In poetry class yesterday, we were working on Mary Elizabeth Frye. There was this poem that made me think about those I have lost in life, especially you Grandma (Great Grandma). So I thought I would share with you:

"Do not stand at my grave and weep, I am not there, i do not sleep. I am in a thousand winds that blow, I am the softly falling snow.
I am the gentle showers of rain, I am the fields of ripening grain. I am in the morning hush, I am in the graceful rush. Of beautiful birds in circling flight, I am the starshine of the night. I am in the flowers that bloom, I am in a quiet room. I am in the birds that sing, I am in each lovely thing. Do not stand at my grave and cry, I am not there. I did not die !" ~Mary Elizabeth Frye (November 13, 1905-September 15, 2004)

It's been a year now Mom!  I miss you!  I sat in front of the Blair House looking up at your window wishing some how you would be there, all that came to me was the events of that day.  I have blocked out most of it over the year but sitting there brought it all back.  I know in my heart you were ready.  I use to think when people died in old age that it was easier to except but it's never easy to lose your Mom no matter the age. I'm writing here as if u will be able to read this.  If only that were possible!  I Love you Mom, miss you sooo much!..

Mother's Day was yesterday. It wasn't the same with out you!  I was remembering our last Mother's Day.  We went to Chucky Cheese for Brooke's Birthday.  I looked at the picture of you and I, never realising that would be our last Mother's Day together.  I miss you Mom sooo much!   I wish i could hold you and hug you tight.  I go to the cemetery but i don't feel anything there.  You are  in my heart, in my thoughts and in my prayers.  Rest in peace Mom.  I LOVE YOU!