Adam, I can't take it anymore. Please come and get me.
Love, Mom

Adam, it's getting harder & harder to live without you here.

Today is your birthday, the day that went from being the happiest day of my life to being the saddest day every year I continue to live without you.

The death of a child is like losing your breath and never catching it again. It's a forever panic attack to feel your heart die as your soul screams our for your precious child. No matter what you do or how hard you try, you continue to lose your mind...

On this, the 15th anniversary of your yahrzeit, I pray your spirit will come through to me today. I love you forever, Mom.

Oh, Adam, if only you were still alive, we would toast your 37th birthday today, and I would have hope for tomorrow. But instead I only have grief, the price I pay for love. Thank you for making January 29 the happiest day of my life for 23 years. I wish my beloved son Adam Benjamin Thilem a sweet celebration in heaven with his best friend John, my parents, and my brothers.