Hello my precious Grandson. It would have been your 9th birthday on the 12th February. How can It be ? 9 years old but forever 8 months and 1 week. I miss you today and every other day Zain it breaks my heart that you didn’t see how we would celebrate your birthday, we didn’t spend one birthday with you as you were taken too soon . I always think of you and you are loved so much . Happy birthday little man. Lots of love kisses snd cuddles are sent you xxxxxxxxx

Hello my beautiful little boy, it’s Christmas once again and all I think about is that you should be here with us. I hope the angels choir are singing songs you can join in with . I hope too you are getting presents and celebrating jesus’s birthday . I wish I could know if grandad Ben found you , I’d like to think he did and you are getting lots of cuddles. I miss you everyday Zain. You are right here in my heart. I love you so much . It’s so sad you didn’t get to have a Christmas with us, you would have loved it. Always in my thoughts Zain and forever in my heart. I will see you and grandad Ben again one day. All my love gorgeous little man xxx

It's a shame to see only your nanny lindi is the only one who wrote and still writes here.
I'm not very good in writing down how I feel and what I want to say to you.. the feeling is just far too big, too strong for words.
But nanny is right about grandad Ben.. he's also left us. Another feeling so big. I don't even know hoe to bring myself to think about either of you at times. Which is sad I know. I am sorry. And I am sorry because I wish I could speak to you both more but I feel like my heart is falling from my body if I try and it feels as if I may too leave this world and the people I love. And I can't do that...
Your sister and your brothers need me far too much.
Zayan seems to be happy with daddy in Saudi. I wonder if you visit them.
Sophie has been in the arms of her daddy.. and achievement I only ever dreamed of. It'd a magical dream come true not only for your sister but for me too.
And Kayan is staying with aunty Louise. But he visits and stays a lot. I pray you watch over all three of your siblings. Kayan doesn't like to be a single boy without his brothers. And I feel guilt for it daily.
I bought the perfume that was sprayed over you when you were in the mosque when people had the chance to see you one last time and say good bye.
It wasn't you. It was your body. You had already taken your place in heaven with God.
So I sometimes spray it and embrace the smell for a short moment.
I love you Zain. God ... just no words in the human existence to explain how much. And I wish you were here.
But I'm glad you are somewhere better and safe. My only hope is I will see you again one day. If only for a moment.. I will take that. I will accept any moment with you My love. I still carry you with me. You were connected to me, by blood, by flesh, you were inside of my body. You are still with me. And you'll always be.
Zain.. my love.. my son.. my boy.. my baby.. my heart.. my eyes.. my life.. my all... my whole loves you. ❤️

How can it be 8 years zain ? It doesn’t seem possible, 8 years without you, 8 years of talking to your photo, 8 years of wondering what you would have looked like, what your personality would be like. All I can do is imagine. I imagine you to be such a gentle little boy always smiling. Since you left us Granddad Ben has left us too , so heartbreaking. I can only hope you have found each other and having lots of hugs and having fun playing games . I miss you every single day Zain and love you always. All my love nanny Lindi .

My darling Zain. I hope you are celebrating your 8th birthday up there in heaven , missing you so so much little man. I wonder what you would have wanted for your birthday?? You should be here with us, having fun at a birthday party we would have done for you. Oh Zain my precious grandson , you are loved and missed so so much . I hope grandad Ben has found you and given you lots of hugs and I hope the Angels sang happy birthday to you . Always in my ♥️
Love from nanny Lindi xxxxxxxx

Hello little man . I missed you so much over Christmas ! I wish so much you could have seen what Christmas looked like, you would have loved it Zain.
I’m hoping grandad Ben finds you in heaven, he left us suddenly on December 2nd. I hope and pray so much that you will find each-other And have lots of hugs and grandad will play hide and seek with you and other fun games. I love you so much my precious little man. You are missed and loved always. PLEASE give Grandad Ben a big hug for me .
Please Zain give me a sign to let me know you are ok my darling. And grandad Ben too . I love you so much. Nanny Lindi xxx

My beautiful grandson Zain, it’s been 7 years now without you and it still hurts as much as it did on the day you went to heaven.
I sit here and wonder how you would have looked and how you would have been at school making new friends. I bet you would still have that beautiful smile, oh darling how I miss you! My heart hurts everyday without you, I WILL be with you again little man when my time comes, and I will pick you up a hold on to you so tightly. I love you zain, and miss you so so much. Your Nanny, Lindi xxx

Hello my beautiful little man , today is your birthday and I’m missing you so so much . I hope you are having a fun filled birthday in heaven snd the Angels are singing happy birthday to you .
You are 7 today, I cannot believe it’s been 6 years and 4 months that you left us. Oh how I miss you! I love you so much Zain. You will always be in my heart and on my mind. I will come and find you when my time on this Earth is done and give you so many cuddles and kisses. 
I hope Auntie Janet and Nanny Daphne have found you , they will give you lots of cuddles my sweet little grandson.
Please come into my dreams so I can see you. Love you and miss you so much . Your Nanny Lindi XxxxxX

Another Christmas without you has just passed, but you were here with us in my mind and my heart. I will never stop missing you or loving you Zain, and I’ll see you again when my time comes. I’m going to wrap my arms around you and hold you so close.
My life has and never will be the same without you here. 
Auntie Janet has come to heaven now Zain, I hope she has found you and giving you lots of hugs alongside nanny Daphney . I’m sure they would love to get hugs from you too.
I love you you little man. Always in my heart ♥️ xxx

My beautiful smiley grandson Zain.
6 years have passed since you became an Angel in heaven, the pain of losing you I carry in my heart and soul everyday . You are missed and loved so so much.
I sit here trying to imagine what you would look like now, wondering what you would be doing, what your favourite toy would be, it rips into my heart. You will be loved and remembered always Zain, I will be with you again one day my precious little man and will hold you so tight.
Lots of love and hugs sent to you my beautiful grandson . Nanny Lindi. XX

My beautiful grandson Zain.
It’s your 6 th birthday today , and oh how it hurts to be without you. You are always in my heart and always in my thoughts. I imagine what it would be like today on your special day. You would be surrounded by gifts and a cake with 6 candles on. We would all be singing you a happy birthday song and you’d be blowing your candles out, making a wish. But instead we are here without you, missing you so so much  when my time comes darling I shall be with you again and I’ll hold you so tight,!
I love you so much Zain and miss you.
Happy heavenly birthday my gorgeous little man. Big hugs and kisses, nanny Lindi. Xxxxx

Another Christmas without you my precious little man. Oh how I wish you were here with us . You never got to have a Christmas which really saddens me, I know you would have loved it Zain, it’s such a magical time ,
Even though you are not here in person , you are here in sour hearts and thoughts, you always will be my darling. Nanny loves you so so much, my heart aches for you !
I’ll see you again one day Zain and I shall spend eternity with you, holding you, playing with you , keeping you close to me .
I LOVE YOU ZAIN WITH ALL MY HEART.
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Happy heavenly birthday my precious grandson Zain. You would have been 5 today,
I miss you so much. Mummy Kayan and I came to visit your grave today, we sang happy birthday to you. Time passes but it never gets any easier, there will always be apart of me missing, until I hold you again close in my arms.
I hope you’ve had a lovely birthday in heaven Zain.
I love you with all my heart, always and forever. Xxxxx

My precious little man, I think of you constantly, I miss you so so so much!
WHY did you have to leave us? WHY did god choose you to take from us?
WHY you? WHY WHY WHY?? just WHY?
Living with this heartache has become apart of me. I love you so much. I so desperately miss you. . Love always and forever, nanny Lindi xxxx

Hello my little man, I’m missing you so much. My heart is aching for you. I WILL see you again and when I do I am going to hold onto you so tightly and smother you with lots of nanny kisses.
Always in my thoughts , forever I shall love you❤️Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hello my gorgeous little boy. Happy heavenly birthday my darling.
I cannot believe you would be 4 years old today, the pain of losing you still feels raw, I miss you everyday. I hope all the other angels are celebrating your birthday with you. I imagine you running around playing with other children with that beautiful smile on your face. I love you little man, so so much. Lots of hugs and kisses are on there way to you zain.love from your nanny Lindixxxx

Hello my little man. 3 years since you became an angel, and it still feels like yesterday. I miss you so so much my darling. You are loved so so much. I will see you again when the time is right.
Big hugs Zain, lots of love and kisses your nanny Lindi. Xxxx

Happy Birthday little one, sending love and hugs to you and your family!

Happy birthday in Heaven Zain, big hugs to your family

Thinking of you today Linda. I have made so many graphics for your Zain.....he is truly a part of my angel journey. Every angel I know by name. I wish for you to also find your angels journey. Zain will be forever loved, forever missed, but never forgotton.

Hello my precious little man. You would have been celebrating your 3rd birthday today. We would have had so much fun! But instead you will be having your own fun in heaven with all the other little angels. I’m missing you soooooo much Zain!
The pain of losing you never goes away!
Happy birthday my little sweetheart. I love you beyond words. All my love to you now and forever. Your nanny Lindi

I miss you so much Zain, another Christmas without you and it’s so painful. You should be here opening presents and being spoilt by us! I love you little man. Please visit me in my dreams. Sleep tight my precious little boy. Love from your nanny Lindi xxxx

2 years today you fell asleep and became an angel. It still feels like it was yesterday.
I miss you so so much Zain, I miss your wonderful smile. You will always be in my heart my little man.
Love always and forever. Your nanny Lindi

It was so hard getting through today. you would have been 2 years old. you should be here, having a party, trying to blow your candles out and opening your presents.
It rips my heart out! I miss you and love you so so much!!
I will see you again one day and give you the biggest kiss and the biggest hug ever. Sleep tight little man. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Will always think of you and your happy face. Never to be forgotten. Love always great nanny Ann and great grandad Ben xxxx

The Angels up above will take good care of you precious little one.xxx

Christmas is here, but you are not..
I will see you soon Insha'Allah my son.

I think of you everyday zain, oh how I miss you xxx

Thinking of you my little Angel. I miss you so so much. xxx

I miss you precious little man, forever in my heart. xxx