I go back to that day so easily, as I do all of my kids births! but yeah Aaron, you were in a big hurry, I got to the hosp. and you were born 30 minutes later! What a Shock!!! But you were beautiful! I dont think a mother ever forget the day their kids were born, and I know we all shared all of you alls, every year! It was in a military hosp. and they were pretty rugged back then, it was just me and you and a nurse and the Dr. walked in and caught you!
I still can't quite believe you are gone, it still hurts so dam much, how could you be gone. Not only for me for Pam and the kids! But Aaron she is doing so good w/ keeping your memory alive for them, I am so proud of her for that!
It will never be the same, what I would give to look out that back yard on easter and see your kids, Lori's kids and Jason chasing them all. Its the dream we all always had! but dreams are dreams, never to come true. I have learned that in these 3 years, I ask over and over why you? I still need you so very much, I even said I wish I had had about 3 more kids! LOL!
There are no answers, I know that know, I want to try so hard to get back to a more or less normal life, but I dont think it ever will be, I think of you every day, and think of all our talks on the phone all the time about everything. gosh I sure miss you! I don think any mother should ever have to go through this, its the most unfair thing there is!
No matter what day, night, you are are always in my heart. I look up at the stars and I wander if you can see them too, I look to the full moon and I always think of us talking about it, and wander if you see what I see.
I dont know when my end will be, but all I want to know is if I will be able to be w/ you again?? Love always, mom