'Oh Aaron, Sheema changed her mind and gonna let her go with me. We are gonna surprise Hick. I leave next week . so I'll be with the both of them for your birthday. Maybe all three of us will get thru it better. Momma just happy and sad cause I wish you were here.  I love you so much!!!

It's 3 days past my 65th birthday and I'm still miss you so much Aaron. Why you didn't fight? I need you so much. If only you had held on until I got there. I miss you Baby. 65 and retirement is nothing without you! Until next time......Be Sweet. Momma loves you!

Aaron,
            Dean's son Branden Dawson, he did it and you predicted it. He made it to the NBA. New Orlean , Pelicans chose him, but traded him off to The Clippers. Baby, you sure knew your sports and I told Terry to tell him you had always believed in him.Wish you could have shared it with him... I love you! Momma

Aaron, Momma tried. I don't have much anymore, but I was there for Natavia in pain all. And her Mom has turned on me and Bee already. She thinks we didn't realize how much Tavi was probably missing you, but we did. That's why Bee left early for her grand march and the graduation. He bought her flowers, balloons, and her dinner and she rode in the front seat with her Uncle. We can't bring you back. All we can do is be there when you can't. Her Mom is angry because Hick doesn't call or keep in touch and won't return her phone calls, but Hick doesn't call me. He has ways just like you, so I have to just try and catch him. She promised I could take Tavi with me to Minnesota, but now she said no because she don' t want Tavi to be chasing after him and he is the oldest. Your brother was so proud of her. But Momma okay, after your death, I don't think anyone can hurt me anymore. I love you and I'm going to see Hick and Tank for your birthday, so meet me there...I'll have your favorite cake and celebrate your 42nd birthday!!!  Your Moms with love!   And here' a picture of her in her cap n gown. She was so sweet. I love her so much Aaron cause  she's a part of you, but her mother won't let me be with her. I hope when she gets older, she'll come to me!       

Aaron, Momma miss you so much. If only I could bring you back! I love you Aaron! Be sweet. My heart aches for you.  Love, Momma

Guess what AB? Your Baby did it...She graduated June 3, 2015. Bee has been a tremendous stand in for you. He went to her Grand March on Prom night. She was so gorgeousssss! You would have been grinning. Just plain pretty and her date was an extroadinary young man. So respectful and clean cut. You know I checked him out for you. Then at the graduation, Bee bought balloons and flowers and her dinner. Just an all around Uncle. And she held on to him too. Wanted to ride with him and all. Hick couldn't make it. He just started a new job! But you know Hick and Bee is the closest people to her after YOU! I missed you,I love you, but you can ask Dean, I did good...I did real good.I just miss you so much.
                                                                                         Love Your Moms

P.S. I sat with Mae Mae at the graduation and dinner afterwards at Hooter's so that was a real 'Hoot'  LMBO!!!!  

Hey Baby,

    Momma just stopped by to tell you I love you and I still miss you so much. Barbara Jean died yesterday!. She has been very sick, so now she won't have to hurt anymore. I was able to go tell her bye. Her room was so peaceful. I wish I could have had that time with you, but God's plans are not ours. I love you to the moon and back. Natavia is getting ready for the prom. She is so happy. I wish you could see  her. I'll make sure you see her picture. She look so pretty in her dress. Her prom is May 8th and her graduation is June 3rd. I'll be standing for you at both of them. Hick is supposed to come for her graduation

HAPPY NEW YEAR BABY,
MOMMA LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU ALWAYS. I JUST MISS YOU. THAT'S ALL I CAN SAY TODAY. NO BODY UNDERSTANDS THAT I HURT SO BAD. I'M TIRED OF TRYING TO EXPLAIN AND PUT UP A FRONT THAT I AM HAPPY WHEN I AM NOT......I JUST MISS YOU THAT'S ALL AND I'M TIRED.........LOVE,MOMMA 

Hey AB, we're still missing you!! I'll see you in the rapture,we're holding onto a wing and a prayer. Remember AJ use to say that to us all the time. Still love you B!!!

AB, you know how we use to sit and laugh about Shema and Nay, man these two are still at it. What's funny is they still put me in the middle. I remember their last debate at my house and ya'll were on the porch, you told them to ask me and they really did'nt want to hear what I had to say. Well, sad to say AB these two are still at it. I'm constantly reminding them of how important it is to remember time together. Time is something you can never get back once it's gone. Then you'll have to rely on memories, which is what I have of you. I really enjoyed our family times together. Even though I have'nt spoken to your mom or B, I will continue to pray for their heart. Until then, may you rest in peace !!!!!!

It's 6:oo am and Momma can't sleep, but I know you would have been up getting ready for work in all this snow. Momma thinks aout you when she lays down and when she gets up no matter what time. You're the first person I think of. I love you and miss you you dearly. My life may continue ,but not in the way you are accustomed to be buying things, shopping, going on vacations. . My life will never be the same without you. I don't have the energy to do anything.I just go thru he motions of everyday life.My joy ended when you took your last breath. I just wish I could have been wth you. I'll nevr forgive myself for not being home that day! But know that I love you and I am nothing witout you. I can hardly wait to join you
                                                                                                   Love, Moms .

HAPPY NEW YEAR AARON. TIME IS FLYING BY BUT NOT TO MUCH THAT I DON'T THINK ABOT YOU EVERYDAY. HICK IS HERE WITH ME NOW. HAD TO HAVE BREAKFAST AT 6:00 PM. HAM, EGGS, JELLY TOAST. HE LOOKS SO MUCH LIKE YOU AND HE HAS ON ONE OF YOUR JACKETS.I LOVE YOU AND THANK YOU FOR LEAVING ME TWO GRANDCHILDREN. ONE THAT LOOKS JUST LIKE YOU AND THE OTHER JUST LIKE ME. COULDN'T HAVE ASKED FOR A BETTER DEAL. LOVE YOU YESTERDAY, TODAY, AND TOMORROW JUST THE SAME!

Thank you for watching and staying on NuNu like AB asked. Thank you for just loving him. It makes me proud that he even noticed that I cried at the drop of a hat!. But he knew his Momma and he also knew this would knock me to my knees,but I love and miss him so much. Holidays will never be the same for me. Life will never be the same for me but I thank GOD he gave me 38 years. Some mothers don't get that much! So I am still Blessed!

AB, you gave us our beautiful niece (NUNU). You askd me to always stay on her, I promised I would. She's becoming the young lady that you wanted her to be. She's still your mother's twin. (LOL) ! We use to laugh about who she would end up acting like. I guess you won, yep she's just like you, but only with hair. So until next time, I'll be praying for your mom. Oh, yes - she's crys alot, just like you said. (haha)

miss you much !!!!!!!!!!!

Ms.Dean