULD BE PROUD OF ME, INSTEAD, I AM CALLED A SLUM LORD, WHILE WAITING WITH MY SISTER AND BROTHER THROUGH THEIR FINANCIAL SITUATION DURING ALL THESE YEAR. I STILL HUNG IN AND CONTINUED TO WORK LIKE A WORK HORSE.
Help me T.J."
"Getting the trailer lights on this month.
Headstone with your beautiful picture for my birthday July 5th
Our wedding Anniversary August 13
Never dreamed I would have to live with you T.J."
"T.J. I messed up my knee 3/29/15, while walking down the deck steps. I am in pain, and you know how much I hate Medicine. Now, I take one step at a time. Your daddy is on his sleep apnea machine after they performed a test. Lots of fluid on both feet. Well, tomorrow, we go to court about your Blue Truck. It is still in the shop. We will keep it for on the grandchildren. I closed our saving account today. I had to have the death certificate. Once I finished in the bank T.J. I just started to cry before I could move on.
.I do miss you."
"got trailer jacked right T.J. Saturday,5.2.15
Lights will be on soon
Remodel the Shed to an "Tiny House"."
When I can not say anything, I do like my Uncle Jr. I say "may..May..may...
Love you Uncle Jr."
"Brandy and Tommie just had a boy T.J.
I miss you my son"
"My own oldest daughter never visited his page and call to tell she is having her baby this Friday 04/25/2015.
Now I will show her (Brandy) how a mother treated a child she birth in the world and the child (Brandy) is so into here life. Have not spoke to her mother Me (Bonnie NOR HER FATHER TIM) since I left her new home and help her every way I could. Now she called me on Thursday 4/16/2015.
MY DAUGTHER BOOKED ME A TICKET FOR GRAYHOUND.
Put me on a greyhound bus to go home after all I did to help. MY STEP-DAUGTHER TANGELA HAVE TREATED ME BETTER THAN THE CHILD I BIRTH=== ALL I CAN SAY...I HOPE MY GRAND-DAUGTHER DON'T TREAT BRANDY HOW BRANDY TREATS HER BIRTH MOTHER. IF BRANDY WANT TO KNOW HOW IT FEELS TO HAVE LIVING MOTHER AND SHE REFUSE TO HELP, CALL TANGALEA MARIA MILTON. I AM HURT. I AM SO HURT. MY SON NEVER TREATED ME LIKE THIS. I will never, never, never, forget it. She NEVER SAID TO ME "MAMA I AM SORRY" I TOLD SHE WAS MAD WITH THE WRONG "BITCH". HIRE A MAID/NANNA AND FORGET YOUR HAVE A LIVING MOTHER BRANDY. to be your aide like a maid to help you. Yes, I told the whole family.
When I finished "get your Mind and Ass together. Tan's mother never attended a grandchild birth.
Now, I am a Shaurlick Milton King to Brandy.
How do you like it?
"a tribute to Ethelstine's Daughter ... Berna, you are an amazing woman. I just want to say in this short space Thank You. for sharing this most sacred spot with us, two unknown "girls", & giving me a place to grieve my sister, with you as my family we didn't have ... (we thought we did tho) ... think of you always. Luvs, Susan"
"I just love you...Point ....Blank...Period
I am just here to be used via the next person."
"I LOVE YOU T.J.
POINT,,,,,,,,,,,BLANK......PERIOD......AS TIM'MESHA ALWAYS SAY!"
"I WROTE THIS BEFORE MY ONLY SON WAS SHOT.....
MY UNCLE JR. WOULD ALWAYS SAY....MY...MY..MY.... WHEN THINGS GOT DEEP...
NOW, I SAY MY...MY...MY...WHEN I WANT TO CRY BUT INSTEAD, I KEEP MY HEAD UP AND REFUSE TO DROP A TEAR UNTIL I AM ALONE....
To my only son…I will always be with you, regardless of where you are. You are on my heart!
A simple prayer of 'Thanks Be To God'
• God of my life, I welcome this new day. It is Your gift to me, a new creation, a promise of resurection."
• "Dear Lord, I thank You for the Grace of being alive this morning; I thank You for the sleep that has refreshed me; I thank You for the chance to make a new beginning."
• "Dear Lord, I give you may hands to do Your work; I give You my feet to go Your way; I give You my eyes to see as You see; I give You my tongue to speak Your words; I give You my mind that You may think in me; I give You my spirit that You may pray in me. Above all, I give You my heart that You may love in me - love the Father and love all humankind. I give You my whole self, Lord, that You may grow in me, so that it is You who lives, works and prays in me. Amen."
July 27, 2011"
"Why My Child?"
"I miss you so much. I cry everyday. Charly and her brother will get what is coming to them. Daddy love you too."
"I love you T.J."
"My condolences go out to the family and friends of T.J.. From reading what is written about him I know he is missed and was loved. No matter what, it can truly be said that death is an enemy and soon it will be brought to nothing (1Cor. 15:26). I have found much comfort in the Bibles promise of a resurrection hope of our loved ones at John 5:28, 29 and hope you will too. Death was never a part of Gods original purpose, in fact he yearns to soon bring an end to it and the suffering it causes your family and friends. Revelation 21:4 states: "And he will wipe out every tear from their eyes, and death will be no more, neither will mourning nor outcry nor pain be anymore. The former things have passed away." I did not know T.J., but I read his obituary and I hope these scriptures will help to bring some comfort knowing that others care. If you would like to learn more about the Bibles promises and the hope it brings, please feel free to contact me."
"Thank you for the invite. It's beautiful. My son is also on here. Today is his 2nd anniversary:( stay safe and know that I think about you often
"beautiful ... sobbing with you dear Berna, and Milton Family ... you & me bound together forever with our "survivor luv" we now share until death do us part. G-d Bless T.J. Milton. Luv, Itzchak and Itzchak"
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