Hello cuz, just wanted to tell u sorry for not being there with the family on ur day we had to lay u to rest. I just felt closer to u at the pond at Cedar Cove, it's my favorite place in the world an got's great fish in that awesome pond out front. You know the other reason why I didn't come be with family that day to, that fake x of mine that was there shouldn't of been. I know u were out there with me that day because every time I pulled my line in my worm was gone, of course NO fish all day. I know u were gett'n a kick out of it to. I know u were saying to me now sissy u have to spit on that worm or no fish. What did ur Lil cuz say, it's not nice to spit an not even on a worm an I told u that it was just a big fish story an thought I would really beleave u huh...Not, an NO I didn't get one dame fish eaither that day..But how many 2 week's before that, 8 big ole catfish huh had me a good ole double jack & coke with them...When u seen then you couldn't let me out do u so the weekend tournament was on, well we didn't get to have that for us. You left me B.D. I was so ready for this an it really got to ur Lil cuz for our fun day friday, saterday & sunday High NOON..I know it's not ur fault cuz, not mad at ya God had your calling so when ur call is up ur call is up. That's for all of us, I just didn't want u to go I LOVE & Miss you so much B.D., I miss you saying now sissy do it like this or let me help you bring them fish in an clean them. I think I miss u laughing at me that day when u bet you could out fish ur Lil cuz on that next falling weekend that was coming up. Fifth wheel bomb fire all weekend an lot's of laugh's an memories's that were to be made that weekend. Never will happen now, I was just so lost that weekend I didn't know how to stop the pain that I was filling. So now it's on in 2 week's cuz, guess what u won't get the worm off my hook NO more buddy. I'm gorilla gluing the worm on my hook, so how's that. Laugh cuz I'll have the same worm all weekend & that worm will be real ripe and guess who will be throwing then catfish on the bank's at Cedar Cove. Yes, Me cuz Lil ole tomboy Paula I can't wait, l know ur laughing right now but in 2 week's u won't be. Crock-A-Diel tear's will be what u will be doing, then who will be laughing last Me,Me. Love you so much & miss you too, give Jesse hug's for me an u 2 take care of each other until we all meet up again some day. B.D. & Jesse R.I.HEAVEN. Better go, dropping to many tear's and can't see right now see u in 2 week's cuz. Better put your big boy boot's on be ready for ur loss cuz, so I know you told me not to ever ask to fish in the pond at Cedar Cove again. But u know just out of respect I do have to ask, no one else know's that you told me that. Yes I can here you B.D., now sissy I told u that if you want to fish u come and fish as long as u want, I'm sure going to do that for sure in 2 week's...Friday, Saterday & Sunday High NOON..April 22 to April 24, 2017. It's on Cuz, be there or be square...Bring'n my Lil tent, the 5th wheel has seen it's day's so it's headed to the crusher. Hopefully the peddle boat is still there my fish'n boot's are high enough to walk the pond so peddling would do me best. I'll need the other seat spot for Yogi and the floor part of it I'll need for all them catfish that will be racking up in the peddle boat. Don't worry cuz I'll share I won't let ya go hungry the whole weekend..Lol..I love you so much B.D, see u soon an better rest up bud u will need it....Just saying...Hug's, love u Jesse & miss u too....Would you do one last favorite for me, give my Momma big HUG'S for me and tell her I love her and miss her so mucn and she can come with you for the weekend too, I'd really love that if she could make it with you cuz.....You know that you are so greatly miss an loved by so many, until now I'll see you next friday to sunday. Don't forget the lighter cuz I don't smoke so that's on u to bring, we need it to have our bomb fire. thank's for being my cousin an loving us Lil one's an teaching us so much, you are a Beautiful, loving, an awesome cousin any one could ask for. Wouldn't trade u for the last worm in the bucket if there were hundred in there...That's how special you are to each & everyone of your family & friend's B.D., until then don't let ur meat loaf...LOL.