Travis , I really never thought this day would come . The day I would have to deal with you being gone . The day I have to repeatedly tell my self that this is real . Your gone forever . There is so many things that I wish I could take back , so many things I would have said , so many things I would have asked . The one major question I always ask my self is why . I know God has a reason for us all to he here and for us all to go home with him but I wish god would of waited just a lil bit longer :/ last night I had a dream about your son and he was crying , he asked me why did my daddy have to go , can you tell me a little about him . He was a lil older in my dream and I told him about how brave and strong and wise you were and all the things your crazy self did and he laughed and smiled and I hugged him and I said trent , he will forever be in your heart till you see him again . That dream touched me so much . Gosh , I just don't know what to think anymore . I feel that life isn't really life anymore . I just miss and love you so much . I will hopefully see you again one day. Maybe one day soon , I will never know . All I think about is you . Your smile , your laugh , your voice , and how happy you was in general as a person . All I can do is think about that one day you was standing in the rain in michele`s front yard and we was arguing and I walked up to you and it started to rain harder and i looked you in your eyes and I said have you ever been kissed in the rain before and you said no and I said neither have I and we kissed . And I simply said well we are each other's first kiss in the rain and I was so happy . It's made me feel so complete . That's how you always made me feel . Now without you hear I'm half again. Travis Dean , ever since I first met you I feel in love with you . You gave me this werid feeling that no one else has Givin me . Now your gone and I tried fighting to talk to you every day but never could . I was finally yours tthen I lost you . Now I lost you for good and I'm lost without you . The day I lost you is the day I went crazy . The day I will never be the same again . The day I will never be complete again . Rip handsome . I miss you ♡