Children of the same family, the same blood, with the same first associations and habits, have some means of enjoyment in their power, which no subsequent connections can supply... ~Jane Austen, Mansfield Park, 1814
Some of you may know, some of you may not know. Terri lynn is my cousin that I grew up with my whole life. When I was a little girl, I could not say her name.. It was a little too much to come out of my little mouth. Therefore, I called her sissy. Which fit's her PERFECT!
Sissy.. you are the best big sister anyone could ever ask for. I looked up to you NO MATTER WHAT & I still alway's will! When I look @ your babie's everyday, I see SO much of you! They're truely a blessing & I am sooo glad you had all 3 of them! :/ I MISS YOU! I have SOOO much to say & can't even finish 1 sentence. Your mama said you would have loved this Michael Jackson song to be on here! A lot of people didn't like him! Tell him I said Hi, please :) We alway's watched him dancin' around on TV!! <3 Now that your not here.. it feel's so empty! So... lonely? For everyone of us I bet... Exspecially your mama. She really loves you more than anything in this world Sissy & she is keeping your memory going... I don't care that everyday, your what we talk about.. I know it hurt's us both @ time's but we can't help but to get it off our chest's... & I am pretty sure i'm doing an 'okay' job with helping her.. I try & talk to her as much as I can.. everyday :/ It's the most hurtful thing in the WORLD to hear your mama's voice, everyday.. She will never be the same without you here! I am going to continue to try & be a BIG GIRL now... :/ Even though, big girl's at time's, fall! & when I fall.. Your not here anymore to catch me.. So it's more as if I can't fall anymore! & If I do.. It'll drag me down HARD because yet have I been a little weak, i've also become so much stronger by loosing you & trying to realize that there is a purpose for us all, here on earth. Your purpose was WAY more than just being a daugther, sister, mother, cousin, a friend & many more! LOOK at your picture's... In every picture, your glowing! You are soo beautiful Sissy!!!! KISSES TO YOU BABYGIRL! BLOWING THEM UP NOW... 4 FROM US ALL. Thomas, myself, Isabella & Mariaunna! -If this is not understandable.. i'm sorry! I'm not @ the best state of mind right now & I KNOW my sissy hear's me & understand's me!!
Love ALWAYS & I shall return soon,
Your little sister, Amanda