1 year ago
I still remember the odd feeling of what is wrong before I saw you. The thoughts that still race through my head even a year later consume me in a panic. I couldn't sleep all night Friday. I miss you my light, my heart, and my only son.
I still remember the odd feeling of what is wrong before I saw you. The thoughts that still race through my head even a year later consume me in a panic. I couldn't sleep all night Friday. I miss you my light, my heart, and my only son.
My Zachary was definitely my surprise child. He was my 3rd child, his sisters are 14 & 18. I was so happy when I found out I was having a boy. I wanted a boy so badly. That morning etched into every fabric of who I am today. When I close my eyes I see him. I see that he is gone and my world crashed into a pit of despair so deep I don't know if there is a bottom. I want to lay down with him and never get up. I would do anything to hear him cry one more time. I'm so grateful for the videos that i have so I can hear him when I need it most. I grip his teddy Bear and cry feeling like I'll never find my way back.