Hi mom. It’s been 6 years without you. You left us way too soon. I miss the memories we had together. Everything we’ve done. I remember when we went to the beach a long time ago with the family. It was very hard seeing you go like that and it’s gonna haunt me forever but I always have you in my heart and I’m always going to think about you. I’m all grown up now. I’m turning 16 in a couple of weeks. I’m gonna start driving soon! I really wish you were here. You would be so so proud of me and everyone else. Nataly, Katie, Andrew, Chris and everyone is doing great. Andrew had a daughter her name is Arya she is 4 now. You’re a grandma. I went through so many hard times in my life that I needed you for but I managed to get through it. I’m going into sophomore year. Mom I wish I could say this face to face but I can’t. I’m gay. I’ve been gay for about a year and a half now and I’m proud of who I am. I started playing sports when I moved to Massachusetts. I got into soccer but than I quit after a while. Then I got into track and I’m still doing it. I miss everyone so so much it is so hard to live without lots of my family. Daniel and Christian are grown up now. They’re so different and older. I had gotten Vanessa phone number a few months ago so I glad I’m able to talk to her. You know mom I’ve always wondered what it would be like if you were still alive. I miss California and I want to move back now. When I get older I’m going to be moving back to my hometown where I belong. I really wish you were still here. I was too young when you left. I left my old friends in California and I made new . ones here in Massachusetts. I know you’re watching over us and resting in peace with no pain no suffering. One day we will be reunited again. I want god to protect you. I love you so much mom I’m always going to love you no matter what. I miss you deeply but I’m always going to be here. I have a long life to live and I want to live it happily. I just want you to know I love you and miss you. May you Rest In Peace now. XOXO