Happy Birthday Dad! I can't believe that you are 100 years old today! Ten years since you passed. Boy I miss you. I think of you every day and Ruby and I continue to pause on your remembrance stone in the Gardens on our walks. 

I look to the little lake and see if there is enough breeze for a nice sail. I notice the beautiful roses and imagine you are able to see through my eyes and that you are there with me. I can feel that you are there with me. Always giving me stability and safety and kind, gentle advice. Ready to catch me if I fall. Thank you Dad for your continued presence in my life. It is a great comfort to me. 

Your birthday this year is the Monday Memorial Day. I know how much you always enjoyed a cook out style dinner outside under the wisteria vines. So I made a veggie burger, some fruit, some chips and guacamole and ice cream for dinner and thought of you.

I love you Dad and I miss you very much. I sure hope when my time comes I get to see you and enjoy you again. You are such a good person and I try to follow in your footsteps. To make you proud of me. 

Happy Birthday Dad. 

Happy 99th Birthday Dad! I think of you every day and still miss you so much. I continue to be so grateful for the unconditional love you gave me every day of your life. I can still feel your love and that is such a comfort to me. I hope you can feel mine for you. 

I look at the belongings I was able to keep that remind me of your eye for beauty and love for all things Swedish. The older I get the more that Swedish part of me calls out. I follow this Swedish videographer/artist that lives in a tiny village in the north of Sweden in the woods on a beautiful lake. The incredible nature sights and sounds move me deeply. It's hard to explain but I feel such a connection and familiarity with these Swedish woods. You would have really enjoyed watching these videos I know.

Thank you for making my later years secure. You really had to fight to make sure I would be taken care of financially. It would have made your life a lot easier to not provide any inheritance to your children. I see how hard it was to engineer a way to protect that desire after you passed on, but you did it. I was able to fight to make that happen and now I am able to see a path to living out my years with a viable path forward. Thank you so much Daddy.

I love you and miss you. I am forever grateful that we had those final years together to forge a new, loving relationship. You are my role model in so many ways. You were and are such a good person in all the most important ways. I remind myself that I am your daughter and I am capable of following in your footsteps.

Happy Birthday Dad. I love you.

Hi Dad, Happy 98th Birthday. I miss you. Ruby and I stop by your remembrance brick at the Gardens just about every day. I chose it to be at the middle of the rose garden right next to some apricot colored roses because you loved apricots. You can see and hear the lake and the water fountains from there. I imagine that you are able to see and appreciate the beauty of the place through my eyes. I hope you can. 

I guess it may never get any easier missing you. Same with missing Sophie. It still hurts so much when I think about you. A giant hole in my heart. 

I love you Dad. I hope you are in a place of great healing and love and peace.  
Enjoying everything around you to the fullest extent possible, just like you always did. I was and am blessed that you are my Dad. Thank you for everything.
 

I wanted to drive to a harbor today In honor of your birthday. But time didn't allow, so instead Ruby and I took a walk among the Eichler houses off La Casa Via. You would love seeing how they are all fixed up and what special touches people are adding to them. Looking at the classic modernist architecture makes me feel close to you and makes me grateful for the artist's eye for beauty you gave me.  That makes me happy especially today on your birthday.

Hi Dad,
I've been thinking about you all week. You would have been dumbfounded and fascinated by what has happened the last two months. I can see you shaking your head and quietly voicing disbelief. The world has changed and our vulnerability is on open display. The good, honest, intelligent people like you are coping and watching out for each other. I wish you were here to lean on but am glad you are not here to have to try to survive this. I love you Dad and honor you on this day of your 97th birthday. What a good man and father you are. I miss you more than ever. 

You would have been 96 years old today Daddy. I'm really missing you. When I'm feeling overwhelmed I can hear your voice telling me that I'm okay and that I've got this. And that you're proud of me and you love me. You are such a good man and father. Thank you for all the love you gave me, all the support. I hope I'm still making you proud. I love you and I really miss you.

Dad, I miss you.Today Mom is in the hospital after emergency surgery. She seems to be doing okay. I hope she doesn't remember this is the day you died 5 years ago. She seems to want to live so I think she'll come through. I am so thankful for Ruby coming home 2 weeks ago so I have someone here with me. She really is an angel isn't she?  I wish you were here to make me feel safe. You always had my back and I know you still do. I think of you all the time and know you are always there for me. I love you and I thank you.

Dad, today is another Father's Day without you. I miss you more than ever. I think of you every day still nearly four years after you passed on. I look to you and try to figure out what you would have done if you were still here. You did an unbelievable job keeping things afloat and providing for the future. I'm struggling to keep that going. You were the voice of reason and intelligence and now I've got your big shoes to fill. I'll do my best, Dad. I'll do everything I can. I also know that is all you would ask of me. My best. I miss you. I love you.

Today's your 93rd birthday Dad. The longer you are gone the more I appreciate all that you did for us. I'm trying to keep everything together and I hope you are watching out for me. I understand better all the responsibility you were shouldering and I hope you know how incredibly appreciative I am for all you did. I love you and I miss you so much.

Well Dad, you would have been 92 years young today. It was a beautiful sunny day in Walnut Creek. Sophie and I took our daily walk down to Heather Farms Gardens and stopped by your brick to admire the view. Beautiful roses, waterfalls, green grass, blue sky, the wind rustling in the trees and cat's paws dancing across the lake. You would have appreciated today for sure. I still miss you and think of you every day.

Dad, today is my first Father's Day without you. I'm remembering last year when we went over to Jack London Square and got a table right at the windows overlooking the harbor. That was so fun being able to see all the boats going past and enjoying the food. Then a nice long ride around your favorite sites in Benicia and the East Bay. I know you really enjoyed it and I did too. For Father's Day this year I have created this website for you. I will add things as I go through our photos and videos that show the wonderful man you were for all the world to see. I love you Dad and really miss you. Happy Father's Day.