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This page is created in the memory of my grandpa, William Harold Smith, who went to be with the Lord on September 13, 2012.  He will be greatly missed.


If I had known the last time I saw you was going to be the last,
I would have hugged you a little longer because now my chance has passed.
If I had known the last time we spoke would be the last time I'd hear you speak,
I would have talked to you longer because I knew you were getting weak.
I wish I could've known that simple "I love  you, goodbye"
Was the last chance I'd ever have to hear your reply.
Now my heart is heavy and I am in despair,
Because I took for granted that you'd always be there.
So much fills my head so many things  I can't let go.
So many things that I regret,
If I had only known.      
  
Michaela Goins-Brown 

September 13, 2013
September 13, 2013
Dad, it's been a year today since I got the call. It seems like this morning. I miss you so much. With both you and mom gone it is really lonely. I think about picking up the phone to tell you something and reality hits me. I love you and miss you. I'll see you again in heaven. Until then. XXX000
September 12, 2013
September 12, 2013
A whole year has gone by and a years worth of holes are in my heart. I'm happy to know you and grandma are together again, and that you don't have to see he ugliness that occurs in this world. I know you guys would be proud of Moriah and I both. Love you forever.
June 17, 2013
June 17, 2013
Happy Fathers Day dad. I'm sorry I'm a day late but thought about you all day yesterday. I just can't put all this for everyone to see. Obviously no one visits here so I love you and miss you so much. It hurts everyday not having you and mom here.
February 2, 2013
February 2, 2013
Happy Birthday Papa. I wanted to call you to hear you tell me you were turning 38. This year that is true, you are as young as you wish to be. Kiss my grandma for me, I know you guys are dancing to beautiful music in the presence of the Lord and that is the only thing helping me breathe. I love you.
February 2, 2013
February 2, 2013
Happy birthday Dad. I miss you and Mom so much. I just can't get passed this. I love you both so much!
January 4, 2013
January 4, 2013
Dad,it's Jan. 4, 2013. You have Mom now. It was the hardest decision of my life to let her go. I know she understands why we did what we did. Just take care of each other up there. I miss you and my heart is hurting without you and mom. I love you so much.
December 23, 2012
December 23, 2012
Well Dad, tomorrow is Christmas Eve. It's gonna be a hard Christmas this year. You are not here and mom is in the nursing home. Hopefully she'll be home soon. I miss you so much and can't stop thinking about you being alone when you left us. I love you!!!
November 22, 2012
November 22, 2012
Thanksgiving Day. I miss you dad. Thanks for the wonderful memories you gave to me. I'm glad we could talk like we did the last 30 years. I love you so very much!
November 14, 2012
November 14, 2012
Been 2 months. Seems so much longer. Waiting for ashes. Love you, dad.
November 4, 2012
November 4, 2012
Having a bad day today, Dad. I miss you so much!!!
October 22, 2012
October 22, 2012
Dad, I missed your call today. I'm sure you would have teased me about my age. I'll have my silence and cry later by myself. I love you and miss you more than anyone could imagine.
October 12, 2012
October 12, 2012
Moriah sleeps with the stuffed Easter bunny you gave her every night. She told me that your spirit is in it. She misses you very much.
October 4, 2012
October 4, 2012
Well Papa, in one week it will be my birthday. One thing that never failed was you calling on my birthday! Mom would always laugh and say "He always remembers your birthday, he better call me on mine". I have a feeling I will cry every time my phone rings that day, but I know you're with me always.
September 22, 2012
September 22, 2012
Papa, how long will it be before we can bring you home? I don't know what is going on, where you are, if you've been cremated or not, I have only confusion. I promise as soon as I can I will take you home.
September 20, 2012
September 20, 2012
Dad, it's been a week now and I just can't let go. I know that you knew how I feel. If I had known I would have done something to get to you. Only you and I know the reasons behind that. I love you and miss you so. I know you are looking down on us and keeping us safe. I'm struggling and will never have closure. I love you!!!
September 19, 2012
September 19, 2012
What a wonderful rememberance for your grandpa Michaela, he loved you so. Always remember his spirit with live on through his family, Think of all the good times, may this bring you peace and take some of the sadness from your heart. You and your family are in my prayers. Sending love to you all.
September 19, 2012
September 19, 2012
It isn't getting much easier. I fear I will never have the closure I need. No goodbyes just a " talk to you later" that will never happen. I'm afraid you never knew how special you were. I love you.
September 16, 2012
September 16, 2012
uncle bill was such a funny guy, the last few years in the winter he was always over for a visit at the shop and stayed most of the day to have coffee, a cigarette, sweep the floor and enjoy some talk. i know tom always looked forward to it. sometimes he would stop before he even went to the house to see tom and have coffee. he will be missed very much in our hearts and minds god bless
September 15, 2012
September 15, 2012
Papa, you were very important to me. We had a special bond that no one could come between. I will miss you more than I can understand. You meant the world to my daughter and she misses you so much. My tears are many and my heart is heavy. I love you.
September 15, 2012
September 15, 2012
Dad I miss you so much! I wish I had been there for you. I love you and know you are no longer in pain. I will think of you everyday for the rest of my life and will see you again.

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September 13, 2013
September 13, 2013
Dad, it's been a year today since I got the call. It seems like this morning. I miss you so much. With both you and mom gone it is really lonely. I think about picking up the phone to tell you something and reality hits me. I love you and miss you. I'll see you again in heaven. Until then. XXX000
September 12, 2013
September 12, 2013
A whole year has gone by and a years worth of holes are in my heart. I'm happy to know you and grandma are together again, and that you don't have to see he ugliness that occurs in this world. I know you guys would be proud of Moriah and I both. Love you forever.
June 17, 2013
June 17, 2013
Happy Fathers Day dad. I'm sorry I'm a day late but thought about you all day yesterday. I just can't put all this for everyone to see. Obviously no one visits here so I love you and miss you so much. It hurts everyday not having you and mom here.
Recent stories

Christmas

December 23, 2012
When Susie and I were kids we would get up early on Christmas morning. We couldn't wait to see what we got. But..dad would not get up until we made him some peanut butter and toast. After a while we got wise and made the peanut butter and toast, then woke him up. I sure will miss his call this Christmas. And Uncle Russ, I miss yours too. All my love.

Air conditioning

October 8, 2012
About two weeks ago, I went to pick Michaela up and on the way the air conditioner in the car came on. I just turned it off, no big deal. On the way back home Michaela and I were talking about Dad and crying. I stopped at a light and the a/c came on again. We kind of laughed it off. Later taking Michaela home the a/c kept coming on. After Michaela got out of the car it came on again and as soon as I turned it off it came back on. Finally I said, "Dad, it's cold outside!" It turned off and hasn't came on since. I can hear him laughing right now! I miss you dad, but know you are with us.

Check

September 17, 2012

I wrote this check when I had an economics class. I wrote it in 1996, he carried it in his wallet to the day he died. 

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