"Sometimes in life, you find a special friend. Someone who changes your life just by being part of it. Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop. Someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world. Someone who convinces you that there really is an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it. This is forever friendship. When you're down and the world seems dark and empty, your forever friend lifts you up in spirit and makes that dark and empty world ...suddenly seem bright and full. Your forever friend gets you through the hard times, the sad times and the confused times. If you turn and walk away, your forever friend follows. If you lose your way, your forever friend guides you and cheers you on. Your forever friend holds your hand and tells you that everything is going to be okay. And if you find such a friend, you feel happy and complete because you need not worry. You have a forever friend, and forever has no end." ~unknown

 This was my Special Friend and I truly miss my Special Friend.     

This is a mental count down for me. thinking back to the morining you were called  home, I think of you not wanting me to leave your side.  Getting myself ready to lay down for a few hours while you were sleeping.  While laying there on the reclining chair i got the worst pain in my leg and had to come up off the recliner. In that moment I accidentally awaken you, and you said "MawMaw what wrong, and i told you about my leg hurting so bad, so you call the nurse to get you a pain pill, and she comes in with a morphine short.  You eyes got soooo big, and you said, nurse, I just want a pill right now and she said you need the shot because of the time of night it was.  you took it, but you wanted the pill for me.  In all your sickness, you still wanted to take care of me, your Babe, Sweetness Mom, MawMaw.  Not knowing that 9 day later that the Lord would be calling you home and I would be all alone.

I am sooo lost with you.Honey. I just can not continue without you.  i would have never thought that I could not function normally from day to day without you. I miss you taking care of me, even in your sickness, your would care for me when i was not feeling well and bring me something to eat and drink.and make sure i was ok.  I miss you sooo much, it hurts. What I would give just to push you in the wheel chair and drive you around in the truck which you loved, taking you to your appointments.   

The memories of us gettiing up early on the weekends, going shopping early before the heat in Vegas and cooking your favorite weekend meal ior firing up the grill for some of your good grilling. And don;t take about that mean salad you would make allong with that Banana Pudding, you were that best, and I'm sooo proud we found each other.

It was so funny when you said, :i feel better, and we are going to go home, and I said we sure are and everything was going to be a o k, and you rubbed my hand and blew me a kiss and i came over and I got in the bed with you and gave you a big, big kiss and said yes we are gonna be out of here soon.

MJ really misses you, As you know I have your Urn placed where you wanted it.MJ goes up and looks at your picture and sayts "Where PawPaw go" I tell him you are in Haven and fold my hands in Prayer, so he says PawPaw gone and folds his hands in Prayer.  You were such an impact on his life.  I am glad he had the chance to interact with him to the point that he can remember you.  I wont let me sleep on your side of the bed, he says "That's PawPaws".  He went to the hospital with Tonya to visit and he thought he was gong to see you, because that was the last place he saw you.  He really misses you too..

Think of the times we would drive to Vegas, stop off and see John and Mary, then go on to Cali to see Mom (love her so very much,getting in the bed with her abd talking and you come in and kneel at the foot and get in our conversation)  Ricky was always rready to see us coming, so he could get us to buy him beer and he would be sooo happy, and he loved tio cook for us.

Just a few memories of thousands that surface daily...
      
     


   






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What started out as a friendship, not knowing he would be in my our life, until death did we part. I am sooo blessed to have my Honey in my life for soooo many years with never a talk of separation or talk of divorce. Always kind words and forever love.

A loving and caring husband, brother, father, grand-father, great-grand-father, uncle, and friend to so many. He would light up a room with his presence. Loved being around family and friends.  He was a no nonsence type of guy, but was a teddy bear at heart. Loved working on cars, he was an all around handy man in his spare time. The great grand baby would love to see Paw-Paw fixing anything, because he would get hin a tool and put it in his pants, because he would see Paw-Paw put his tools in his tool belt. He still says "I fix it" and goes and gets a plair or screwdriver imitating his Paw-Paw.

 There is no carbon copy of  MY PRECIOUS LOVE.  One of a kind. Always willing to please.  As his wife, I never wanted for anything.  If I just mentioned that I liked something, rest a sure he would get it for me.  He always put me first. Never asked for much. He never required anything from me as a wife, except to cook for him. He loved to eat. He did the cleaning, washing, working, grocery shopping etc.  He was a very humble man.  Never raised his voice.  I did not have the pleasure of meeting his father, but what I have been told his father was also a very humbled man. His Mom was also an  humbled woman, that I loved so dearly.  So by right he had it honest, which I totally admired in him. My Precious Love, loved the Lord. My mom gave him a MEN'S DEVOTIONAL BIBLE, many years ago, that he charished. Since his passing I am going through the MEN'S BIBLE AND HIS KJV BIBLE and reading his highlighted scriptures, and thoughts that he penned in his quite moments, while reading.

My oh my, did he love his grand children, and not to mention his great grand children.  Paw-Paw and Grand Dad was the greatest. Let me not forget to mention his only sister. I can hear him answering her phone calls by saying "Hello My Sister" He loved his brothers, but HIS SISTER IS HIS HEART. His daugthers are very special to him loving each differently.  His Son...a special kind of love and name sake, keeping the Dickson name alive. Every day is a struggle, because I miss him so much.  His smile was amazing, and him singing to me. I am so lost. 

 Oh how I love and miss My Precious Love.